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Anyone else have the worst obsessions over social media?
Anyone else have the worst obsessions over social media?
How do you guys feel on the days where not much is happening and the worrying exists, just not like it usually would? I’m in the moment where I want to take my life back but with these fears, I’m afraid if I let them go something bad will happen and it’ll end up being true. It’s like facing my fear expect, if I don’t think about it how will I know I fear it?
Has anyone tried Luvox?
It scares me… if its my true thought/feeling.. i would die..
I know this topic is very tailored and personal to everyone’s experience, but I had to ask. Lately because of some life events & simply feeling very lonely even though I have family and some friends. I’ve been thinking about finally taking some antidepressants. What’s everyone’s experience with them? I’m scared of getting insomnia, weird dreams, gaining weight so that’s what makes me so apprehensive. I’m a consistent gym goer so that helps me a ton but lately I’ve just been so hyper focused on how my friends don’t really hit me up to make plans or anything unless I hit them up, it makes me feel insecure and thus low-mood. Throw in some real event ocd and whatever else and recent dating experiences and that’s what’s made me feel like I need some extra help.
How do you come out of that dissociative stage after an OCD episode ?? I do not feel human
I’ve noticed I still get intrusive thoughts on anti depressants but I have less anxiety behind them. Is that what there supposed to do ?
I hope this is okay to post here I have started a podcast, along side one of my best very knowledgeable friends regarding OCD. We want to bring a feeling of belonging to everybody suffering. Somewhere you finally belong and where you’re understood. We also WOULD LOVE for people to come onto the podcast with us, can have the choice to stay completely anonymous, share your story, what you’ve learnt etc. No topic is off bounds, yes even HARM or POCD, we have experienced and heard it all before. We are not therapists and we still have our struggles but I think that’s what makes us more relatable and the fact that we’ve both struggled with this since childhood, and have both had amazing changes with ERP therapy. Our email is ohcnotme@gmail.com for any questions you want answered or topics you want spoken about, or if you feel brave enough to join us on a episode!
you guys ever had like a good day like a really good day and like your brain reminds you like. oh but remmeber this is still here and you’re like oh 😃😃OH!?! and then you forget about it again and then it’s like OH?? and then by the end of the night i’m like why did it keep coming up?
If anybody needs some extra motivation, let’s go https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=m_iKg7nutNY&pp=ygUiYWwgcGFjaW5vIGFueSBnaXZlbiBzdW5kYXkgc3BlZWNoIA%3D%3D
Suicidal OCD can be really hard and really scary , and what makes matters even more challenging is that OCD will always find a way to convince your brain that you ACTUALLY want to do it. It’ll find “reasons” like maybe your unemployed atm, maybe you just went through a breakup or your having a hard time in life. It’ll cling to that and say “well maybe you do wanna end it all , besides life hasn’t been great for you anyways” so you wanna know how I combat that. I’ll literally tell myself “Okay , I guess I’ll end it all tonight” when I answered back in that way it felt very foreign , and I felt so scared at myself for even saying that in my head but that was in a way me accepting the thought. OCD wants to try to convince me to hurt myself , I say “okay let’s consider it tonight” whether that’s me grabbing a whole bottle of pills or slitting my wrists. I say “Let’s do it tonight ! Let’s just end it all “ and I do it with a smile on my face. I wake up the next morning and realize I didn’t end it all. I’m back in my bed , and I do this everytime the thought pops up. Sometimes I even say “let’s end it all this afternoon” then I get in my bed at night and realize I didn’t end it in the afternoon. All in all the thoughts are nonsense. Even when they feel so real. That’s not to say I still don’t struggle , but it’s helped me soooo much !
I’m starting to wonder if I might have suicidal ocd. How do I know if it’s ocd or real suicidal thoughts? What are everyone’s experiences with suicidal ocd? Thank you
I want to beat ocd so i can enjoy my life to the fullest. i want my heart to feel whatever it wants without constant worry and anxiety and guilt and shame
Started 25mg Zoloft, felt relief in week 4. Now on 50mg, facing self-harm thoughts like before. Can upping Zoloft trigger old symptoms?
As I get more and more into working out m, the more I want to start taking some healthy supplements. Here’s the problem, I’m scared to take creatine in fear of it maybe making me anxious/ocd acting out even though I’ve googled some of its side effects. Does anybody here take creatine?
It’s like I take every little thing and make it seem more serious than it is. I don’t even want my room to have pink in it, and I want to throw anyway anything that reminds me of my fears. My ocd tries to tell me I’m something I don’t want to be, it even tells me I’m lying and it just hurts. I’m constantly fighting with myself I don’t know how to get better…
If i think “its only ocd and not you” my thoughts straight answers back “it is you and not ocd” or if i think “i love my life” my head answers “no you want to die” Is this normal ocd does this?
if it’s not harm ocd it goes to suicidal ocd and if it’s not that it’s soocd. it’s truly so tiring. now i was able to have some clarity from my harm ocd but now it’s my suicidal ocd. it’s saying that i’m going to do it tonight so i can experience relief but i don’t see that as my future. i want to live and i know i can get over this, i know there will be better days ahead of me. but i’m scared i’m going to actually do it when i don’t. i know if regret it so bad. i’m just so scared
every 200 or so days of calm my ocd seems to strike back , but the good part is its always weaker. how is everyone? ocd in the winter feels much lonelier than ocd in the summer...
Hey all! My therapist recently recommended that I ask my psych about Prozac for my OCD. I was wondering what are some common medications you guys have been on? I know it’s always a mixed bag but I just wanted some perspective. Thank you!
Anyone also feel their ocd goes wild when they’re alone.. especially suicidal ocd
Is it normal ocd? To have really strong strong urges out of nowhere??
Has anyone else experienced ‘joy checking’? As in having a fear that ocd is ruining everything and that you need to constantly check that you are feeling good? I was told this is a part of ocd and I was wondering if anyone else experienced this on their journey and if they worked through it?
My insomnia is so bad. Maybe got a little bit of sleep, but I do have all day to try. So afraid I’m gonna be forced to kill myself by ocd. 7 years of practice accepting thoughts. It just never seems to get any easier. Afraid I’m so disabled I will never be an adult.
my ocd thoughts are making me so afraid lately. when i was in the midst of a panic attack i got the thought of “i can’t do this anymore i’m tired of this”. i’m scared that means i’m suicidal. i was always afraid of dying and suicide. i want to live, i have dreams for myself and lots to look forward to. but i just don’t want these ice thoughts anymore. i don’t want to live my entire life with these thoughts, but thinking that way makes me think i want to die? but i don’t, i just want relief from my thoughts. i’m scared that one day i’ll have enough and decide i want to die. i really don’t, i just don’t like living in fear that i’m a harm to others. sleep is my true escape and my relief. i really don’t want to be suicidal, but i’m scared it’s going to drive me into it, especially because if that thought i had.
Currently three months into ERP treatment. The last two weeks have been pretty bad with my anxiety and ocd thoughts. It almost feels like it did when I first started treatment, like it had gotten better and now it seems worse. Today was particularly bad. Can anyone relate?
I am moving to my new apartment and leaving the old apartment, but I am worried that if I forgot something behind like my personal flash usb drive or sd card that might have my personal stuff in it that someone will see it in the old apartment. I will get start to panic that I do not want anyone to see my personal stuff. I know I will take everything and make sure the old apartment will be empty but It is my OCD that is not giving me relief and scares me more since I will not go back to that apartment to retrieve any stuff over there after the last day.
Is anyone scared of staying alone because of the suicidal obsessions? Does it go away? Btw, i was never like that until i started taking medication for OCD (antidepressant, antipsychotic, lithium) though i dont know which one did that to me.
Does anyone feel like they will never meet anyone due to ocd, also feeling like you will be alone forever?
I have the “i want to die thougt” everyday!!! Is this normal with suicidal ocd?? Anyone relate?
Everyday it’s a fight back n forth with my mind and it’s so tiring I have constant thoughts and worries about my family, relationships, and myself like something bad will happen or someone will leave me. Everyday I wake up and if I don’t do a little thing suck as flicking the light on and off or getting in my bed a certain way something bad will happen to someone I love. I also struggle a-lot with thinking Im dying and googling symptoms all day everyday to get my answers.I get really suicidal all the time and stress and pull out my hair and I really believe I might do something to myself even though I’m too scared to die but sometimes it’s just get so bad that I don’t feel anything at all and I wouldn’t care what happens to me.
i feel like i’ve been doing so much better having better days than bad but today something really just triggered me. i don’t know exactly what it was. it first started out with the omg am i gonna kill myself? am i sad? am i content? then i had my therapy session and i was insanely triggered. I went to do research… BAD IDEA. and i just read the traits of a suicidal person and not. one said worthlessness and burden. I then started freaking out if i was a burden because my mom and dad get mad at me when im constantly asking for reassurance and had this insanely intrusive thought if i died there would be no more reassurance to be mad at and i started a full on panic attack. ik im none of these things i love myself so much i can’t lose myself i love this life i love everything my mom my dad my brother my boyfriend. i hate this theme so much. does anyone know what i can do pls 🙏🏽i’ve only been diagnosed with anxiety and ocd no depression.
Sick of feeling scared Uncomfortable Uncertain This causes me to want to explode and not e en be able to be in the present moment I hate doubting myself and doubting my feelings I want to try natural supplements again for anxiety & ocd any recommendations? Also this didn’t work for me but mayb it will help someone else I’ve tried NAC & saffron so far Advice anyone?
I don’t know what is going on but suddenly I don’t have any anxiety around my theme that much and like I just went through ERP and it wasn’t that bad and idk is this me losing my mind?? I’m on lexapro 20mg could it be that??
Good work today everyone!! I know it’s hard to live like this but we made it through another day! Everything is going to be alright :]
I broke down in a panic attack after work today. The same thing seems to be happening everyday. I’m really anxious now that I will make the same mistake again. I just gotta try my best not to. Please God, I just need to make it through this week with no more big mistakes. I’m also ashamed about how badly I freak out. I feel so done right now. Bad year so far ever since my breakdown in 2022. It’s hell.
All of a sudden I have thoughts of if I hurt somebody what would happen. I would never hurt anybody and I never want to hurt anybody but it’s making me very anxious. What do I do. I feel like the only way to get rid of the thoughts is to hurt myself
My mind is trying to convince me i want to kill myself or hurt myself when i really don’t want too. It’s causing me stress and anxiety because i don’t truly want to do it. How do i clear these thoughts from my head and how do i work through them. I’m scared im actually going to do it because my mind is trying to convince me.
Aren’t my meds also supposed to elevate my mood? Because they are barely doing so. They’ve made me a functioning person again but even that’s beginning to wane again. I’m scared and I’m wondering if I need a higher dosage. I’ve only been on them for about 8 months.
Does anyone know if NOCD or other OCD groups are working on being able to accept Medicaid/medicare in the future ?
Every-time I try and think about positive thoughts or I try and deny my thoughts and tell them they’re not true, my OCD/ intrusive thoughts just make up something new and just demand me to play out my intrusive thoughts. It’s like it’s constantly trying to convince me so when I have a minute where I feel normal/ safe, my thoughts sabotages it. They convince me that I shouldn’t feel comfortable and something bad is gonna happen. please any advice will help💓
I guess I just want to know if this is a compulsion: expressing my feelings. It gives me relief, and admitting how I feel to myself gives me relief but it’s temporary. Which I guess means it’s compulsory. I guess I just feel like since my feelings are real I can’t technically have compulsions if it’s not ocd but I guess it is still OCD in some way shape or form.
I’ve been feeling weird lately like idk I question life and humans and I had this one weird thought of who am I and it turned into a panic n I have this like sensation in the back of my mind that I don’t know what life is and I feel like I’m losing it people look differently my loved ones look different I’m so scared like is this me losing my mind?
This morning has been a particularly rough one. I had a few great days in a row.woke up this with a thought loop that won’t quit! It makes things especially hard when you have relief for a few days then you get hit again
What are some ways that help you stay grounded?
Why so intrusive thoughts feel so real? As if you’re actually gonna do it?
I need tips for not believing my thoughts and carrying them out. I find myself thinking I have to believe the thoughts and that I have to do them and prove to myself that the thought is real and my stomach drops and then it almost feels like I’m literally about to do it. It’s terrifying.
Every day I make the choice to face OCD. It tries to bully me and sometimes it wins, but for the most part I bully it now (lol). I stand up to it by LIVING! I stand up to it by doing exposures that sometimes can feel so wrong and irresponsible. I stand up to it by not allowing myself to get stuck in rumination but yet refocusing on something I actually want to do. I stand up to it by saying I don’t know and just embracing the uncertainty that what I fear just may come true. I stand up to it by sharing what I’ve been dealing with in hopes that it will help someone to know that sometimes you need therapy and Jesus! Some days are easier than others and I truly have to remind myself that recovery isn’t linear. Life ebbs and flows and so does this journey. I am learning to sit with the anxiety until my body naturally calms down. I still go about my life as usual not letting anything stop me. I face things that surround the themes I deal with in real time. Uncertainty isn’t comfortable and I’m still learning how to accept it. Im still learning how to accept these random thoughts that go against who I am while also understanding they don’t define who I am nor are they true. I’m a believer in God and this is truly a process of renewing my mind. For 35 years I had no clue that OCD was there. I just found out last February because things had got so dark for me. But I can look back now and see signs of it starting around 2014 and probably even earlier. I’m claiming that I am already healed in the land of the living. What that looks like, I have no clue. That’s up to God. But I’m trusting the process and I will continue to thrive. Even on days that feel rough, I am more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus. My prayer is that we all see breakthroughs as we continue to go through ERP. I’m so thankful for NOCD and that there are tools to help us navigate our way through this. Despite the lies of OCD, there is light at the end of the tunnel! Stay encouraged. We got this!
Lately, since my first memory has came back, I feel like any memory I have is fake like I’m not sure what has or hasn’t happened even over little things. I catch myself thinking about things that I know for sure happened then asking myself for proof. I do this all day everyday where it just feels like im disassociating and watching myself. Can anyone give advice on this?
Everytime im doing okay… my suicidal feelings like “i want to die” fucking always comes back… its so terrible… and i fight so much to think happy/positive thoughts… but i always feel a bit down… I surely doubt if this is ocd .. it keeps coming back!’
I’m on 50mg of Sertraline and I am curious if anyone else who is on this finds they have good days where it feels like the medication is working and bad days when it doesn’t feel like it is?
When I get anxiety my feet heat up and I feel panicky, im in erp with the worst theme ever of suicide and my compulsions are self reassurance and research. I’ve stopped the research part completely and my feet won’t go back to feeling normal? my anxiety is also worst and idk when does the relief happen? I’m still very scared and my one thought is just in my head
Any advice from anyone going through this?
Hi! I just found the NOCD community and I’m excited to start therapy this week. I was diagnosed with OCD as a teen; and as life and experiences occurred as a young adult and now as a 35 year old, I think maybe I’m just depressed, suicidal, anxious and just generally, in a constant state of being in my head. I’m realizing NOW that it’s all connected!! I wish back then there was more resources and support for OCD. I wish I didn’t just now realize that it wasn’t something I had to live with, that I have the potential to conquer it. I really hope this works because I’m tired of being/living like this.
Hi everyone. This morning I woke up feeling like my old self again for the first time in a several weeks. I have struggled with OCD since I was 4 years old but wasn’t diagnosed until 2019. One thing that I have found success in (in addition to therapy) is SSRIs. I know many people are scared to take them but they’ve been a massive life changer for me. It eases my anxiety which allows me to let whatever thought I have slide on by. Anyways. If anyone wants to chat or has any questions about my journey please feel free to reach out. Youre all brave and brilliant:)
Every night I imagine what will happen tomorrow, but it's never good stuff. it's always stuff like "you're going to loose your best friend" or "you're going to get ran over and all of the people you know are going to skip your funeral because they secretly hated you". Or I think stuff like" what if I just jumped off a cliff?" "If I commit suicide will my friends care?"
i don’t get it, yes my life gets hard sometimes but i never wanted to die or hurt myself. i love my life and i want to grow old and continue living, but now i keep getting thoughts of “what if you lose control and k*ll yourself” or “you have nothing to look forward to” when i do. i never felt like this ever, but now my harm ocd targets myself now and it’s so distressing. it feels like it will make me do it when i don’t want that at all. i’m just so scared.
I get pretty intense feelings of hopelessness because I crave peace. But obv it feels unattainable with OCD when the theme’s always change. I started ERP, and to think about doing this forever has me mentally tired. How do I combat this negative feeling? All I want is to feel peace, and not like I’ll never feel ok
I feel im triggered so much when going out 💔
I took the leap and finally started therapy... I say "finally" even though my current bout only developed about a month ago now. But it's felt like such a long rough journey. Scared but hopeful. My whole life has changed so much in such a short amount of time. Sometimes I curse myself for the decisions I've made that caused my socd/hocd to develop in the first place but it's had some good outcomes. I've talked to my mom about my personal issues that I felt like I could never bring up to her and she's done the same.
Hey guys - could really use some advice/help right now. I have not struggled with suicidal harm for a long time and recently it came back pretty hard with the smallest trigger. I’m currently in a stressful time in my life so I understand that is what is making my ocd feel stronger than usual, but with this old theme coming back pretty strong and feeling extra sticky, makes me worry. After all the hard work I’ve put into the last 2 years and have not struggled with this theme for a while, why does it feel as bad as experienced it the first time? And why do I feel like my coping skills aren’t working as well? Has anyone ever gone through this or felt like their ocd tests them on their coping skills? I’m spiraling about what if I can’t handle the ocd in the future? Or my coping skills don’t work anymore? Idk I know that sounds stupid but I feel so extremely stuck and I haven’t felt this way in SO LONG - especially with this suicidal theme. Has anyone else gone through this?
Do you guys ever get so wrapped up in self harm OCD that any little thing can trigger it ? Like for example I haven’t had a job in months and I keep thinking what if I end up stuck at a job that I hate and get super depressed and then off myself (even though I don’t want to actually off myself) the thought of it is so intense and then I spiral and start thinking “wait will I actually hurt myself !!”
Now people realize that recovering from ocd requires changing negative beliefs too that are unhealthy. Its really hard to see what is my belief and what is jist a thought cause many times i have a dark thought that could lead to a negative belief but i see that i dont really believe in that but then why do i have the thought? My worst ocd pattern was(still is) fear of suicide. It got so bad that i experienced urges too and many times questioned if im really in danger but i never did anythig and i didnt wanted too. But still after all the years it always came back when i felt so bad. And now i watched a video about breaking unlimited beliefs and the guy on the video talks about his actual suicidal feelings and that he now sees it that the reason he had that was because of his negative beliefs about his situations, like he thought that if he stays like this forever, life doesnt have a meaning. And i remember i had these thoughts and feelings before and if i think about it i still feel like that too that being sad all the time, unable to connect with people and feel weak, crying everyday wouldnt worth it... it would be a horrible life. And this is where my suicidal thoughts got triggered. So im wondering now am i was really suicidal... i still have these belirfs that if i would have to live my life like this it wouldnt worth it, but i thought this is normal cause no mather what anyone says, if you would have to feel a horrible pain without relief all your life you wouldnt be able to cope with it. But it still scares me. One of the reasons i dont like to work on beliefs is that i might realize that the thoughts were true... Also its true that we have to learn unconditional self love, but that makes me feel sometimes like people who does that just accepts they are in that situation and it might stay like that and theres no growing... Now i made myself rumminate about am i really suicidal or not again... cool...
Just wondering if anyone who has PMDD has noticed that their intrusive thoughts get much worse during that week, or how you can tell if your mood is being affected by OCD or PMDD. I assumed they probably make each other worse but I’m not really sure. Also, if you have been diagnosed with PMDD did you mention OCD? Ty
If yes, how did it go?
This is gonna sound weird but sometimes I feel like my ocd is the volcano chick from Moana who hasn’t received and I sing to myself this isn’t who you are, and then Moana is my self conscious giving me that hope and I’m able to return to my beautiful mountain self lmao
I’m honestly very tired of having to deal with myself. I don’t even know who I am anymore and I’m worried out of my mind 24/7 while putting up a front…I don’t know how much longer I can do this. With my body heart and soul I just want to be a good person…all I want.
Does anyone else have a voice in their head that says things like “we’re going to make you crazy” “you’re going to start hearing voices”. They’re all intrusive thoughts but they scare the shit out of me. It also never comes true
So my fiance and I have been together for about a year and a half. And things are going really great and when they don't we talk through it. I'm just really struggling lately my brain keeps screaming at me that either he'll leave me or cause I'm so inconsistent ill leave him. And like that's ok I know I'd be ok if that ended up happening but I Love him and the constant thoughts make it hard to give him my full attention. Like I can't be excited he has a new friend cause my brain starts screaming at me that he'd rather be with this new guy instead of me. Then the negative talk come in and says ya know you should leave him cause he'd be happier and better taken care of with someone else. You'll just drag him down. He's miserable with you. How often do you laugh together... literally last night. But it's so hard to recognize how ridiculous my brain is being and I end up spiraling. Not only with my relationship but with myself. How I'm a failure and how my friends and landlord think I'm worthless (long story but the landlord matters its an odd circumstance) and I'm just second guessing everything and it gets to the point I second guess who I even am and what the point of all this bs even is. I'm not sure why I'm writing this even. Advice maybe? Idk I downloaded this app in hopes to figure something out so I can feel consistent and maybe a bit of normal or at the least a bit of peace from the tornado in my head..
People who have gone through harm ocd/suicidal ocd is possible for one day not to think about it? I just want one day of not being scared and not thinking about it, I just want to feel normal
Is this normal??? I can’t handle it… makes me so sad i want to cry.. and then i definetly feel my sucidal thoughts are true??
My suicidal feelings and urges go crazy if my daugther cries… i can’t fucking take it.. why do i react/feel this way..
Please do not take this as me attacking the users in the community, I'm just confused. I'm new in dealing with ocd and I'm having a hard time navigating what is a compulsion and how to not do them. It really does seem like everything has been listed as a compulsion so now I don't know what to do when I'm striken with anxiety... and a lot of advice seems contradictory. They tell me not to ignore my thoughts but I'm also not supposed to pay them any mind and let them pass. I'm supposed to continue what I was doing but not supposed to distract myself. Where's the line? I don't understand how to "sit with my anxiety" or "let it pass" because doesn't that entail either ignoring them or thinking about them... It's like a loop in itself, where instead of making progress, I'm just scared I'm acting on compulsions without realizing and then making my anxiety worse bc of it. I want to learn all I can about ocd and I feel like a lot of times, engaging with the community and asking questions and sharing stories gets accused as reassurance-seeking and it's really disheartening when I'm just trying to understand my new diagnosis... I don't like how some users are making it seem like using this app is inherently bad even if you just want to ask a question, it just seems contradictory to me...
I started taking zoloft (for only 2 months) after i gave birth for my OCD and depersonalization. After that, my life was ruined. I started feeling like my thoughts were being interrupted constantly i dont know how to explain it but its horrible! After that, i was put on antipsychotics, brentellix and lithium which did nothing to stop it and turned me into zombie. Fast forward to 7 months now, i stopped everything (stopped lithium 3 days ago). I’m still having my thoughts interrupted, i cannot sit still or watch anything or be comfotable its like a bug inside of me, world feels weird i dont know how to explain it, its like something in my brain doesnt work anymore. Has anyone had the same problem? Do you think it’s permanent? Im not sure if its the meds or its my ocd but i really doubt its my ocd because i really cant control it. I used to have very mild OCD over silly things, now its suicide and feeling not like myself questioning my reality. I read a lot of articles saying some effects are irreversable and im terrified.
I'm prescribed hydroxyzine (25mg) for anxiety. I don't take it regularly and I only take it about once a week whenever I feel my anxiety is particularly bad. I'm new to my OCD diagnosis so I'm not sure what counts as compulsions. When I do take it, my thoughts are still there, but don't bother me as much. I know I need to "sit" with my anxiety as part of ERP, so should I try to avoid medication altogether? Like I said it's only usually once a week, but my anxiety from intrusive thoughts happens fairly often...
Living with CPTSD and OCD has just been keeping my head above water. I don’t have the energy to do anything other than the necessary tasks for my survival. I’m tired of just treading water. To fully swim would leave me drowned.
I’m making this post for anyone who is close to giving up or just having a really bad bout. Don’t give up, ever. That happiness and relief could be right around the corner, you don’t know what the future holds and that’s a good thing. Where there’s a will there’s a way. Love you all❤️
I started Zoloft 12 days ago and I feel it’s exacerbating my self harm OCD. I definitely do not want to hurt myself , but it felt so intense yesterday. I’m really hoping it doesn’t happen today because the anxiety is too much. Did this happen to anyone and should I continue it !?
I’m 20 yrs old and I struggle to go to work everyday and I miss a lot of days because my ocd convinces me that I will get yelled at or not know what to do. But then when I don’t go to work I feel useless and like a bum Does anyone else struggle with this and what have you found that helps(maybe a different career path that’s not as bad on my ocd)