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It’s never going to end is it? “You’re human you make mistakes” Do our mistakes define us? For life??? I wanna be a coward and leave this earth

I am so afraid of losing control and letting my intrusive thoughts get the best of me. I constantly think of myself in the worst possible situation. Does anyone have any suggestions? I have good days and then I have days where I just don’t know what to do and how to stay down and make myself feel like I’m a normal person.

Does anybody else feel like anxiety and intrusive thoughts are soo much harder to handle during the menstrual cycle

Hello^^, I am wondering if anyone can relate to the thoughts of hurting people or yourself… I’ve never done anything violent but when I have there’s thoughts whoever I’m around I just think of unaliving Including myself.. and since I have these thoughts it makes me think I would do it because I thought of it.. but I know I could never ever do something like that so I cry about it and there’s a lot more but does anyone relate!? (Also happy spooky season! Take this adorable kitty)

Hello ^^ I have never done anything for mental health because it’s not a big real concern to most people around me (I know that’s bad) but I have such bad thoughts they have been making me cry and want to kill myself to make sure nothing happens. My brother is my world and we do everything together but I keep having thoughts of my head of kill, it’s not anyone in particular mostly whoever I’m around or if I’m by myself it’s to myself. And it makes me think it’s a good idea to kill myself so nothing happens.. even though I’ve never done anything close to violent my entire life.. thanks for any thoughts or relations to the feelings! Let me know your stories

I feel so alone I don’t know if I can do this anymore nobody will ever understand in how much pain I am in everyday 😭

Try not to worry about what tomorrow holds. Give yourself time to feel and see what unfolds. :) This is my Zox bracelet saying. I take it as a sign that NO MATTER WHAT, I will be okay and survive and get out alive and better than ever.

I wish my parents had gotten me help when I was small…when I first showed those signs in 5th grade…when I would break down in front of everyone and when I would confess to my mom those intrusive thoughts and she would look at me weird…. I wish I had gotten help…Maybe I wouldn’t have done what I had done and hurt others. Especially my husband. I can’t tell what I feel anymore and I evil? Do I deserve no one??? I just wanna shut down.

Does anyone have any advice for someone starting meds or their experience with them?

Does anybody else ever just get really scared because their mind is taking a quick break from obsesses thoughts and they don’t know when it might start again bc I currently feel like this and it’s just so scary 😪😪

I hate ocd sooo much, the last three days have been a constant going back and forth between anxiety and intrusive thoughts, I keep trying to sit with it but the fear is soo real

I feel like I have to be calm and okay for my dad. Like he doesn't get mad often but like tonight he got us a hotel with a pool and a hot tub and it's closed, and the last hotel the hot tub was closed too, and he's mad and upset. So I feel like I have to keep him calm by telling him that it's okay and stuff. I love my dad, but sometimes I wonder if he isn't as great as I always thought he was, and I don't like admitting that. I know he loves me, but he just has some toxic traits (lots of passive agressive comments and getting angry on road trips). I feel like my mom might have to keep his emotions in check too. So anyway. Advice, or just people relating to me at all would be amazing. Thanks

My mom has given me Zox bracelets for a few years now and she gets me a new one every time my old one gets too stretched out anymore. I really love the positive message and reminders on my wrist!! Here are a few of the messages I've gotten - never give up - you *will* get through this - my story isn't finished - you matter in this world The next one I'm getting is "either way, I'll be okay". What an awesome reminder for my OCD!!

Even tho they are there, they are disappearing little by little, and i still don’t know what happened but im not bothered by it anymore

Hi soo I been having real bad anxiety today. Just wondering if it works the same way. I’m learning to sit with intrusive thoughts, but does it work the same way with anxiety?

I feel terrible my ocds theme changes everyday I honestly feel like there is no hope for me it’s midterm week and I can’t do anything bc I’m stuck😪 I don’t wanna feel alone or misunderstood anymore…. My ocds theme is terrible focusing on how I’ve made others feel since I was born and I’m not a bad person but sometimes the other people in your life are and well yeah you can imagine how those obsessions go. I’m honestly considering suicide I can’t take it😭I feel terrible I can’t even eat I’m puking every day and I no longer feel safe in my head well Ive never had ☹️please if anybody could reach out to me I’d appreciate it I feel so alone I haven’t met anybody that knows what I’m going through… but if you guys know of a ocd groupchat my insta is ashnyc.123

I would consider myself more spiritual than religious but I do believe in God but I feel like o have been going through a crisis of faith where I don’t know what to believe and have been feeling more lost or empty but my ocd loves to use this as an opportunity to make me question everything and my life, if any other people can relate to this or have experienced something like this I’d love to hear about it

My obsessions are so bad and I feel so lonely can anybody reach out to me? I feel like there is no hope

I know my life is worth living. I know I'm loved, and I know my future is so so bright. I will live. I will not let this monster get the better of me. I've had suicidal OCD for years but this is not the end. I'm scared. I'm terrified, BECUASE I don't know what's real or what's not. I know I can't give up. That is not an option. I need to stay. I NEED TO STAY. AND I NEED TO GET BETTER. WHATEVER IT TAKES. I WILL NOT GIVE UP. I WILL BE STRONG NOW SO I CAN LIVE A LIFE OF PEACE AND HAPPINESS LATER. I KNOW ITS COMING. I pray it's coming God, please keep me alive.

Just wondering, how long does it take for you usually to sit with a thought until your ok or how long does the anxiety last?

I woke up feeling a sensation in my chest. Like an emptiness. I feel depressive. I’m about to move through the day like I would any other day. I just feel unhappy. I don’t know. Would this be considered a symptom of OCD/anxiety or should I be concerned about being deeply depressed? This is probably a health or mental health concern.

Actually I’m not Gona ask or share because i just realized I was about to cave to my OCD. ERP is at work in me

Does anyone else feel like their brain is burning which makes their intrusive thoughts even worse ?

Does anybody else able to hold a conversation while having OCD ? I mean I have other mental health issues but I feel like the main one is OCD that trigger all the other illness making me disassociated with reality.

It’s so expensive to get mental help nowadays & it sucks. health care in America really is not it. I pray I overcome all my mental Illnesses & be the light for myself & others. #helpshouldntcostathing

Does anybody else try not to look at the things that give you OCD thoughts? For instance I try to look past looking at people. I glance the other way quickly but it makes me feel as though I’m crazy person or a pedo when I do that.

I keep giving myself a deadline. If I do not met getting my mental health correct I would rather not be on this earth. My mental illnesses has taken so much from me. Like going out with loved ones, doing the best I can at my job, how I feel about myself, etc. I know it takes time to work on myself but I want to be what an average person does on a daily basis. I barely recognize myself anymore. I can not hold a conversation with anyone without the feeling of discomfort. I fear my thoughts. This has made me a feel like a monster, on top of that I gained so much weight so i am just all over the place.

Hiiiii , Hope everyone is doing well! Does anyone have tips on ocd flare ups ?

on vacation with my best friends family , I knew them for like my whole life & im having terrible intrusive thoughts that are literally are slowly eating me alive. they are probably thinking I’m crazy.

It’s so hard to distinguish between real thoughts and OCD thoughts. I really hate that I’m so hyper-vigilant too. I just want some relief.

The more I have been ignoring thoughts and compulsions, the stronger the sensations and urges. Our minds can get so creative and rear end you. Any little thought it’s tries to link to your big theme and just trying and trying to justify meaning. I’m starting to see patterns here. But the heavy feeling of impending doom or like guilt of inadequacy is insane

Anyone doing erp? I feel like I’m having to do it every 5 minutes. Catching myself before my mind starts engaging in negative thinking patterns, ruminating, being aware of your thoughts and making sure you don’t engage in compulsions is tough! I heard it today from Ali Greymond that one erp a day is not effective enough. You gotta do it the most you Can throughout the day to recover sooner

I just read an article this morning (link at bottom, apologies if any paywalls) covering time disintegration and it’s relationship with stress. I recently had a few traumatic experiences where time disintegration played a major role and amplified my existential ocd (albeit I am new to this diagnosis and just now beginning therapy with nocd). Has anyone else linked these two issues together? And if so, have you tried remedying your sense of time? Was there any direct benefit to your management of existential ocd? I have also linked below a time perspective therapy referenced in the article. https://www.wsj.com/articles/why-dates-and-times-seem-to-lose-their-meaning-11665135002 https://psycnet.apa.org/record/2014-50138-031

Hello! Soo I been able to not let my intrusive thoughts get to me but I have noticed a cycle. I have a thought, which I sit with and no longer bothers me but than I start to feel anxiety, which I sit with too and I’ve that goes away, the doubt starts, “what if your like this forever” “ what if they doesn’t work” “what’s if it’s not ocd” anyone else go thru a culture something like this? Freaking ocd

Whenever I have an intrusive thought and tell myself not to respond to it my brain will instantly go "No I don't want to do this" despite me trying to not respond, how do I respond?

so i changed birth control almost a week ago because the stuff i was using before was terrible for me. after 2 months on it, it launched me into a depression and i have never felt that depressed before. i began taking my new pill this week, and a lot of other stuff has been happening (but i guess it makes sense because of hormone fluctuations). the only thing that i am sort of confused about is that my ocd topics have been switching super fast. like most of the time, my theme is relationship ocd. but the past few days and weeks i have had very bad suicidal ocd. and it just feels so real. but my ocd has been switching so fast recently and i’ve been doing pretty good relatively but it’s getting worse. i think it’s because i’m doing so good. also, for anyone with suicidal ocd, what does that feel like for you?

I just gotta say that, when you start really just accepting the thought and letting it be it will literally try to convince you of threat in so many ways. Come at you in different forms. Trying to attach itself to meaning. Trying to convince you in forms of urges and sensations, almost appearing like your own thoughts. Have you analyze and ruminate. Like I ALMOST gave into a compulsion. I noticed that when I feel uneasy (I am almost always anxious) I like to listen to podcasts of all sorts and I think low key that’s a compulsion. Because it distracts me from feelings and thoughts. SO GREAT. Mental compulsions are hard to identify.

I have been doing good for a long time, but this week I am really struggling, like really Bad…I haven’t posted on here in a long time, there’s a bully in my head and I can’t get away

I just want to share that I think I did my first erp right now? I had an intrusive sensation following the thought and I felt like I was going to really engage in the urge. Felt like my body was going to start moving on its own. I sat with the EXTREMELY UNCOMFORTABLE FEELINGS and I feel… proud? Like I really just did that! Not gonna lie, worst minutes ever. But I felt a sense of control.

I think that I've been begging better at leaving the thoughts most of the time but I just wanna be a new person, yk?? I wanna be more myself and love myself and just. . . Ya know?? How can reinvent myself?? Habits, tips, things to do, etc...

While in recovery do any of yall find yourself not being anxious about the same thoughts that would normally trigger anxiety and fear and now arent. & Now it feels like its because you are more capable of doing them even though you dont. I hope that makes sense....

I have been doing ERP/medication. Bc the panic attacks would get really bad. But now i can sit with my thoughts, i can notice when a compulsion might want to take over, every now and then i will catch myself having a"normal day" & the doubt of it actually being a good day sets in, and i wonder where the thoughts, where tge anxiety is at and so on. BUT its been possible guys! ERP has not been easy on me. My woman problems havent been easy on me. But God. Has giving me all my strength. Theres hope !

I’ve been doing really good today I think the medicine is working! I have therapy Thursday and an appointment for my medicine today to see if they need adjusted. I used to be scared to be by myself or with someone but was fine today. I haven’t had any thoughts that bugged me. Everyone around me talked about the thing that started my issues in the first place (Jeffrey Dahmer series) and I was fine! Was even able to join the convo and be ok! Something I notice that annoys me is being asked if I’m ok I guess I just look tired? Idk but doing good! Feeling good! Meds are working so is therapy! If you guys want to know what the meds are that are working for me let me know I’d love to tell you!

Hi, so everytime i get scared of doing my self harm intrusive thouvhts i start telling myself like i wont km like any of these days because i have idk a party and i constantly tell myself that because im scared of doing them, its like my way of calming down but now im scared of what if im actually suicidal and i am capable of acting that thoughts

Hey looking for some supports. Tried different meds and haven’t my slept all night. Now going back on my other meds is this real or is it my ocd. I want there to be a cure. I did so good I had like a month of peace and I want that again. Do you think I can get there again

Hi everyone, I just wanted to say that I love you all and I’m proud of you all for not ignoring the fact that we need additional assistance to help us out!!! Keep getting better ❤️ You’re stronger than you know and you’re never alone in this.

You know ever since therapy, Lexapro and noticing my compulsions. Is been a hit or miss... Some days i feel the racing heart, the sweaty hands, the panic coming in. Some days is super easy to let it "sit there" other days when the images come in and im alone its not so much. But you guys want to know something.... I never back down. And though i hit my lowest point at times i know that it wont be like this forever. i know that it will never be like the first time. Because i am stronger, more knowledgeable, and i know i am not alone ! We got this guys 💪🏻

Today I had a long conversation with my boyfriend about how ocd has been affecting my life. It hurt to hear him say that it has took a toll on our relationship because I don’t show as many emotions anymore. I know that it’s easy for me to say that he doesn’t get it because he isn’t getting these repetitive thoughts, but I also need to understand that it hurts to see someone you love go through something and then get distant to the point where they are numb and emotionless. I feel so bad because I just wish he knew that I do this because I feel it’s the only way I can “protect” him from me. When I came to this realization I thought of how messed up this sounded. I think that I’m protecting him by pushing him away and my family away as well. I don’t even want to talk to him or my family anymore because I’m scared that I’ll get triggered. Ocd has genuinely ruined me and has made me feel that I am a monster and I am a horrible person. When in reality, I’m so sensitive to the thought of me ever causing harm to others or to myself that I would do anything to make sure this didn’t happen. Even if this means not talking to them and being distant. I know it hurt him to hear me say that I was afraid I would hurt myself. Which lead into this whole conversation, but I just don’t know what to do anymore. Anytime I feel happy here comes ocd telling me I can’t be because I’m having these thoughts and that’s what I should be focused on. Gosh ocd I hate you with every inch of me. I hate you for using what I’m most vulnerable about against me. I hate you for telling me that im going to hurt the people I love. I hate you for telling me that I deserve to be a hurtful person. I hate you for trying to define me.

Hello fellow Zoloft users. I started taking Zoloft for my anxiety, OCD, and depression. Any luck with the Zoloft? Did it help?

Hi friends. I’m wondering if anyone can relate. When I started dating my bf 1.5 years ago, I started having ROCD. It got really intense almost a year ago. It all started after I got reprimanded at work (idk why it started then but 🤷🏼‍♀️). Then I finally figured out it was OCD. It has kind of been an ROCD rollercoaster since. I’ve done erp and all of it, but recently I’ve been having suicidal thoughts. I know ocd can be a big burden because it attacks what you love, but now I don’t know if it’s harm ocd or depression. It is pretty scary and I have certain symptoms related to depression, but also idk

I can’t even tell if this is suicidal ocd or me being actually suicidal. It’s terrible. Ocd makes everything feel so real. I don’t want any of these thoughts, it then makes me feel depressed which then makes them worse. Has anyone went through this? I have a loving wife & kids I could never do something so irrational and dumb but its still very hard.

I hate feeling alone in this it’s so scary :(

Ive had TERRIBLE anxiety before, but now intrusive thoughs come and i just push them away and i dont even feel anything what does that mean have i just cone to peace with me being a horrible person or what??

Whenever I respond with uncertainty, I don't get anxious. Is my brain physically making myself anxious cuz it feels like I have to?? For example... *Suicidal OCD thought comes in my head* (How I'd normally react) OHMIGOD do I wanna die, an I suicidal, what if when I say I'm not going to argue with my thoughts anymore they get worse and become true?? (Anxious and uncomfortable feelings that make me ruminate more than the thoughts do (React with uncertainty) I accept the possibility that I might kill myself/wanna die/never get better (No or very little UNCOMFY feelings) Is this a compulsion?? Or does this mean it's true, or what!!??

I have depressive episodes when my anxiety is severe or extremely high. I may even cry. But once the anxiety has lessened, I feel somewhat normal and happy. Can anyone relate to this?

Been struggling with this theme for literally over two years. I just need to know how to get better and how to stop calling into the trap and trying to figure out if it's real/defy the thoughts that say it's too dangerous to let go/you can't let go. Whatever I'm doing doesn't seem to be working. It's been hard. All I want is to get better. How can I get there?

Hi! Anybody else get anxiety when your not having intrusive thoughts. I feel like my mind is worried but I’m not having intrusive thoughts

I've had "mental health professionals" misunderstand me and not ask me for further explanation, just made their own conclusions, which led to me being abused in the TTI. I'm still dealing with that trauma. So, I guess, how do I trust a therapist enough to tell them what my OCD is about? How do I know for a fact that no one will take me away from my family? What if I can't find a trustworthy therapist?

Rough day. Been a while without the OCD thoughts and now they’re back. Haven’t been doing therapy in a while because of work and it’s a reminder that I need to do it constantly. Trying to take some time for myself. But it’s good to know I have this community of people

Do the intrusive thoughts have to be all day every day? Some days I have barely any thoughts and some days I’m in my head all day, but then some days I have thoughts in the morning and night or even a few days with little to no thoughts? Is it normal for the thoughts to be so inconsistent? Everything I see says either constant or persistent thoughts and it’s making me doubt I even have OCD

Suicidal stuff that i see on social media and stories related and that ends up in me cant stop thinking about it. Happy people who looked happy doing it?!? Sometimes i question so many things am i even worth it? Am i doing something worth ? Am i going to do something in the future?! All this and then am i just another worthless person?!? I was so against it but what if people who are so against it actually are weak and do it or idk turn their mind around and are not strong enough.. these thoughts stopped for a while but they seem to back like what if i am wasting life and its all a waste and i cant believe i am writing this so casually something so scary am i not scared of does that mean something?!! Why are these thoughts coming are they actually true and dangerous or just because i have ocd its another theme but it feels so scary and like not ocd but like real which is scary sometimes things happen and we dont realise what if i am not as strong as i though.?? Pls help me pls

When I’m feeling great and/or having great days, I think of my OCD thoughts on purpose. Like it feels weird to not suffer from OCD or anxiety. Does anyone else do this? I’ve been told it’s a form of checking so even when I feel well, I’m still doing mental compulsions. It’s like I’m trying to see if the thoughts still cause distress and anxiety.

Has effexor made anyone worse ?

My friends girlfriend has twin brother who has Schitzofrina and he killed himself Monday and I have had the worst anxiety since. I struggle with suicidal ocd and mental health and I’m so triggered. Any tips?

I have 2 people I know that have killed them self this week. It’s been very bothersome, suicide is terrifying to me but I’ve been depressed since Sunday and this hasn’t helped. Can someone send some positivity my way please 🙏 anyone else get triggered when they hear of stories similar to this?

Doing ERP for about three weeks now and starting to notice a difference. One thing that has really helped is using sarcasm as my response to my intrusive thoughts. Sarcasm is my second language so after talking with my NOCD therapist we thought this would be good for me. Intrusive thought pops into my head “oh yeah, that is SO something you should totally do” and even throw in a little bit of a smirk/laugh. With some of the scary thoughts it was tough to get to this point but now that I’m here it’s really working.

I haven’t been having many intrusive thoughts lately 🤘🏽 What I’m working on and dealing with now is the shame and guilt for having them in the first place. For example, I’ll be having a good day or see something that makes me feel happy, but immediately feel shame because how could I feel happy when I previously had such cruel thoughts? Any advice for overcoming that?

Diagnosed with harm ocd and have to stay home alone for 3 weeks starting this coming weekend. I'm so stressed that I've been crying all day these couple of days. I feel like I can't figure out if I actively want to hurt myself or if it is an OCD thing. All that I know is that I'm very scared that I will hurt myself so my brain's constantly tense thinking about the days starting this weekend. Anyone with harm ocd stayed home alone before? Any tips would be very helpful.

Often, I feel this weird emptiness in my chest or it’ll show up as palpitations. It happens randomly without being triggered by anything. Once I realize my physical sensations, I start to feel depressive moods. Whenever I don’t have this feeling of worry and anxiety, my OCD thoughts are minimal and the depressive symptoms go away. But as soon as my anxiety is at a higher level, EVERYTHING COMES BACK HARDER. Do you all experience this? If so, what are some tips I could try to keep it at bay? I’m sure the physical symptoms are coming from my anxiety. But it’s robbing me of joy and happiness. I want my life back.

One step at a time. One day at a time. With OCD that’s all I can really do. And that is okay. Even marathons are accomplished one little step at a time💙

I'm not going to react to my OCD for one whole month. Just to see what happens. I'm sick of it stealing my time joy, and energy. A lot of my reactions are insanely exaggerated by how much I react and overanalyze them. I've created some of my own problems, but for one month we're not reacting, we're not pushing away, and we're feeling whatever feelings that come up and live my life.

-react. Like it scares me and tortures me and it's so hard. Sometimes I don't know whats real or not. It gets so confusing with this fvcking theme

When working on recovering from OCD, I get stressed wondering what's the best way to respond to the thoughts. I see so many ways, like just not responding, responding sarcastically, maybe maybe not, agreeing with the thoughts... I just don't know which way works the best and I'm actually stressing about this. I feel like I've tried them a bit I just don't know which one works best. And all I want is to get so so much better

I’ve been questioning everything lately even more than usual I keep asking myself is this real are people around me even real, does anything matter and it freaks me out so much I’m in so much distress and it makes me feel like I’m loosing my mind 😭

I feel so bad... i dont know if these thoughts are real suicidal thoughts or ocd type and i feel so bad about this(sad,scared,hopeless,guilt,shame). I read things from the internet and kinda seems like my intrusive thoughts were real suicidal thought, but before i treated them as ocd thought and i wasnt scared. I would really like if someone could go to my mind and tell me these arent suicidal thoughts...

my harm ocd thoughts if that’s what these are feel like temptation, is that normal

Does anyone with suicidal ocd when ever something bad happens like just life stuff ever feel or think “maybe this is something that would make me suicidal” or “there’s people that something like this would lead them to unalive themselves”. It’s so weird because sometimes I just want to be sad about life just being life with this annoying voice that this thing that’s happening could be the end of me. Does anyone feel this way I would love to hear your experience!!

Ughhh I am so sick of feeling the blah ocd anxiety feeling I swear in the episodes I have I wake up and it’s the first thing on my mind !! And I seem to forget that it does go away I do end up feeling better.

I’ve been doing fairly well for a while. But while scrolling through Instagram, I seen that someone passed away yesterday by suicide. This is one theme that I have the hardest time dealing with. I’m riddled with anxiety to the point I’m shaking and trying to keep myself from having a panic attack. My thoughts are “what if I get to this point?” “Could this ever be me?” “Do I feel this way or this the OCD?” I hate being triggered like this. I don’t know if my thoughts/feelings are genuine or if this is what OCD does to me…

My therapist told me just because something is ocd doesn’t make it mutually exclusive from behaviors I would actually do he was saying it could be acted upon if there was another reason. How am I supposed to feel calm knowing this

Just stopping by to give you guys some hope . I dealt with suicidal ocd and sexual orientation ocd and a little bit of Health OCD ….. always know when dealing with ocd , no matter the subtype …. The subtype is never the problem … it’s The doubt that is the problem . I still have my times but I’m able to live a good life . I was able to overcome. One thing you can do is start ignoring your intrusive thoughts …. When you get to the point to where you laugh at your thoughts that’s how you know you’re making progress . You will get there . One thing I’ve learned and I’m also still learning is that you can’t fight OCD with logic…. You can’t think your way out of OCD or try to counter intrusive thoughts… they’re meant to ignored. Also , everybody has intrusive thoughts but the difference is that someone with OCD interprets them as a threat and we wonder do they mean anything. That’s where the problem begins . Then you start to overthink and analyze everything which is exactly what OCD wants you to do. OCD wants you to ruminate and feed into the what ifs until you’re confused about who you are and what you want. Truth is …. You know exactly who you are, that’s why you’re struggling so much. But switch your approach . Don’t fight it with logic. DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. Don’t reassure yourself . Because that is what Keeps OCD going. One thing about what if …. It will always be another what if when dealing with OCD. Finding out if you’re straight or not isn’t the root of the problem. Living with uncertainty is and you will get to that point if you believe that you can. Learning all the tricks of OCD is powerful . When dealing with OCD . If thoughts make you feel anxious and make you question yourself . That’s OCD . The thought is meant to be ignored . Don’t fear the thought or try not to think about it . Just acknowledge it as just a thought that has no meaning . Don’t try to figure out why you had it or what does it mean . Truth is it doesn’t mean anything . How many of you stood on a balcony and had a weird thought , what if you jumped ….. or what if I threw my phone ….that doesn’t mean that you’re suicidal or you don’t value your phone . With OCD we have to learn not to take things so seriously . This has helped me a lot and I hope it help you guys too .

Things are turning worser than before, I don't think i I will be able to hold out for any longer

Does anybodys intrusive thoughts come with very strong urges?Trying to convince you that you want this to happen? Any advice would be amazing 🥺

I've been on Prozac for a week now and I feel like I'm losing my sanity, anyone else experience this? Should I still stay on it to see benefits in the long run? 🥺

I've somehow developed like an I don't care about anything mentality which scares me (everything feels more muted, ask off my emotions), except for my OCD. Muted feelings, but lots of rumination - I'm struggling. I've decided I'm going to use this to my advantage and try to develop an I don't care additude about ocd as I'm feeling this way, and pray I start to "feel again" soon. Tips are great!!

I'm absolutely terrified, but excited. I'm going to graduate with a class of about 23 students (Supppper small school). How can I focus on bettering my mental health and making the ABSOLUTE MOST OF MY LAST YEAR AT HIGH SCHOOOL??! Also any and every tip, as always, is appreciated!!

Currently on my 6th day of Prozac, I can't tell if it's making it worse or just the same since it's too soon to tell. I'd appreciate if anyone shared if it got worse before it got better or there experience on Prozac 🥺

From February- April I lived on this app. Now, I only come on every so often to check in. There are days, even weeks when I don’t even think about my OCD at all. I never thought I’d get to this point but let me tell you, it’s lovely. Keep pushing, recovery is near 💗

Started ERP and my recovery journey about 2 weeks ago. Early on the ERP was a little tough but not terrible and it got better as I did my homework in between my therapy sessions. Yesterday we ramped it up. What was easy last week was terrible yesterday. I'm a grown man and I was in tears over what I wrote and had to read to my therapist. The rest of the day/night I was a wreck because of it. Today I got the strength to do my homework (read out loud what I wrote yesterday). In just one day my anxiety at the start dropped from a 10 to a 6! No tears and I even started thinking about how I could change my writing to make it even better! Yesterday I was questioning the whole ERP process (that was the OCD talking) If you are new to it trust it and do your homework!! It can suck but it will make you better.....actually maybe it will, maybe it won't ;>)

Hi I'm struggling with what an exposure could be. I am currently allowing the thoughts to be there and the anxiety but not ruminating or reassuring myself is this ERP or ? So confused

Really Not having a good day, my business is super stressful and I can’t handle it, I feel so overwhelmed my brain feels like it’s on fire.

I hope everyone has a great day today! Remember that YOU are in control of your day don’t let ocd tell you what you can and can’t do. Sending everyone a virtual hug (: we all deserve to have a good day!

Does anyone have any exposures for this team ? Thanks

The past few days have been an absolute roller coaster. I feel like I have to put up a front to myself sometimes that it’s okay and that I’m fine and honestly it’s so exhausting. I broke down yesterday and cried because it seems like there’s just so much going on in my head. Sometimes I forget to feel for myself and to just let myself feel my feelings. Before ocd I used to be a super emotional person I feel like I would cry at every little thing but now I’m not sure what happened in between. I felt better letting my emotions out and I was able to go about my night and I ended up watching one of my favorite movies and enjoying good food with my boyfriend. I’m starting college tomorrow and it’s something I’ve always been super excited about. It’s always been the baseline to the start of my adult years for me and I have so many goals I want to accomplish. It hurts sometimes to think that this hit so hard at this point in my life. But I know that I’m going to make it out alive and I refuse to let ocd take over my life especially the life I have worked so hard for and dreamed for so long for. I hope everyone knows that you’re not alone and that all these thoughts you are having are not a desire of yours they’re literally your biggest fears. We only have one life and we deserve to live it to the fullest. Sending lots of love to everyone out there! ♥️

Does anyone get very bad intrusive thoughts and urges about absolutely everything around them? It could be the most silliest thing or scariest thing both feel super real. 🥺

How do you stop ruminating I literally have a headache now. I’m just so tired my mind cannot stop questioning everything.