There’s apart of me that is really scared to heal. Obviously I want to heal deep down but change is so scary to me at this point I’ve been living with it for so long what would life be like without it. Idk that sounds weird cuz it’s the worst thing that’s ever happened to me but idk. Does anyone feel the same ?

I had a pretty big freak-out week 3 of therapy because it hit me how many coping strategies I was going to have to let go of if I want this to work. I think it's worth it, but I sure have doubts and moments (sometimes days) where I decide it's not worth it and give up. Then I remember why I'm doing this and get back to work again.