How do you live with these thoughts without the fear of actually being in denial and having to leave your relationship. I don’t have any sexual attraction to a guy but my brain and thoughts put that in my mind. Soocd sucks.. any advice? Tired of these thoughts and feeling like I’m lying to myself. Diagnosed with ocd as well btw
Hey! I’m interested to hear the other side of soocd that LGBTQ people suffer with. Would love to hear y’all experiences with this theme
Does anyone else get these weird attraction like feelings to everything of the same sex? Like when someone of the same sex makes a hand movement? Or when they just move their eyes ? Or when they just look around? Or how their pants look or their stance? Literally anything. Such a weird feeling. Maybe no one else can relate
Everytime i feel a lot of distres and thoughts that go against me (hocd), i always have the urge to play the song «Rule Britannia» its quiet strange compulsion. Do you also play music in attempt to stop the thought? Sorry for my bad English. I am not a native speaker.
Anyone who has extreme SO OCD have any advice and tips for recovery or erp?
today, and a little bit of last night, it's acting up in a way that's making me question if i really am attracted to my boyfriend. this hasn't really happened before. i'm exhausted. my so-ocd is also acting up a little, but less than it was a few days ago. i keep getting intrusive thoughts asking me if i'm a lesbian when i know i'm not and that i'm in love with my boyfriend. trying to lean into the uncertainty more because someone on here gave me the advice to do so with that. i think it's helping.
Hi, I hope you all feel better today. I've recently watched some of Nathan Peterson's videos on YT and it helped me in some way, although I have not been diagnosed with OCD. One thing I learned is that I'm not going to figure out all my what if's and doubts, no matter how hard I try. So I'll stop trying anyway, the thoughts will still be there, the anxiety will still be there, but I'm not going to waste all my energy thinking because at the end of the day, there is really no satisfaction for OCD.
I just went to my first session with a therapist. He's not a specialist on ocd but he has treated patients with it too. I told him my history and initially he told me there was a possibility that I had ocd. Then, he asked me my current theme, as it was something I initially omitted. Then I told him it was hocd, and I told him my thought process on it. By the end of the session, he was telling me that our thoughts do not translate to who we are and all of that, and that he thought I had intrusive thoughts with obsessive tendencies or something like that. I don't get what changed mid session. This triggered me slightly and Im thinking of not going anymore if he's not gonna treat this as ocd. Maybe I'll go to one more and decide. What do you guys think?
Feel in denial 24/7 I say to myself I don't want to feel this way but my mind and body tell me I do & this is part of the coming out process, I'm just stuck.
Tomorrow is my first appointment with a ocd therapist 😥and I am going to tell about my ocd theme's for the first time to anyone... And I am terrified that they will say it's not ocd and I gotta figure it out myself. Can anyone here come with helpful tips to make the experience a bit more comfortable? I would also like some encouraging words bc my brain is telling me not to go...
Has anyone ever experienced an intrusive thought about liking their best friend of the same sex? I’m straight but for some reason my mind always says I like my best friend, even though I know I don’t. It bothers me to the point I’m wanting to drift.
I'm so fucken sad. I feel this pit in my stomach everytime the content comes in. I'm so scared because today I did an exposure that triggered the hell out of me! I feel like there's so much evidence against for why my orientation is a lie and that I couldn't be with any man ever again. I love my BF, he's my best friend and I love him 💗 I'm super scared to be forced to give all that up. This beautiful life that we've planned out. I don't mind being bi or pan or whatever, I just want to be able to be with a man. I've always sought them out for protection, love and comfort.
Does your mind or ocd tell you that you are making everything up and using ocd as a excuse. Always feels so real
I can’t even go on YouTube or any other type of media without my mind telling me to look for “hot guys” and then me preceding to look for them, it just feels like everywhere I look I expect some guy to be there and if not then I get that feeling of being disappointed. Anyone else ?
How deep are you into this theme? What does it feel like for you?
Visited my boyfriend over the past weekend and my thoughts were still very much there but does anyone get more intrusive thoughts or deal with SO-OCD and feel it more prevalent before and after seeing your significant other. I’m back home and the fact that I feel like I’m lesbian is back more than ever. Wondering if anyone in a long distance relationship feels like this?
OCD management, remission, health, better days….it’s all ahead, friends. Praising and praying till we get there. ❤️🐢 P.S. Now I have the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles theme song in my head. If you do too, consider yourself part of the team. You’re welcome. 🍕 #Cowabunga #KarateChopSomeOCDTush
Welp it happened… my friend tried to roast me about my HOCD and talk about how “I don’t know who I’m attracted to” and he said I don’t have HOCD… I asked him to define what ocd is he said “intrusive thoughts” so he has some knowledge… idk what to do… my HOCD is telling me that I’m in denial because of this… idk what to do…
So I haven’t had any distress from HOCD in like almost a year even though I’ve struggled with it for years now. But last night I was with some friends and we watched a show that had an explicit gay relationship in it and since then I feel my anxiety has returned. My thoughts are racing I feel like I can’t calm down. It makes me not want to see those friends. I know what to do I think it’s just frustrating because I thought this was behind me
Please be gentle, kind and, loving to yourselves as much as you are to other people.
Hi! I can't go to therapy so I want to do erp on my own, but I keep postponing the moment in which I'll start, maybe because I'm afraid I won't do it right, idk. If you have any advice, I would really appreciate it🥺🩷
Is this normal?
Does anyone soocd/ rocd amplify when they get into a disagreement or argument with there partner? Is this normal?
No one just even notices my posts anymore… like I don’t exist… ihml…
Has anyone else just been going through the same theme for months or even years and now it just feels like it's normal? Like you're so used to it now, that you can't get a good grip on who you used to be and are just afraid you will eventually forget who you used to be?
struggling with this theme currently. i am worried that i am secretly a lesbian and i am just leading my boyfriend on because i like his attention. i don't think this is actually true as i do truly love my boyfriend, but i'm worried anyways. my ocd is making me question if my love for him is romantic or just platonic.
Has anyone in their experience fixated on one person as if they’ve had a crush on them ?
Got stuck in a 3 hour googling compulsion rapidly trying to find the definition between denial and SOOCD. Compulsion only stopped because I received a phone call and now I cant stop trying to figure out why I spent three hours of my life doing this. As if the compulsion isn’t time consuming and draining enough, now the embarrassment, guilt, and “what is wrong with me” loop begins.
Why is my mind telling me that I’m gay. I’ve never been attracted to men always girls. It’s so frustrating when I’m talking to someone and my mind makes up these fake scenarios like say ur gay. I don’t want to be gay. Is it my ocd
After probably a year , my hocd is coming back and I wanna prevent this. I am accepting the thoughts, using the “maybe I am , maybe I’m not “ but my hocd is only getting worse. I have a girlfriend too and now it seems like I don’t love her, I’m just being with her for the sake of it. Help me recover please
I was doing well for a while and then I relapsed and it feels more realer then ever and like I’ve changed some how. Even questioning if I have ocd sometimes when I know I do.. this thing is tough lol. Anyone relate?
How long has the recovery process taken for you?
I read this article saying hocd wasn’t a real thing and your just in deep denial about it. Definitely triggered by ocd. What do y’all think bout it
Does anyone else get intrusive thoughts that interrupt their day dreaming? I’ll be romanticizing a happy day dream about a boy and then my SOCD intrusive thoughts seem to hijack my day dream and spin that narrative into something else. It happens a lot and it’s been a hard thing to shake so if you have any tips I’m all ears.
Before I learned about hocd I got nervous a lot, but it was 'over' after reassurement (at least for a little bit). I think I read an article about porn addition and it made me realise that I watch way too much and it made me anxious. Then because of that I started reading about HOCD and realised almost everything checks out. Now, even tough I mentally I'm better since I recognise when I shouldn't reassure myself, I feel somewhat anxious all the time. I cannot yawn but I want to all the time , breaths never seem to be deep enough and sometimes there's a lump in my throath. Did anyone else go though this and what did you do? (I'm 17 and don't feel ready to talk about gay-ocd to my parents to get therapy at all.)
Why do I feel anxious even though I’m on meds. I’m on Zoloft 25mg and steel feel anxiety about my hocd. Also I’m in therapy every Monday.
I keep getting just constant intrusive thoughts feelings and groinals… I hate this so much… it makes the intrusive thoughts and feelings feel so real, and giving me intrusive thoughts of guys names, doing stuff with them, and words like “boyfriend”, “gay” or “bisexual”… I don’t ever want to ever be a p or a chomo or homosexual or bisexual in any way shape or form…
Hi I have been struggling with socd for 4 or 5 months now I have been straight my whole life never wanted to be with a man ever and still don’t and I’m at the point now where I know I’m not gay I’m struggling with the thoughts that I can’t get out of my head like I’m In a loop and I get intense anxiety if I don’t think these thoughts even though I’m it hurts me… I have good days and bad days mostly bad but the bad days are thoughts constantly 24/7 every 30 seconds from the time I wake up I just want this to go away it just happened one night and I’m staying hopeful it will go. Also if I find myself getting to happy and forgetting for a moment it will come back 2x stronger
Please only respond if you have healed from this. I’ve been struggling with TOCD and HOCD for a long time now and it’s really frustrating. I keep trying to figure it out and that makes it worse. I’m not seeing a specialist so I’m only using the advice from my CBT therapist and online help. I’m a straight male so. Plz help if you know how to resist compulsions and more
Anyone else experience so called romantic feelings or attractions during this theme?
I was diagnosed with ocd like 2 months ago. I have excessive rumination about my orientation. As long as I can remember I’ve only been attracted to woman and never with men. I’m having intrusive thoughts like I’m gay and that u have to come out to everyone because your gay. I’m just worry I’m in denial.
Tbh I don't really understand my sexuality anymore since my Hocd started last year I have been facing one challenge to another, The current challenge l'm facing is checking my private part to see if I get an erection honestly I get weird feeling that I don't understand, it feels like l'm living in denial and it feels like l'm lying to myself and also l'm making up images in my head trying to know if I like it or if l'm sexually attracted to it, is this compulsions? Please I need help to know what's going on with me
My anxiety has pretty much gone away completely. I feel myself caring about the content less and less. Does this ever feel like you "like" the intrusive thoughts? I know logically I am into doing sexual things with men, yet here I am having intrusive thoughts about the same sex. It feels like this is some "unknown" truth that I've somehow come to "accept." Anyone else relate? Can anyone give me their personal story of intrusive feelings that come with the thoughts?
Ok how many of us are bi or pan or queer like me? S/o ocd is like “you like this gender! No wait, you like this gender!” And I’m finally just like ma’am I like them all 😚
I breaked up with gf because i cheated on her and i didnt tell her but i just breaked up with her and im just crying all night.And i cant live like this anymore.I let myself be stupid.But in one way im to young for relationships and i would like to be a single because i want to hangout like before etc.But i cant imagine snymore another woman like my girlfriend was.She was the best special girlfriend in the world.
What sort of daily routines did you do to recover from your HOCD ? Examples please
Anybody recover from HOCD? It’s truly a different animal. And if you did how long did it take you? What helped you to recover?
Does anyone else feel like ERP is making things worse? I haven’t been doing it long but it feels like I’m struggling more than I initially was. Would love to hear any success stories or anyone else who can relate?
I just keep getting intrusive thoughts of guys being cute and doing stuff with them, intrusive feelings that make it feel so real, and groinal responses when I’m trying to sleep and the intrusive thoughts come in… I don’t ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in any way… 😭😭😭
I just keep getting intrusive thoughts of guys being cute and doing stuff with them, intrusive feelings that make it feel so real, and groinal responses when I’m trying to sleep and the intrusive thoughts come in… I don’t ever want to ever be homosexual or bisexual in any way… 😭😭😭
Can someone give me erp tips for Hocd?? I had 0 thoughts before I was triggered now I just want to get my life back on control
Hello guys I am fully recovered from hocd..so here is the motivation. Don't worry you will be cured..... But i have another obsession recently... There is a boy whom I liked... When I tried to approach him he rejected me.. Which is fine.. I am not worrying about rejection at all... But recently I am obsessed with the fact that inspite of knowing me he is ignoring me and all that thing.. But this is not me... It's my obsession..sometime when we met face to face I feel very nervous... And one more thing.. In the class I don't know why I want him to look at him like my brain is telling me to look at him but I don't want to.. I know it's very wrong becoz he rejected me and I don't want to chase the boy who doesn't even want me.. I don't want to think about him ....it doesn't matter what he thinks about me.... But my brain can't stop pointless obsession about him.. And I want to stop this obsession about him.... And I don't want to care what he thinks about me.. Becoz it doesn't matter to me at all.... Pls someone help me about this obsession..
LOL, I think many of you know what I mean here. I’ve been trying to accept my thoughts and doing the “maybe, maybe not” technique and also labeling them as intrusive thoughts, along with reading a help book and it seems to have really calmed me down BUT now I’m scared that I’m not scared 😅 Any one relate?!
This whole thing annoys me. It's currently trying to say I was insecure bc of boys, and when I'm thinking of past events that have happened during HOCD, saying I was insecure then bc the boys bring out the insecurities or whatever. I don't think this is true. Bc since my ocd got worse, it started with mental illness obsessions, I was concerned that maybe I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, which I don't, was just an obsession. But I'm pretty sure around then, the physical insecurities became dormant bc I was so focused on something else. Honestly, I was originally sure my physical insecurities were just bc of intrusive thoughts and it's not bc of boys, bc I used to look at girls and be jealous of them and become insecure bc of this. I wish my mind would stop pushing this, honestly, it's ridiculous.
After a full night without a minute of sleep, I definitely feel there is a link between misophonia and OCD. I have been diagnosed with both, and they both heighten my anxiety. Last night before bed I heard a sound that truly upset my misophonia, and in turn I now feel so wrong and dirty? I’m not sure if that makes sense, but I don’t feel as clean and sure of myself. I’ve tried exposure therapies but I don’t feel they have helped lessen the stress I get from these sounds. I’m still in stress hives at the moment, and I’ve tried lots of different distraction methods throughout the night (all unsuccessful since the sound is still stuck in my head and replaying). If anyone has any experience in this, please feel free to share. It would be greatly appreciated :)
What is the voice/what is truth/what is a lie. What if both sides had their truths and lies. What if acceptance is duality. Learning to live with the gods and the demons of the world. A cheat code. Possibly. Figuring out yourself. Cycles of thinking. All forms of it. I will drive myself insane because it’s the beauty of life and the mind. What if OCD never existed. HOCD never existed. And I could run from the fact of me being a gay man. What if? What happens? I guess you never know. Is this a escape mechanism to escape truth. Or is there truth to the power of the mind and manifesting. It’s an offends/defense game you play with yourself. Chess. Strategy: tricking oneself. Feeling possessed/consumed with an idea. A stick. Life is beautiful to each and everyone you who come across this there’s more than hope there’s certainty to your problems coming out….haha In being not only solved but a way to move up the totem pole of the infinite mental/self progress ladder we play in this game of life. Maybe it’s a trick/maybe it’s truth good luck playing the game 🫡
Winning this battle We got this
I’m struggling right to determine what are my thoughts and ocd thoughts and I’m confused right I want to to ball up and cry cause I don’t know anymore I hate this some one please help me
I don't know why. I'm not even scared of it. It feels like I want it or enjoy it?
Much needed reminder. 🥺 Check out @whatthe_ocd on Instagram if you need reminders like this. ❤️
I’m working at derailing mental rituals. It’s so true they help for a very short time. I find the ocd pulls at me to say in my head the ritual. I have to say it twice. I’m practicing and the anxiety is very strong. I’ll get there, I’m just not there yet. When I take an Ativan it calms me and my practice is more productive. Have any of you had a med to help until you get to the level of not needing it?
I’m currently on 5mg of Buspar 3x a day for anxiety and my doctor offered to also prescribe me Wellbutrin. Did anyone ever try this combo that has HOCD? Does it help with the ruminating thoughts or should I try something else? I’m trying to feel normal again
Hello everyone. I just wanted to know is there anyone with soocd that is in a relationship?? How do you cope and be happy or content in your relationship??
Has anyone successfully recovered from deep HOCD?
I’m not looking for reassurance but the lack of anxiety (most likely due to meds) and the feelings/emotions accompanied by the thoughts is all too real. It’s almost like I like this reality my mind is creating but I’m staying strong and disregarding!
Always remember when dealing with any ocd theme it’s not who you are don’t let anyone tell you what you are!! You will become stronger as a person don’t give or give in to things you don’t want!! You will overcome ocd!! Sexual orientation ocd has nothing to do with your identity or orientation it has everything to do with ocd playing with your values as a person. When you are so caught up in your head you literally forget who you are and what you stand for!! Don’t give in to the thoughts they aren’t and never will be you!! Accept the thoughts and keep on pushing to recover!! You are not alone 👍🏽
Here we all are with some form of OCD whether we’ve accepted it or used it as a crutch we are here. It’s true beauty the dance we are in to play won’t hear thoughts and try and figure them out. The mind is so powerful and as well all know from us being here it can take us to the extremes of whatever side you land on/I guess all this to say I’m gay ;) sexual orientation/identity is such a touchy topic and it’s been my battle the past 9 months with it’s ups and down like everything else there’s a sense of relief you get from each little win or loss you may have with yourself. The chess game you play with your own mind can be something that is so interesting about life and all of our abilities to have this awareness of what it is we are all obsessing over. May god bless all of you in your journey with whatever you’re dealing with and continue to stay strong in the heat of the battles/spikes of thoughts/triggers that we all have. Stay strong and always have the belief of you can always win it’s a matter of how bad and executing on that mind frame! 🥇🗣️💎
Even when anxiety dies out and the thoughts feel like you are comfortable with them that’s fine you are slowly recovery from the thoughts that doesn’t mean you like these thoughts or want them it means you aren’t fighting them anymore. You simply accepting and allow yourself to have these thoughts and let the past. Remember this what you resist will persist. It’s okay to have unwanted thoughts everyone has them even if they don’t want to admit it. At the end of the day accepting the thought doesn’t mean you are those thoughts or some type of hidden truth behind it. It’s just that your allowing yourself to accept and accepting the thoughts is the best way to fight and keep your ocd in check. Don’t give up have hope that one day you will be back to yourself again even when you feel like it’s impossible. Trust the process never your gut or emotions. You will find peace and accept thoughts for thoughts nothing more nothing less
How to overcome with sexual intrusive thoughts...please help me...thanks
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