I'm feeling a lot of guilt because my OCD has attached to the way as a Christian I don't really feel that sinful. Any advice to accept the feelings and move on with my life? I dont want guilt to run my life. Instead I want to put my energy into doing fun things!
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My girlfriend and I got into an argument earlier and I oushed her (she moved maybe like an inch or two away) so it wasn't like a hard push and now I just feel like a bad person or an abuser. I love her to death and I care for her alot. Now i'm scared that our relationship is toxic.
ocd almost has fully disappeared except for the fact that everytime i pick up a bible, think about church, and watch a christian preaching for even a second i am torn back to a defensive and traumatic emotion that im not sure if i will ever get over. the christian tik tok community is so toxic. and im scared to think about dating a boy, because although i would like to date a christian, i dont want to fall to pieces anytime he mentions anything religious. the ocd isnt tearing me apart anymore. its the triggers of trauma. can anyone relate at all?
Ok I need to rant. I’m a believer in Jesus. But I also have ocd and specifically ROCD so I’ve really been going through it for some time. My current thing is like - If I listen to sermons or read the Bible they just add to my obsessions and trigger anxiety so I’ve been just trying to focus on writing music cause it doesn’t give me anxiety and I think I am on earth partially to write music. Anyways now I feel like a sinner / not Christian or something because it’s like I don’t listen to sermons and I only read like a little of the Bible daily. So I wonder does anybody have a simeler experience and any advice? Thanks.
Anyone with religious OCD wondering if they are in the right religion? I've been debating on if I'm a "real" Christian or if I'm just a Christian because it's a common religion and it's the one I was raised in. Have any of you converted to a different faith? Did you feel more at home in your new faith or did your OCD still mess with you?
Brothers and sisters reading this at night having trouble sleeping or dreading the night because of the anxiety it brings. Accept one thing first, you have ocd, next pat yourself in the back or your head as you would someone who has done well, because look how far you've made it and how anxiety hasn't beaten you. Next take a couple of deep breaths, try to relax your heart even if anxiety is present, remember you're not alone, remember that any what if or doubt or thought is out of your control, it's not your fault you have ocd however we have control of our reactions. We are bigger and better than ocd, ocd is a coward that needs our fear to survive. Cut the life line to ocd that is compulsions, refuse them, feel what you feel as you refuse compulsions gradually and just know that what you feel is ocd dying not you screwing up the future or whatever you obsession says, when you get a strong reaction from refusing compulsions that is ocd dying. Refuse rumination and refuse analyzing, any compulsion refuse it and refocus your attention. Let the thoughts be. Here comes the best part, you're not alone in this fight, your Heavenly Father is with you always don't be afraid! God is bigger than ocd. Talk to Him and let Him know how you feel, ask Him for grace to endure therapy to trust therapy and trust Him. Faith is stepping into uncertainty knowing that God is there caring for us. Don't put your trust on your intrusive thoughts nor in the reaction of your body, put your trust in God and in the therapist God has provided for us to help us overcome ocd. God wants us to be happy and live! Dare to stand up to ocd, you're not alone in the fight, you have the Creator of the universe on your side. Glory to God! You are loved! You are not alone! Don't be afraid!
Literally spent well over an hour in the bathroom just doing a pee. As a Muslim I needed to do wudu to pray which consists of washing certain body parts. On average most people take 5 to 10 mins doing this but I take so long. I actually feel so tired and drained that it is even hard for me to type this. Is there anyone out there in the same situation? I really wish I knew someone who's been through the same thing.
I'm scared i'm a narcissist because they say that you "fantasize" about yourself which I do when i'm listening to music and walking. I'm also kind of passive aggressive when I get mad but dont want to actually hurt anyone. Idk if this is just OCD or i'm right, someone help pleaseeee.
I think I’ve asked this before but... does anyone have advice on if you are a Christian- how to separate the voice of God from the voice of OCD? It has become a constant struggle for me on a variety of subject matters and I am no longer really able to tell. Is a thought or compulsion to act from my OCD trying to guilt or scare me into doing something- or is it really God trying to push me outside my comfort zone and pursue an action? Any advice?
Hi everyone, I voluntarily thought about an old intrusive thought around yesterday and even added new horrible stuff to it (again voluntarily). I didn't panick because I knew it's nonsense but I've been panicking all day long because it wasn't intrusive, didn't just pop up there. I feel like a literal monster.
Hi everyone, I'm 14 and I've been experiencing different types of ocd since I was 9/10 years old. But my main themes now are sexual intrusive thoughts related to riligious figures and family members, and riligious OCD. I believe it's happening because I was exposed to porn at a very young age (literally 7 years old ig) to the point were it became an enjoyable addiction but I've very recently stopped, so I always blame myself even though I don't know if that's the main cause. Anyways, yesterday I was feeling relieved which made me anxious a bit because I was afraid if there will be a new scary thought, so I willingly thought about an old scary thought which literally started my OCD cycle again and willingly added more awful details because at that time it seemd less scary that the thoughts I had before it, I also didn't feel anxious about it because I knew it didn't make any sense and that it's wrong, but now I'm panicking. Is that normal? And is it considered as OCD? Ik my post is long but I hope that someone answers me :)
I have these intrusive thoughts that I know are morally wrong. The thoughts say that I want for a certain bad to happen to someone. Such as rape. I know that I do not hope or wish such a thing on anyone, but it feels like my mind is trying to force me to agree with hoping or wishing whatever bad thing on a specific person. After the thoughts have been there for a while, I feel ashamed and feel like a psycho.
Does anyone have this bad fear of "signs", where you think like music is talking to you and its saying your lioe true feelings or telling you something you dont want to do. Specifically with your relationship most of the time? I need help. I just want to be able to listen to my music like I used to. I'm afraid it's real.
I dont know if anyone else has the problem but, I always seem to think things I listen to are like some sort of sign from somewhere. I listen to this band and they makee think that I want to be with my ex boyfriend again and it i dont want that, i would rather be with my current boyfriend and what makes it worse is that before all of this i had almost forgotten or didnt think about my ex at all. Now it just makes me think that me and my ex were "ment to be" or something.
Anyone else’s obsessions revolve around magic and religion / spirits / fear of wishing bad things / dark magic I don’t even know how to begin to face these fears/ ERP I’m not religious but have recently grown so fearful of religion. Scared I’m going to ask god to kill people I love through thoughts and also whenever I hear about superstition and magic in cultures I feel so triggered. Scared I’m going have thoughts that I wish bad things will happen. It terrifies me that some cultures believe in dark magic and stuff. Like what if I accidentally upset someone and they do magic on me. I’m just so so fearful all the time.
One thing to understand from ocd is that it always lies to get a compulsion out of you, it always lies. It's not your friend you cannot trust ocd, it always lies. Refuse compulsion, starve that coward, take everything from ocd, compulsions feed ocd, starve it! You're never alone don't be afraid!
Ruminating has given me nothing but more themes and more limiting and scary beliefs designed to hold me and my life back. Especially if my brain throws God into it. Idk where people get this "OCD is a helpful companion that helps a little too much" from but I've yet to see the helpful part. All it has done was cloud my judgement, make decision making worse, and makes it hard for me to trust God.
I just read someone elses post about how "they wen't numb to there partner but now it just feels like they lost interest in them". I triggered myself for reading it -_-. That's tlwhat i'm afraid of and other things, but that is one of the main things. Anyone have any ideas or thoughts? I kinda need help. I don't want to be scared all day and ruminate.
Hi guys so i have been going trought something i never had before with Ocd i don't really now how to explain it but i will try my best Okay so i have many ocd thème but today i'm going to talk about my scrupulacity ocd (religion) so i had this about two years now but this New thing that happen with me in this specifiques theme is that anytime i read do or see something that is religion related i would try to stop any offensive thought from coming cuz i just now that it's coming it doesn't happen with my other thèmes only this one thé problème that even tho i can feel the thought coming into my brain stopping it doesn't work thé offensive thought will always come to my head sometimes i feel like that is me and not ocd the other problem is that i don't have any kind of anxiety after the thoughts cuz i have been really good at diregarding ocd thoughts but at this point i really don't if it's ocd or not is it ocd if you really now that is coming ? Or it's it cuz i'm so sensitive toward that subject that i keep trying to stop the thoughts even thé more i try to stop thé worst the thoughts would come if anyone here going trought thé same thing please share what you thing With me i need help
Can an obsession give you false feelings? I have religious ocd and now I am making myself believe I like doing religious things like praying constantly. This is causing me so much distress because it makes me think and feel I want to become a nun. I want these feelings to go away so badly but they just won't
Hi, this is my first time on the app. I am nervous and unsure about how helpful it will be. I have been diagnosed with OCD officially bit I am still trying to figure out my type as I seem to have multiple. My biggest is scrupilosity and all things involved with that, followed by fear of getting sick, and then I have super weird triggers like untucked bed sheets, blemishes (I pick my skin pretty heavily), and drinking alcohol. I feel like I am alone in some of these aspects and I fear I am beyond help.
Having an OCD issue and need advice. My family is moving soon . We’ve been wanting to buy a house for ages but our credit scores and lack of a down payment have prevented us from doing so. Anyway, now we are in a scenario where we can potentially buy and it’s the perfect spot . It’s everything we’ve ever wanted in a home. The thing is that the adress is number 63 on the street it’s on. Years ago when my OCD was at its worst numbers used to really bother me, especially 6 or multiples of 6. I do believe it’s because of my religious upbringing despite the fact that I’m not religious. The OCD even really goes out of its way to make a great life event bad by connecting the 6 to the 3 by it potentially be 3 6’s as in 666. I know it’s stupid and I can’t let OCD ruin such an amazing thing for my family. What would people here suggest as a good way to deal with this trigger and make it easier? Thanks
Scrupulosity has affected my decision making a great ton. I truly let people from the internet convince me that God would make me keep abusive people in my life. No matter what trauma they bring me spritiually, emotionally, and physically. My case worker and family members were rude to me alot and I want to distance myself but I'm being made to feel as though that's not the Christian thing to do. And sadly enough I believe it.
Brothers and sisters, we must accept one thing before we start our journey to recovery. We have ocd and it's not our fault. Once we accept that we can start recovery. This is important because once we accept this and we understand this we can perform erp and resist compulsions knowing that we are fighting back something we didn't create and something we can't control ourselves. We can't control when intrusive thoughts will come nor their content but we can control how we react to them. Be brave and have faith don't be afraid! You're not alone! Stand up to ocd, ocd is not your friend nor does it want the best for you. Trust your therapist trust God who is always with us and never abandons us. He loves us just as we are. God bless you, have faith!
im a little bored so im going to tell you all my ocd story. it all started in elementary school when i thought “what if my siblings stop breathing?” this caused me to stay up late to ensure they were still breathing in there sleep. on road trips i would always be the one to stay up while my siblings were sleeping so that i can make sure they were ok. then it turned to another theme where everything i did on one side of my body i had to do on the other. for example, if i opened a door using one hand then i had to do it with the other hand. then it turned into religious ocd. i thought that everything i did would cause me to sell my soul to the devil. if i blinked 5 times i would sell my soul and it would be a bunch of ridiculous things like that. when i fell asleep i would feel as if my body was being possessed and that there was a demon in the corner of my room. now onto the worst theme i have had to go through, hocd. this began in quarantine while i was on tik tok. i would see these tik toks where the person would be like “if your favorite movie was tangled then you are gay now” “if you like drinking sprite then you are gay” the most ridiculous things right? well sometimes i related to what they were saying and that got me worried. around that time i rejoined the one direction fandom. a running joke in the fandom is that everyone is gay. that is what took the worry to another level. i live in miami so i have been exposed to homosexuality my entire life and many of my friends identify as lgbtq+. i have nothing against homosexuality and have been a proud ally my entire life. but i dont personally identify as gay (umbrella term) so when this began it caused me mass amounts of worry and anxiety cause its not me at all. i have been boy crazy my entire life and it made me feel amazing when i had a crush on a boy. so the thought of losing that and my future doing a complete 180° terrified me. what took it to another level is my insecurities. i have never been the thinnest person in the class so i always admired the girls that matched the beauty standards. i would often compare myself to the tik tok girls that had perfect bodies. i thought they were beautiful and i aspired to look like them. then ocd put the thought in my head “what if you actually want to date them?” that caused me to get so scared. i soon developed all these compulsions where i would check if i was attracted to every woman i saw, would look back on my memories and see if anything i did showed signs of me being gay, and spend hours researching sexuality. i never felt connected with any of them except for heterosexuality because i have always only been romantically, sexually, and emotionally attracted to men. but i never felt like i had a definitive answer cause my mind would think “i cant be straight if im having these thoughts. why wont these thoughts stop?” i felt like i had to accept me being gay even if it didnt feel like me at all. i spent months living this torment of not knowing who i was until i found ocd. i thought ocd was the stereotype of uncontrollably cleaning. i read more into it and found hocd. it made complete sense. before i knew about it i would always look back at my past and would say “dang this feels a lot like what happened with my siblings breathing.” so i have always had ocd but i didnt find out til this theme. im still working toward being recovered but i feel much better knowing i am not alone and that there is tons of people experiencing this. this just goes to show that we as a society have to do more to educate others on ocd because there are hundreds of people that are suffering in silence due to the fear of being judged. im sorry that was long just wanted to say that:)
Guys I have a question, I know what I’m ruminating about is not good it’s wrong and bad yet still I’m stuck on this mindset, like cursed with it I try to think better thoughts on that subject but it’s back on the same old pattern how can I come out of it. If I stop ruminating is the problem then solved. But about the bad thoughts how can I change them to good are they stuck forever.
Hope everyone has a great day and can overcome or treat there differentl ocd themes at least for the day, it’s a slow battle, take a deep breath, pray to the lord and just talk to him during bad episodes, I struggle daily with different ocd episodes including rocd and hocd but I know once this battle is finally over or I can fully treat it life will be great, love you all and hope everyone has a blessed day
Brothers and sisters, ocd stops being ocd once you resist doing compulsions, then you're left with intrusive thoughts which everyone experiences. Anxiety will come and so as doubt, all part of what ocd throws at us to get us to do compulsions, ocd is a coward and feeds off your fears, be courageous and stand up to the coward. Watch it run away as you resist everything it throws your way. The thoughts might still be there but the more you resist compulsions the less they will be on your mind. So be brave as you have been, ocd will never win because God is on our side. Of whom shall we be afraid? The same God that created heaven and earth loves us as His own children. He never abandons His children. Listen to the therapist do the homework fight with attitude you're never alone, don't be afraid. God bless you.
This is just a problem. I used to love the Kingdom Hearts series until my ocd started up. They make the villains “too cool” and it makes my ocd think I want darkness and all that. There’s a new game in the series and guess who’s gonna have to miss out?
I HATE this OCD. Ruminating over and over again about an event that happened while I was sick with COVID. And I get the "what if I actually lose my mind tonight." I've survived thousandths of panic attacks. Never lost my mind yet. But the thought still comes. Plus past things I can't seem to forgive myself for. And I relive them and fall into begging God to forgive me over and over. Even though I've already prayed so many times about it. I can't seem to let go of this stuff.
My daughter who has religious and contamination ocd is asking to be excused from a a family vacation because she will not be able to eat or sleep or do anything. Nor will she be able to sleep in her bed when we return. Should I let her stay with grandma while the rest of the family goes on the trip? Should I make her go with us even though she will be miserable and make her siblings miserable through her behavior? Such a difficult decision! She is 14 years old and refuses to actively participate in therapy. She said she like her life the way it is and is fine with the restrictions she has placed on herself. My thinking is that if she goes and sees how much fun everyone is having she might start to realize she has a problem and cooperate more with treatment. Any suggestions are greatly appreciate! Thank you!
I’m getting super worried about my religious and relationship ocd. My boyfriend is very religious and likes to debate people about beliefs online. Of course from the beginning it sort of confused me, especially since I went to catholic school my whole life and finally graduated. He knows that there’s certain things that he believes that I disagree with. He’s also aware of my scruples. Yet he loves to bring up his arguments with people online constantly about how they are wrong. I agree with a lot of the things the other people argue with. It makes me super anxious when he talks about this stuff. At this point he’s always talking about how I’m always crying. I don’t know what to do and to tell him that he is triggering me. I need some advice.
Question for my agnostic and atheist OCD peers (I’m agnostic myself): How do you keep hope that there is someone or something looking out for us, and that our prayers and dreams are being heard? I know this isn’t entirely OCD related but i feel like beliefs are a whole different ball game when you have excessive doubts.
I’m sorry to hear so many people are struggling at the moment, I’m seeing lots of posts of people suffering with OCD. I also have been struggling with OCD today, but the way I’m getting through it is to follow the idea that OCD is always lying to you. Your OCD thoughts are your mind catastrophising everything, but there’s no true evidence to suggest your OCD fears are going to/are happening, so just remember your thoughts probably won’t happen, and even if they do (which they 99% won’t), they won’t be as bad as your OCD visualises it. So try not to let those thoughts put you off, try ignoring those thoughts completely and focus on something else. It is not easy at all, but it’s something you should try because it is worth it if your thoughts are that bad. Take a deep breath and keep going!
Religous OCD Right now I am ruminating about many things and all I know is that I dont know nothing at all. I am learning everyday and everyday there are new things to learn. My ocd is using my faith as something to somewhat hurt me, with doutbs or fear. I really dont to fear. Really, I just wanted to feel peace and comfort with the fact that I believe in Jesus and that I am saved. But I have a constant feeling of dread, as if wasnt enough for me to be saved, like I would need to a perfect person and never sin again in my life.
Often with OCD the thoughts we get want us to do something about them. But what if we don’t? What if we just sit with them and observe. What if we just see them for what they truly are: puffs of nothingness and just random strings of words our brain put together. What if we don’t solve them or try to figure them out? What if we don’t do anything about them? Do nothing is the best thing we can do because that is where freedom lies. When we do nothing we teach our brain that these thoughts are NOTHING. Nothing of importance. Nothing of need and most importantly nothing to us. We show our brain that we, our values, our actions, our core beliefs these are what determine who we are and who we will become. Doing nothing about the thoughts, not solving them or figuring them out, not adding a deeper meaning to them or giving them weight, this is where true freedom lies!
hi i just recently joined this app and i am terrified. i am a 15 year old girl that has been dealing with intrusive thoughts my entire life. my first recollection with it was the constant fear that my siblings would forget how to breathe. i would stay up all night just to check on them and ensure that they are ok. it went away but then i started having problems with my religion. i was so constantly scared that every move i made would disappointment god and that i would be sent to the devil. it got to the point where i would feel as if a demon was watching me while i slept. now i am dealing with my sexuality. i have known my entire life that i am straight. only ever had romantic feelings for men and never thought of women as anything more than a friend. cause of quarantine i have developed these intrusive thoughts where i feel as if everything i do will make people believe i am gay. i am an ally to the lgbtq community but i keep having these unwanted thoughts of me being homosexual even though i have never felt attracted to women. i need help. i am just a teenager but i have been suffering with ocd my entire life and just now i decided to acknowledge it. i am also way too scared to tell my parents. they are so loving and protective of me that i feel as if i will disappoint them. im sorry this was long i just needed to let it all out. have a good day!!
To anyone having a really hard OCD day or just a hard time in general. Please believe that things are going to get better because THEY DO. One hard truth tho: it gets worse before it gets better! When you start ERP your brain will go through what I call a rebellion stage. Resist and continue to refuse any reaction or compulsion during this time. Try your best to cut down your compulsions by half during this time and reduce rumination. The best revenge you can get on your OCD is living the life you’ve always imagined for yourself. I promise with hard work, patience, and gratitude for the small steps and progress you make. You will get there! Just believe in yourself! The mind is a powerful thing and we can rewire it and retrain it. YOU will beat this! I believe in YOU ❤️
Everytime I go out and are around other people I forget about the thoughts completely and is usually because I have social anxiety but it makes me doubt that I have OCD even though I already been diagnosed. It also makes me think I could have prevented this episode in my life meaning I could have prevented my OCD attaching to my religion🙁 which is the theme I’m currently struggling and it has hit me the worse because it has to do with the unpardonable sin😔😔😔
My Ocd I feel is specifically difficult to get through because it feels like everything that is in my mind is specially crafted and targeted to break me down into nothing. It feels as though my brain wants me to have nothing, no personality, freedom, career, happiness or anything. It tries constantly to prevent me from doing things that will make me happy or that's actually good for me under the guise that God is talking to me and I often am subjected to the back up from so called "Christian" blogs and Tv stations that practice Fire and Brimstone Legalism and deny human rights for anyone different. I've went from being someone who believed that God wouldn't want me to be abused or used to letting OCD and these people teach me that I should stay silent in the midst of injustice, sit and be mistreated and abused. Constantly everything I strive for such as financial freedom, freedom from being dependent on others, educated, and happy/free from OCD is berated and under attack by OCD. Everything that I feel or think feels less than compared to what others say and think and it makes it difficult for me to be in control of my own emotions and thoughts. It gets so bad that I doubt whether or not I'm hungry out of fear of committing gluttony and emotional eating which created a bad relationship with food to where I even have to build up the courage to simply eat. I'm in a dark space and although I'm getting help and all signed up for therapy the longer I go without therapy the worse I get. I'm always being abused, used, and gaslighted using the name of God and it has affected my belief and faith in the worse way.
Okay so this is a question for Christians who have recovered from religion and spirituality ocd. Did it hurt your relationship with Jesus? If so, how did you mend it? Sometimes it feels like I’m trying to hold on to Him just because I know to and not because I want to, and this is because I’ve been ruminating on the things that I’m afraid of falling to instead of Him so much more that my brain is trained to see them as natural and enjoyable. But I know this is just a mindset I’ve trained myself into; I’m looking for tips on how to break it.
Does anyone feel like they don’t deserve to live😔 I’m dealing with Religious ocd and I had many episodes ever since I been having so much blasphemous thoughts and I had many episodes where I think I have said things aloud and I’m terrefied😔 there is so much bible verses that talk about blasphemous people and I’m terrefied I wish these would never happened I don’t understand! How? Why? I’m so sad and scare and I don’t know what to do!
This is for my fellow Christians out there. Do you ever feel or think almost like you’ve got some kind of evil spirit or something in you that prevents you from ever truly loving Jesus and pulls you towards evil? I have this crippling fear and I just wanted to know if I wasn’t alone. I’m praying that if that’s the case, God would take it away from me. I also just wanted to say that if I’m not alone, don’t worry, God can do anything. In the Bible, remember, demons trembled in fear and begged for mercy at the sight of Jesus, and His authority expelled them from people who the religious leaders of the day had no hope for.
I’ve just gotten to the point where I feel like most things in my life are out of my control. Like I’m being forced to give up the things I want, and there’s no way to try and achieve them because it’s just not meant to be that way. Like the only happy ending I could half is some half-assed mundane life where I learn to just give up and go with the flow, never to fulfill my dreams.
TW I feel like God is getting me back. I was mad at my sisters husband because he was racist to me once and I held a grudge for a long time and when the moment I said something to his kids and my sister regarding their dad that they actually already knew about. I was manic or something and being over the top that day------This was like 4 years ago. I had a horrible day like around 3 1/2 months ago....it feels like a day of reckoning, it feels so humiliating....its like something I tried to keep a secret that I had to be careful around my cat came out!...and I feel God let it happen--I am so mad at God.....God must have a problem with me and I guess I deserve this humiliation.....sorry if this sounds manipulative....I don't want to be manipulative...I just can't believe this happened.
I'm so distressed by OCD right now. I'm in floods of tears because I feel so paralyzed mentally from it. I tried talking to my Mum but she is worried about something else so she can't talk. But a bad OCD episode doesn't consider if it's a convenient time. I'm on the verge of giving up my faith because this religious OCD is too painful.
Acceptance is key: this means accepting the presence of these thoughts not the validity. The thoughts aren’t valid but we can accept the fact that they are there. Let the noise in your head be as loud and rampant as it wants. Strive towards treating it like background noise, no matter how scary. Remember that you are not your thoughts. Live with your values. “Just accept the stuff in your head and do what you value.” - Mark Freeman.
I feel like I’ve just given up and decided to just purposely think, but along comes new bad thoughts. And I can’t seem to stop thinking them over and over. I feel like it’s me not wanting to stop. Sometimes at that moment I don’t feel guilty, like I don’t care. Later on I’m praying for forgiveness and help. I’m so confused on whether I want these thoughts to stop or not. Does anyone ever feel this way? Does this even make sense?
what are great books for working on you childhood trauma. Like inner child healing. Or books about CBT that helped you guys a lot! I feel that I need to heal that part of myself to be able to make great progress. I haven’t dealt with my childhood trauma I feel that it’s important to deal with it now to build my own self compassion and sense of safety.
Today I was listening to music and I was going through songs and lots of the titles were like "let her go" or "let go", "walk away" and things of that nature and I have this really big fear of signs and the universe so whenever I saw them my heart dropped and I'm scared its real and its telling me to leave my girlfriend. I think I struggle with ROCD because it's like I lost feelings for her and I get scared that I'm just in denial. I need help because at this point Idk what to do, i go listen to music to motivate myself to keep pushing and not give up on our relationship.
For the past 3 to 4 days I have been seeing the number "444" everywhere and i have thus fear of "signs" from the universe and things like that so everytime i see the number it scares me, i know it means something good but still, i just don't want the whole "signs" thing to be real in the first place. Someone please help.
Any one dealing with blasphemous thoughts it triggers me so much to read the Bible or watch anything about God before all of this I had a good relationship with God he is my everything and I feel sad and scare that I have done something bad I know you all going to tell me thoughts are just thoughts i been dealing with this day and night for a month and at this point I had so much false memories that I don’t know if are true or not:( I’m so scare that I will end up in hell and I’m also scare that I will be use to this thoughts that I will end up doing something bad with out knowing I’m so scare please help😞