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- 3y
Exactly sorry for the long respone I just have trouble explaining all the thoughts I have in text. Its a lot easier to talk in person
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- 3y
I understand what ur going thru I struggled with why I didn't act like a "normal" person for a long time!
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- 3y
I thought I was lazy or I wasnt meant for anything that I couldn't handle stress or many other reasons. I had always been interested in disorders so I considered them I thought I was using them as an exuse for my lazyness
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- 3y
it turns out ocd is real, even if I don't have it tons of people here do I'm still considering what I truly have and will eventually work up the courage to see a pychatrist or something, I thought it didnt matter my life was too hard anyway
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- 3y
It isn't things get better the future isn't plain or ready for anyone I thought I wanted to join the military till my political beliefs changed me but then I doubted and thought I was lazy. You are not a worthless person, your worth isn't if u have a job or do things the right way but what u can do to better the world. And the best way to do that is to bebetter yourself both by battling ur ocd and be being confident in your abilities. I'm not sure what u want to do but whatever it is go for it you are meant for it your anxious is from ocd and life in general and no one is 100 percent motivated. Focus on small things like making it thru each day and helping out others. When u find something u like learn more about it and tell yourself that u have a future. If you let your ocds doubts take priority over your own self worth you won't be able to do anything u want.
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- 3y
I believe in your ability to better yourself, in fact your already asking for advice and help. We are here for you, life isn't a destination it's a journey and got us it's going to be very hard, we just got to keep moving forward to live it otherwise we'll never know our success or failures. I believe you have a future in this world and so do I, it doesn't matter what we do in particular all that matters is our futures are full of love and joy! Keep on moving forward! Believe in yourself and better yourself when u can and take a break when u need it. We're here for you ☺️♥️
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- 3y
@HispanicAtTheDisco Regardless if u ever doubt u have a future think of it like this. Your ocd is the only thing that benefits form u doubting it and your ocd is a mean bully who doesn't deserve a future. You have to have a future if ocd is trying to rob u from it :)
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
I think that trying to picture yourself too far in the future will not help in recovery. Give acceptance one day at a time. I also wouldn’t ruminate or try to find answers to your thoughts. Try writing down some worst case scenarios if you couldn’t help out with your family or didn’t have a future. What would that look like in your mind?
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- Date posted
- 25w
I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
- Date posted
- 24w
back in october i made my first post about my specific type of ocd, how it mixes in with my day to day and how i “deal” with it. i talked about the starting point, how it gradually got worse, and then how it was going just a few months ago. i always think it’s insane how much can change in just the course of a small to a large amount of time. right now, i honestly feel like garbage. to be quite sincere i really want to give up, i’m barely holding on by a thread. and if i cut that thread, i really doubt anyone would care. i’ve never considered myself to be a suicidal person, and i still don’t consider myself that right now. it just gets to a point where it’s just, a lot to deal with. i don’t really enjoy things a lot nowadays. sure i have good days like everyone does, like today, when i was just enjoying my day without worries. but then it all comes crawling back twice as bad the following days. i take online college so i’m usually just stuck at home most of the time. but, when i do decide to actually go out and leave my house, my ocd just explodes because i have this whole routine i need to do or else i feel like i’ll contaminate wherever i end up going. i’m not going to go really deep into my compulsions because it’s hard enough to live with them, much more having to type them all out in detail. but when i go out my compulsions go from wiping down all my stuff i’m going to use after showering, to washing my clothes/cleaning the washer + dryer. i also have separate things (or two of the same thing) i use specifically in my house, and items i use when going out. such as shampoo/body wash, deodorant, lotion, hair curler, etc. as if that’s not draining enough, i also feel the need to fast a couple days prior to any plan i make because i’ve forced myself to believe i need to feel empty in order to be clean. i’m not sure if that’s my past eating disorder talking, or my ocd, but my brain can’t help but think any food in my house is utterly and completely contaminated. i’m so tired of this feeling, feeling like nothing will ever be clean again. feeling like my ocd is trapped in my childhood home. feeling that wave of diseases rushing through my veins the moment i step foot into what’s supposed to be “home”. and i’m so scared of therapy because what if i do get healed, and then everything comes rushing back the second i step into my room. i’m planning on moving somewhere far from my current house in this next coming year, so sometimes i feel like just waiting it out. but it’s insufferable when going to hangout with someone. i miss my friends, my family, and my partner. it’s crazy to me that i’m dealing with all this at the young age of 18 but, i’m sure lots of people have it way worse. i just want to find a way out, any possible way. but i keep pushing myself deeper and deeper that when i finally find a way, it will no longer exist.
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- 19w
I don’t know what I can do. I guess this is more of a depression thing than OCD but who knows. I have been battling this ongoing war within myself for years now and it’s been affecting my academic performance. situation of mine right now: I haven’t done a lot of work for my classes this month and I feel like I’m going to fail the semester again. I don’t know what it is but I can never seem to begin any work. I know I am capable but why can’t I get myself to start? why has this been going on for so long? I don’t understand. I have a history of good grades back in high school before I turned 17. I don’t even know how to describe it. it’s like I’ve been paralyzed and cannot do any work. but I can somehow do offside tasks like pinterest boards or random youtube videos. if I get rid of those, what do I do? I end up sleeping. because I’m tired. I have a low vitamin D deficiency & have been trying to get energy. I’m at a loss. I also bought unnecessary stuff on sunday when I went out with my family. I bought some things for the kids and I ended up buying myself a dress and a few accessories. now I have to work extra to gain that money back doing uber eats because I need it asap. it’s like I don’t want to work, for now. my coworkers who are around my age don’t work as much & I think to myself, “wow, they must be getting in the work done” meanwhile I’m working 3 days a week (which isn’t much) and attending school. I feel like if I change my schedule again, I’ll ruin it for the rest of my driver coworkers. I’m in a lead position at work so having to put on a mask is quite tiring. there’s so much I want to say that I don’t think it will fit in this post. I have booked a mental health session with a school counselor. all I want at the moment is to have my own place and be in a better mental state to take care of my cats. they mean a lot to me but this stupid ass undiagnosed mental issue is getting in the way. sorry for the long rant. I am tired.
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