Pls if even one person could reply i am suffering I know this is a long post but i need helppppp!!! Plssss !!!!!!Certain things that make you think more about it is that a thing?? Cause like I don’t understand if thats ocd like certain looks or certain things about the same sex i would notice more which is crazy why would i even in the first place… and even when i go out i get these thoughts but because i am so numb and tired I don’t pay attention but then it feels like its real and cause i am scared and can’t do anything about it thats why i don’t pay attention to the thoughts as well and they are true are they?!? And i just think they are not cause I can’t indulge in them? Cause then why would i think of it and be okay and then it feels like because i fee okay i force myself to think anxiously about it cause i am scared of the truth and that seems easier which in turn just proves the former right doesn’t it?!? The people who know what they are don’t question it and if we question it and have doubts somewhere does that mean its true considering they also feel so true??like i see a snap story of a girl and think of her to be hot or pretty and indulge in something why would i think that and why would i be calm were the thoughts fake because they say if there are any kind of desires which I don’t know if they are fake or not but just asking this question could say that they might not be and feeling that one second of that you want it and that being so real that nothing after that seems to conquer the thoughts cause why would i want to indulge or even think i could find that hot even if finding hot is fine why the dreams why the feeling like i want it and i will be okay with it would feel so real when its not and that feels fake?!? Like all this questioning feels like i do it just for the sake of it and even if the fake or real whatever fantasies it is how do i tell myself they are not true what if they are because honestly i feel if i am put in that position I might do it and even be okay with it just saying that proves something right or am i saying it just because of ocd ?!? Or is true plss help me !!!! Am i even straight ????or all this is true because when i tell myself the former it feels fake when earlier i knew inside me it isn’t but now its transitioned to feeling like everything during that time was also true and my anxiety was fake… what do i do …

Sexual Orientation OCD

nightrain23

Date posted: 4y

Hey I had SOOCD too. I am sorry you go through that it’s horrible. It consumes many hours of your day... What helped me figuring it out was looking who I feel attracted too. Attraction is something you feel, very deeply. You feel nervous, euphoric, energetic, exited. And you want to be with that person. It is kind of addicting.It’s not rational. You don’t think yourself into being attracted to someone. That’s what helped me realise whenever the rational questioning started that this is not real. I am actually homosexual. If you want I can describe how it feels like to be attracted to women so you could compare if it is the same for you or if it is hocd.

Brave through

Date posted: 4y

I question everything every single thing you telling me how it felt for you i will think that could be with me even if it has not and what if i do feel like that and if that happens and I don’t know where to go from there it will be hard for me cause now I don’t know whats real and whats not because every thing you just said i could be like oh did i also feel that and my brain would say you might have and what if i have then what cause i don’t know whats right or wrong anymore I don’t know how i am supposed to feel anymore… i am confused and just torn

Brave through

Date posted: 4y

The thoughts are more if i see stuff virtually which i can still shove away what if it happens in real life what if that anxiety and that constant saying no its not is actually the nervousness and just fear of being in denial what then?! Its like i ask the same questions and i know the answers to them but i am still never satisfied its asking for the sake of it !??

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