Some days I feel completely helpless. How do I know that I'm not in denial or it's hocd ?

Hi there! Thank you so much for reaching out on here! That’s your OCD talking! It is searching for certainty. However, in this life, nothing is certain. Do some ERP exposures around your SOOCD (I practiced “I may or may not be attracted to women.”) Whenever I would start, it was very distressing, but my body really did calm itself down after a bit! You’re doing so well—keep it up! You’re stronger than you know.