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Anybody else get anxiety when leaving there comfort zone because they haven’t left the house in so long

I wasn't necessary having a party, but I told several of my friends that I was having a get together that day, and to make sure to take the day off work or whatever so they can come. Well, I checked today so see if Friday or Saturday works better for them. One of them didn't take off work, and two are gone for the weekend. My best friend is coming, and the other friend that can come doesn't get along with that friend. It just makes me sad, and I know they didn't mean to but it's still saddd

I was doing really well for about two ish+ weeks, but now my OCD has come back full force and idk if I actually want to die or not. I don't think I do, but my OCD is really, really bad, and I know it's been bad before, but I just can't let it go, I can't stop arguing with it yk? I also feel massively disconnected from myself and my values.nWhat can I do to feel better today, BECUASE I deserve to feel better than this. How can I let go?

I have gone through intense ERP, and feel I am on a much better path than I was a few months ago. I can get through the day without crying or shutting down, I can work, I can socialize…all things that are a great step! BUT all of things just feel OK, I feel just okay. The thoughts are still constantly there but my response to them has changed so my anxiety has gone down. I’m in recovery but I’m most definitely not where I want to be, I want to be able to have these happy moments with my boyfriend and family - instead I just don’t even feel emotion anymore unless it’s sadness. I have little blips of moments where I feel like me again and there are wonderful but 80% of the time I’m just coasting through life Any suggestions are greatly appreciated🤍

I’ve come to conclusion that my beliefs are more towards Buddhism, so I’m gonna Embrace this side of me and hopefully it will heal me

Is deep breathing exercises after ERP count as Compulsion ?

I just saw a post that 3 NOCD Therapist talk , I never get anyone and it’s not like it’s always reassurance sometimes it’s genuine talk about ERP

So basically you overcome OCD by pretending you've already overcome OCD?? By pretending the thoughts don't bother you and continuing on with your life and stuff no matter what??

I need urgent help with OCD symptoms, however, I dont have any money to afford a therapist. Where could I get help online? I live outside of the US

How do you deal with OCD and Depression, Do you work on 1 more then the other , do I stick with anti depressants for OCD or is there a tablet that is for both

When I’m around my boyfriend, I feel like my OCD gets more intense- mainly because I tell him all of my scary thoughts and talk with him about OCD so much, so I think it might get worse because I seek reassurance from him based on how he responds to thoughts. He knows not to give reassurance, but he doesn’t want to see me uncomfortable. Any ideas for how I can stop this?

Been havin a Terriblle day , been relatively good last few days, up until now , I’ve woken up with anxiety and thoughts , I’ve been refusing Compulsions but still my anxiety is through the roof and I’m scared I might do something because I’m sick and tired of this , what do I do?

Anyone else just feel like something is wrong soo you search for intrusive thoughts but you weren’t having them and now you start to think you forced the thought? Idk if that makes sense lol

Have you ever just broke down and cried

I’ve been relatively good just letting though go by without paying attention to them but I think I let 1 bother me now I’m rumination a lil and feel anxious as , how do I stop rumination and calm down?

Hello, so I’ve been taking fluoxetine 10 MG for may be about a month. I feel like with therapy. I am able to better manage my anxiety. Does anyone know if I can just stop taking this cold turkey?

i think i’ve been in a rut lately and my suicidal ocd has kind of sprung up again. is it still ocd even if i’m in a rut? they still disturb i just.. am not sure.

Do u ever what’s ok to post with compulsions like what’s allowed to ask, is this a compulsion

Any help calming anxiety?? What do you guys do when feeling anxious? What helps ?

I’m struggling right now with a thought and the thought is “ what’s stopping you from hurting your loved ones” which really bothers me because I feel confused and I don’t want to be I want to be certain not to do or give into the thought . Idk what to do or think anymore

Been going at my suicide theme hard this last week and this morning, as I was watching videos, my Curious Researcher Side kicked in and was getting really invested in learning. Now I'm suddenly really excited to create a crisis plan like it's a new art form. A week ago, I'd be horrified! But despite the anxiety still kicking around in the back, I'm more curious than anything. Still have no idea if I'm really suicidal or not - deep inside it's a no - but I'm rolling the dice again and choosing to believe it's just OCD. And hey, at least it's taught me more about something that can be of huge help to myself and others.

I had a question for anyone willing to answer, what if your getting better at treating your ocd and once u get a disturbing thought you don’t feel guilty. That causes me to think that I’m a bad person because I don’t feel guilt. Then people will try to claim that if u do feel guilty about your intrusive thoughts that ur a good person I don’t get it .

Hello? Anybody else get congestion during their mental cycle?

Few Question that aren’t reassurance How long does it take to recover? How soon do you see change? What’s recovery like? Do u still get thoughts ?

Is anyone else afraid of just going crazy one day and hurting someone. I cannot seem to quiet this theme

I’m not seeking for reassurance, but I wanna know if anyone gets to a point like this with their ocd. I just had a huge melt down started to cry uncontrollably because these thoughts are so controlling and I don’t ever want to hurt anybody I don’t understand what’s wrong. I’m afraid of my own mind :(

I’ve got Anxiety is it ok to do breathing exercises or will that count as a compulsion but I got anxiety not anything to do with OCD

help me I’m losing my mind 🤯 Someone pls help me. So many voices so many hallucinations I don’t know what’s real anymore I feel like they’re real my imagination could not be this complex and if so then I pray it isn’t this mean bully

I just need encouragement I hate life everything is overwhelming My mind is attacking me for no good reason i just want to hear this is all for my higher good but really?!

Social media addiction is the worst. Fortunately I have begun to start recovering by refusing to use it 4 days a week. I am currently experiencing withdrawal symptoms. Voices are still berating me as they have been for years. All politics ever did to me was to exacerbate obsessive--compulsive symptoms. I do not take criticisms of or the debating of my ideology's validity kindly, ever. And I'm also afraid my ideology sucks and will never work. I'm afraid I've committed worse crimes than anyone could ever imagine. They've sure moved on, but apparently I still haven't. That is why I hate (and I usually dislike ever having to say the word "hate" in a sentence) these terminally online orators. It doesn't matter whether they're right or left-wing. It doesn't. What matters is the amount of caustic acid they throw at people. It hurts each and every single genuinely good person on the inside and threatens to erase their legacy. To me mainstream social media is so ineffably insufferable that it would be better if I never went on there again. I would still want to use the Internet, even use NOCD, but seriously, no Twitter, no Reddit, no TikTok. These sites have done far more harm to this world than good. These sites will go down in infamy as having spread immorality to wider society at large. And I no longer want to be the victim. So, by the way, how do you feel about my experience? Do you, perchance, suffer anything similar to what I did? I am definitely not asking for reassurance or anything like that.

So I’ve been repeating Trigger words for ERP but is that ERP or a Compulsion

I didn’t use to fear it at all, in fact I looked forward to it. Now because of OCD, I always fear being home alone now and it’s sooo annoying because I know it’s due to OCD

Does anyone just get anxiety without the Thoughts being to bad like I’ve just got rapid heart rate and barely any thoughts

Hope this makes someone’s day 😍

there’s nothing like the unconditional love of your pets

I’m so tired of feeling I want to do something to my partner, for example we were at the mall and my thoughts said “ why don’t u just throw her off the edge “ or “ why don’t you just do this n that “ like I don’t want to but it makes me feel like why shouldn’t I :(

Hi guys, Has anyone in the UK Used NOCD and can give me an overview of how treatment went - thanks x

Second week off erp, both times, the next day I feel pretty anxious 😬 anyone else

I don’t know how to quiet my thoughts anymore they feel real . Anyone else

I’ve been thinking or ruminating about my intrusive thoughts on purpose. I was told this is a form of mental checking. it’s quite hard to control too!

I get these Suicidal thoughts all the time and I just say maybe , maybe not but then my ocd says “well you better do it this time” , it’s making me crazy , how do you tell difference between Normal thoughts and OCD thoughts or is it just don’t trust any thought anymore

Is doing Deep Breathing exercises after ERP a Compulsion

At this point I’m worried I am a bad person Iv been distressed about my ocd themes so I feel as if I don’t even know myself anymore I don’t know my morals and values from before. Everytime I see something happy I make it negative. I’m so over it

I just want anyone who stopped to read this to know that I’m a full-time pastor who struggles with OCD. I don’t have everything together and I’ve still got a lot to learn about myself. I just want to encourage you that OCD may be part of your life, but it doesn’t define you. You’re not alone. You’re not broken. You can do whatever you’re passionate about — and your quirks and things that make you YOU may even be the best part. Hang in there, it’s going to be okay. Also Jesus loves you ;)

I am struggling a lot right now with ocd convincing me I want to hurt my partner when I know deep down I don’t. It’s more so a feeling then a thought. I’m just scared that one day I’ll be convinced or give in into the thought. I don’t want to feel like I would hurt my partner anyone else ?

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I’m so afraid I’ll get convinced by my thoughts and letting me know I am a person who can hurt people physically. I really am afraid I’ll be convinced someday, & right now it feels all too real.

My ocd went from knowing I would never hurt anyone and then from going to idk if I would, but I know I wouldn’t which makes me confused and scared anyone else ?

It seems like everyone is having a rough time with their mental health right now. keep pushing through it. you aren’t alone.

Does anyone else feel like their so over their intrusive thoughts that they just wanna accept the fact that their someone their not just to satisfy your ocd ?

Is it normal to feel emotionless towards your intrusive thoughts ? Sometimes I just feel numb towards them and don’t care what gets thrown at me anymore

How hard is recovery exactly

You ever get Scary thoughts that maybe it will be better if you weren’t here like no pain , no drama, no ocd anymore, just gone from existence and you kinda agree with your thoughts like it kinda would be better, how do you cope with these , is this normal to have?

Lately my ocd has been trying to convince me that I do want to hurt my partner, then I just let the thought flow, after that happens i fully feel I’m convinced that I do & then I get scared and confused if I actually want to but I know I really don’t can anyone relate ?:(

Can the thought of getting anxious be ocd? I’ll be fine but thank I start to think of maybe when I felt anxious last and that starts to make me anxious

Waking up with Anxiety what do I do ?

Can feelings also apply to ocd. Like feeling you want to hurt someone when you actually really don’t, but there’s that feeling ??

False memories are kicking my butt :( It’s getting so bad again. The memory keeps getting realer and realer the more I think of it. Or I don’t even try to think it just pops up like a flashback.

Good morning/ Good Afternoon/ Goodnight To anyone out there 💞. We can do this. Remember who you are out of ocd. I myself struggle with ocd, but just remember some days are gonna be good and bad and that’s okay.

I feel so uncomfortable in my skin and in my mind. I just want to be normal. I want to be free from these thoughts & actions.

Can a false memory feel like a suppressed memory??? The more you think about it the more clear it starts to feel? Or not clear the more believable it feels?

I just want to feel myself again .

How can you tell if it’s ocd or just anxiety? Can a nocd therapist still help if it’s just anxiety?

I’m going on a Cruise in a Month and My Suicidal OCD has come back , I’m trying my best but it’s hard and I don’t want to have OCD on the cruise , is there anything I can do

Hello! Anyone else suffer from pmdd? Does your ocd/anxiety get worse? Any tips?

Like is all of my thoughts just wrong and I just agree with them to make em go away , do I just keep doing it cos if I don’t I start thinkin maybe I do

Has anyone here actually recovered or seen a big difference with their ocd ? I need hope

The Maybe The Maybe Not, Laughing at it, Saying Yeah ok whatever, Humour like saying yeah I’m a total Pedo or Homo or whateva theme it is

What do u do to decrease the Anxiety after exposure

What medication do you take? Is it helpful?

So sorry for posting again but I’m curious If you miss 1 Dose or 2 of your anti depressants can that cause relapse of your OCD anxiety?

It’s a ghost town in here 👻

I have been in ERP for a month and came out of it victorious for nearly a year up until this month, it's been awhile since I have cried about my suicidal thoughts (relapse). I am going back into ERP however before then I would wish to ask the community if they could give me some coping strategies before then.

When I have a thought and try to resist the compulsion, the anxiety peaks so severely, but I always end up giving into the compulsion because I’m scared of this anxiety. What will happen if I push through and not do the compulsion? Will the anxiety go away???

OCD and drug addiction sucks.

I was feeling okay when I woke up this morning… but now I’m not and nothing happened. I’m just riddled with anxiety for nothing!!! I was diagnosed by a professional with OCD, GAD and PTSD. so I’m still learning what causes me to feel how I feel.

I’ve had OCD for the longest time but for the past few years I’ve been good expect for the past couple months. My anxiety has come back tenfold. And I mean the actual anxiety. The feeling of such fear in the pit of your stomach. I am 9 months postpartum and I feel like something is off in my body because this literally came out of nowhere again. Also symptoms of brain fog fatigue (although I am not sleeping well every night because of baby) regardless, I have these intense moments of intense fear, like every thought I have is so real and it’s going to happen. My themes right now are based on fear of suicide or fear of being depressed. It’s literally terrifying because it makes it feel so real, every unpleasant feeling that I have from fatigue to feeling emotional is being high jacked, making me believe I am miserable (I love my life so much and have NOT lost interest in anything) but again I have such feelings of doubts over everything I’m feeling, constantly analyzing my feelings and judging. I have this constant feeling of uneasiness. I guess I would just like to hear other peoples thoughts. Hope everyone is doing great!

Is crying while engaged in a exposure session a compulsion? Or a normal reaction? I noticed when I cry my anxiety starts to go down and eventually my SUD level will start to drop pretty soon after that.

I hate living like this

My harm OCD only really became into play after watching that series, so much that I didn’t finish watching it. I’ve always had other OCD subtypes but never harm OCD, so of course it’s been insanely soul crushing and panic inducing. I keep having terrible atrocious thoughts about others I love deeply and myself, and immediate intense panic following. Has anyone also been triggered by this show? And has anyone found relief in medication?

What are some physical symptoms you experience from anxiety and OCD?

Soo i do feel like the thoughts aren’t bothering me as much but I feel like they are coming more often? Anybody else get this? I also feel like when I’m not having thoughts, I’m like searching my mind for thoughts?

Then all of a sudden my intrusive thoughts came rushing back and my initial reaction to them was that I agreed with them and then I realized what I did and I’m disgusted with myself. Are all of my intrusive thoughts, no matter how disgusting they can get, are they all going to give me that initial reaction that I liked them? I just don’t understand how I know that isn’t something I want to do but my first reaction is that I liked it. I hate these so much please tell me this initial reaction will go away if I get therapy…

Hi!! Hope everyone has a good day today. I’ve noticed my ocd comes and goes, some times comes worse and sometimes I don’t feel it as much. I’ve had to rough weeks but I am feeling better. I am currently on viibryd 10mg and have been on it for almost 2 years. I feel my depression is better but my ocd sometimes is bad, she suggested to change to Prozac? Any comments about it??? Any side effects? Does it help? Thanks!

I can’t study for midterms bc my obsessions don’t let me I can’t do anything I can’t even eat 😭 please someone help me

I’ve reached the point where I’m not hungry anymore I literally can’t eat anything I wanna cry every second I’m losing myself and it’s all because of my own head 😭 I need help and I don’t know where to get it please keep me in your prayers

Hello! I recently started taking this, maybe for about like 5 days now. I noticed the last two days I have had headaches, not sure if it is the medicine but just wondering if anyone has used this medication and has had the same thing?

any advice for when ur chronic pain combined with ur ocd and it makes u wanna escape ur body and u cant feel anything else

Is it just me or do you sometimes feel like your crazy?like maybe your just a sociopath psychopath ext.

I see a lot of people guessing whether or not they have OCD. Please seek a professional and get diagnosed properly. Do NOT self-diagnose. This is not the platform for that and you will hurt yourself more than you will help yourself by doing that. Don’t make yourself feel any worse than you already do. I wish you all the best!!!

Today’s been awful just like every other day is 😪😪 does it ever get better?

Hello I bought these supplements for anxiety and stress relief, had Ashwagandha in them? Had any one heard of this? I read up and it seems good but

Please pray for me my mind is obsessing over a person who doesn’t truly care for me and the obsessions of self harming myself just get worse and worse I’m so scared I might actually harm myself badly

I can’t take this anymore I can’t 😪 the only thing that makes me feel better is cutting myself

Today’s been such a hard day I’ve had 6 panic attacks please pray for me

Suicidal ocd had to be one of the worst themes omg 😭 my thoughts make me want to throw up or like I already did it which makes me sad idk why I feel guilty or sad about something I haven’t done I swear I was doing good for A couple weeks but if always pops up and every time feels just as distressing

+ how do I start therapy again I've been trying to do some different things with my OCD, but Im not doing ERP yet again, cuz I'm afraid. I know I'm worthy of recovery, and these thoughts have controlled me for far, far too long. (Same theme, two years). It's an awful theme and I hate when I don't know what's real or not. I just wanna know if I'm actually suicidal or not. I just wanna get better. So how can I start again?? And how should I react to thoughts that pop up through the day (that's my hardest thing, the biggest thing I need to overcome is how I react to the thoughts) And my main compulsions is SELF reassurance. So like counter-acting the thought with logic, saying "this certain thing will be okay", or looking on my Pinterest board for reassurance. All I want is to get better. Tips, any at all, would be appreciated!!

Was listening to Air 1 today and this was the verse of the day. Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life. Proverbs 4:23 (NLT) This helped me today. I know that intrusive thoughts seem so real and make us believe that they are us, but in our hearts that is not what we want, and our hearts is what determines the course of our life. Just thought I share this.