Self harm ocd trigger! How to differentiate intrusive ocd suicidal thoights and real suicidal thoughts? I often am scared that my suicidal thoughts are real and i am scared as hell then. Woke up with intense anxiety this morning. How to make a difference between them? Thanks for you support! :)

Also, if you are willing to do compulsions to prevent s3icide, then it's 100% intrusive thoughts.

But im also exhausted of my mental illnesses. I feel really confused, not sure of myself. I can handle ocd, always have handled it, but i just cant make sense what is happening. Am i depressed? Why i feel down a lot? I wake up and get a thought "this is really bad go kill yourself" and then i get anxiety again. Is this ocd or something else? Thank you for answering, you seem like you know this stuff :)

@Viig1mari I'm sorry that you're in a moment of doubt. But I know you can do this. I am too exhausted of my OCD, but I do my best to handle it. There will be times where you feel lost and down, but those moments won't last forever. For your last question, if the thought was sudden and unwanted, it certainty is OCD. Don't listen to your thoughts, you are you, don't let those thoughts change that! The next time you get that thought, belittle it. "You can't control me, I do whatever I want." Then continue your day. Don't ruminate, just one statement is more than enough :)

You don't - Honestly I've been on the same boat and I was never able to differentiate OCD thoughts between normal thoughts. You can actually differentiate easier when you're not actually trying, since you won't be ruminating.

@PolarisJoy Also when i get an intrusive thought, i get anxious and cant let go, then i almost willingly think those thoughts? Is this something you also have expierenced?

@Viig1mari I absolutely did. It can be hard to let go at first, but when given time, it will become less sticky. THAT IS - if you don't do any compulsions. So whenever you get another intrusive thought, DO YOUR BEST to not think those thoughts. Rumination is a compulsion which reinforces the thought. I hope you success, you can do this.

@Viig1mari Also, try putting yourself back to the present moment. Continue doing what you were doing without giving attention to anxiety. Get busy living! This helps you not be too distracted by the thought. Even though you feel anxious, you can still continue your day. When OCD doesn't get the attention it craves, it will eventually give up. Trust me.

@PolarisJoy Maybe not completely give up, but it gets easier for sure -

@PolarisJoy Thank you! It will help me a lot! :)