Okay everyone last post of the day honestly. I just need help. I’ve been feeling better and wanted to basically experiment with my hair buying wigs. Here’s the thing, I decided on synthetic because i believe it’s more humane i just found one who’s texture i love but its called Dominica which im assuming is a play on words for saying this texture is supposed to imitate that of people from the Dominican Republic. Only thing I is i was romantically involved with a guy and while i was talking to him he was still very close to his ex (who was if I remember correctly from the DR). The romantic encounters end with that guy brought on my worst and longest bought of ocd and idk i think i get triggered when i see someone or something from the DR. Now im questioning if im buying this hair to look like her out of jealousy or self hate and am wondering now if every wig i bought was because i was trying to be someone else and wasn’t loving myself. Not a nice feeling at all…. Help? I never really even saw this woman. But in the picture i think i saw of her the texture of her hair, I believe was even different from the hair/wig i wanted to buy but does that even matter? Idk. Just bringing in context. Also just want to say thank you to this community for being here for me lately so much i appreciate it 😊.

"Pure" OCD

Ughlmao

Date posted: 4y

Maybe, maybe not. Just do what makes you truly happy.

Coul.C

Date posted: 4y

Idk if i should turn this into a exposure or just leave it

Ughlmao

Date posted: 4y

@Coul.C I would probably leave it if ur not sure that it is going to be helpful for you

Coul.C

Date posted: 4y

@Ughlmao Does it sound like it could be a particularly helpful exposure? I never know if a potential exposure will be helpful for me but that’s part of the uncertainty i guess. I just need to know if it is something that sounds along the lines of erp to others who are a bit familiar with this as i dont have a therapist atm.

Ughlmao

Date posted: 4y

As someone who is in erp, the point of it is to expose yourself to scenarios you are uncomfortable around and resist compulsions. If this is a topic you feel uncomfortable around, I would take the time to explore it and think about what you truly like/dislike about it. For now, though, unsure if you’re liking something could or could not be ocd -your exposure should be whatever helps you tolerate uncertainty

Coul.C

Date posted: 4y

Well erp is also to help against triggers I believe no? And that is one big trigger for me ppl from the DR it goes further into if im buying the hair to look like her even though the hair isn’t like that of what I believe her texture may be but that may be my pure ocd? It is worth erp for that trigger? I honestly really wanted the hair and i feel like im trying to conivnce you you to tell me to get it 😂 but at the same time i dont want to do something like that will tarnish my character

Ambiguous

Date posted: 4y

I think if it's a big trigger for u u should expose yourself to it if it isn't u can still get it for yourself , unless it's very distressing for you or to much go ahead and buy it :) I'm sure you'll be able to enjoy it and I hope you do!

Coul.C

Date posted: 4y

Thank yoouu. I feel like i was kinda trying to get people to agree that i should get it but my old ocd therapist told me that deep down i knew what exposures i should be doing and this might be one of those cases. Thank you for this friend. I definitely appreciate this :)

Ambiguous

Date posted: 4y

Your welcome , I'm glad if I helped any :)

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