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False memory ocd sucks. But I saw a YouTube video once and that therapist said. “If it was important you would remember, if you doubt it could be an ocd false memory thought then it most likely is” . I know it’s hard and I’m experiencing the same thing too. It will get better :)
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Do u have any advice for a couple of times I had a little too much to drink with friends? Obviously alcohol should be consumed in moderation, but as someone in my mid twenties who enjoys going out, I’ve gone a little too hard at times! Those times I question everything.. which I guess is valid if things got a little fuzzy?😞
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@princessem i don’t bc i’m focusing on something from two years ago:/ same situation
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@princessem Even when you are drunk you remember your actions if you did something horrible you would most likely remember. Ocd is a bully and it can easily rely on alcohol to trigger your false memory ocd
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@Kklrs this was like two years ago and today is our 4 year anniversary and i can’t help but feel so freaking guilty..
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@Kklrs i even remember crying a lot that night but i think it’s bc i admitted to having an eating disorder.
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@Anonymous If it was something YOU did wrong you would defiantly remember… if you suffer from false memory ocd it is really really normal to have these thoughts especially now that it is your anniversary. It always wants to destroy our best moments. You are strong and will fight it. Check out this video. https://youtu.be/cLG_vW57AgA
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On my to do list tonight is to rethink everything that has happened recently and figure out what was real and what wasn’t so I can make sure I didn’t do anything unloyal to my boyfriend or anything that I need to confess😓 it’s exhausting
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yup me too
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it feels so freaking real too like i’ll remember something i did WITH HIM ana freak out that it wasn’t really with him then ask him and he’s like huh
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@Anonymous I don’t know how to overcome it because it’s like I don’t want to just let it go as an intrusive thought because if I DID do something then it’s too serious to let go…? That’s why it haunts me so much
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It also happens to me when I drink alcohol. Even if I remember everything, I tell myself what if things got fuzzy because I drank a lot and don’t remember doing something. Sometimes when I drink alcohol, I tell him something may have happened that I don’t remember and I’m so sorry but we will never know. He’s such a champ for staying with me through it I feel bad
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i hate this. like I CANT HANDLE IT ITS OUR 4 YEARS TOMORROW
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@Anonymous I think that because it’s your 4 years that your feelings of OCD are worse. My bf and I are a couple of hours apart, and I feel like my OCD gets worse when I know I’m going to see him. It’s almost like I feel like I need to make sure I confess anything that I think I may have done wrong before I can let myself enjoy my time. Like I don’t feel like I deserve to have a good time if I’m “hiding something”?
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@princessem ok true that’s so annoying bc when i AM with him i’m so happy and not anxious
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TW: SA i’m scared bc now what if i got raped???
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No honey.. I’m so sorry you are going through that. But even if that happened why would you be guilty of that???? You did NOTHING WRONG.
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@Kklrs i know and i don’t even remember any of that i don’t even think it happened but it’s an intrusive thlught
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@Anonymous I know and I totally get you. I’ve been there. It will get better I promise you just should not give in to compulsions
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any advice for when you get false memories that feel really real? especially something that had JUST happened, it’s like ur brain distorts it. i feel like i do something wrong 24/7 then i get over it and ocd latched onto something new
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Does anyone else’s false memory intrusive thoughts of what could have happened feel very, very real?
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So. I was in a traumatic relationship. for a long time. it was filled with gaslighting, manipulation, abuse, cheating ect. I would OBSESS over finding out where they were, what they were doing, who they were talking too. but I couldn’t leave. I tried so hard but I never could. they would call me names, physically hurt me, throw things, break things. because I would question them all the time. but I just couldn’t leave. no matter what I knew. they would manipulate me. I fell for their childhood trauma. it’s like I lost all logic. but I also feel like I have a pretty good memory with memories. not all the way, but remembering a lot of the traumatic things. especially now that I’m no longer with them. I keep remembering things that’s happened. even from my childhood. one time way before I even started dating this person, I had an intrusive thought about a friend of mine. that was with me. and I freaked out. I thought I had acted on the intrusive thought the next day. I asked my friend for confirmation but they said nothing happened. but the memories about it feel SO REAL. so VIVID. but they swore that nothing happened and they had no idea what I was talking about. I’ve struggled with intrusive thoughts for my whole life. so fast forward to now, that ‘false memory’ from my friend randomly popped up and I started obsessing about it, and my childhood ‘memories’ that have popped up. and then I was reading an article of someone doing something horrible, and then it sounded ‘familiar’ and so then I’ve created this whole memory of me doing something similar to the article involving my partner doing it also. the memory keeps adding new things and conversations around it. when it involves an actual real memory. but it’s like it’s been twisted from what I remembered before. I also suffer from bad anxiety. I’ve stalked pictures. my search history to figure out what I was doing that say when the real event happened. and I’ve found some things but I can’t look through my texts because I got a new phone. it has been hounding me for months. MONTHS. trying to figure out if this new ‘memory’ is real or not. if it’s been fabricated by an intrusive thought from reading the article and thinking ‘what if’ or if it actually happened and because I’m no longer in this relationship it’s a ‘repressed memory’ but the thing is I have horrible horrible anxiety and I don’t think I could have gone this long knowingly that that happened without remembering it until now. because I remember a lot of the horrible things that they did. this ‘memory’ is fuzzy, but it brings me horrible anxiety when I think of it, like I feel like it happened. but I also feel like it didn’t happen. because I know I would never do anything like that. but WHAT IF I DID, because I was manipulated. idk. is this a false memory. I really need help. because it’s been debilitating. that relationship was really traumatic. and I got manipulated into a lot of things. but I wouldn’t have just went forward knowing that that happened??? there’s no way I could have just forgotten it. because before when I would think about that night it was different, until now. but what if I just made myself forget what truly happened?? I’m a pretty self aware individual, but somehow that relationship really REALLY put me into a trance somehow where I allowed things that I have no idea how I would even allow because before I met that person I would have never allowed someone to cheat on my constantly or talk to me the way they did. or allow abuse. like I don’t understand it.
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