Having one of those days where my thoughts are getting to me Pocd tw As some of you who have seen my posts already know... I’m a nurse and today I was helping my 14 year old teenager use the urinal (due to his condition he needed help) and he had an erection and ended up not be able to pee and I was having so many intrusive thoughts and ocd kept trying to say “you know you like this etc etc” and even know my mind is trying to say “you did something to him” and I know I didn’t but ocd says “what if you did “accidentally” I’m sure he was just hard because he’s a teenager etc, maybe just the fact a female nurse was in the room Trying to tell the ocd bully I’m accepting the uncertainty Just harder to do that today :(

Thanks for all the support guys. I made it through the day!

Of course u had intrusive thoughts. Who wouldn't in that situation.

Hales I put a good post about how I visualised all you were describing in my minds eye. With great detail. Yet my interpretation was not that I’m a voyeur or a pervert. Instead my only thought was you are still fighting the bully. Keep fighting. The battle is worth it. Your character will level up big time. Nothing lasts forever including the pain of ocd.

Hope this helps !

You’re so strong for continuing to face your fear knowing the intrusive thoughts will come. You got this!

Just tell yourself that whatever has happened has already passed and you can't change it ...so just let it go ! ...Or you can try to agree that humans are imperfect and can make mistakes but you can't beat yourself up for an occasional mistake and so, forgive yourself this time and move on !

And if it's accidental then it's not even your fault !! It's an accident !

This sounds horrible Hales. I’m sorry you have to go through it, but you’re still doing well. Remember all the advice you gave me? Haha

So sorry this happened to you. I can totally relate, it’s such a scary feeling. You did nothing wrong!!!

i think it’s definitely normal even for someone not with ocd! And definitely, just going to work and not avoiding baths/ changing etc. I used to delegate everything to a tech which nothing is wrong with doing that, that is within their scope but it was 100% because I was scared to be alone with a patient while they were naked etc

You can do this!

Are you serious that post was deleted??? It was helpful and it certainly wasn’t degrading!!! Fuck this app

They deleted it though. Maybe because I used the c word to describe ocd.

Hi halespineapple18 does OCD get easier as a nurse over time? I find it difficult o be around people who are naked.

Hello @forestlife00 it definitely does, but only with continuing to do exposures and not avoiding the fear.

Did your exposure involve just going to work instead of avoiding it? I’m starting the nursing program and am already having some fears. It’s more so when it involves having to be exposed to someone “naked”. Maybe it’s normal at first for everyone to feel a bit overwhelmed by this?? I’m working with a therapist though too so I’m hoping that will help me as well.

How you doing now hales?

Hey soniclen Ran into a few bumps here and there, sensorimotor and hadn’t themes popped up but overall doing pretty good

*harm*

How about you?

Not bad. How is the POCD specifically

Pretty good

I only get triggered when my trauma gets triggered. Turns out my ocd very much sits on ptsd. Soooo......hardcore exposure was NOT the way to go really.

Still working at it. Still makes intimacy a bit triggering sometimes but much better. Lot of feelings just not dealt with. Fuck child abusers - they leave us with immovable scars

Well... Hey guys ? Hales it says I last spoke to you like 200 days ago on some of these posts haha. Time flies when you're having... Well a breakdown ? Hope you're all okay

Haha! Yeah it’s been forever ago! I’m in a pretty good place right now. I’ve had some ups and downs but overall doing good. Back to working full time and training for a half marathon (will be my fourth one) Running has really been helping me. How are you doing Lewis?

I’m so happy to hear you guys are all doing better!