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- Anonymous
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- 3y ago
Wow , I literally am dealing with that too. A lot of what I want to share requires maturity because of the topic . Because I don’t know your age and we’re also different gender , I’m going to keep it as neutral as possible . I believe that our past , friends , flesh and etc all impact our desire to sin . We are currently in the sanctification process . God is continuously working on us. Meanwhile , we must also be diligent and obey Him . It’s all easier said that done . You and I both struggle with things . It takes a lot of maturity and progress to just stop . With God’s abundant love for us and His pursuit after us , it’ll cast out fears and lead us to develop a healthy relationship with us . I must say , live in grace but don’t embrace sin . Another tip is to also focus on Him . The minute we focus on our problems and sins , that’s when we lose focus . I believe God knows that , so informs us to focus on Him . You do love God . You are wanting help . Do you feel convicted after you sin ?
Yes I am a Christian with ocd . Would you like to talk about it ? I’ll also be praying for you as well . I deal with blasphemous thoughts. Very very scary but I’m learning that there are so many ppl like me .
I would love to talk to someone else who understands what it’s like!! Thanks so much for the prayers I appreciate it a lot
I don’t believe that there are message features on here . That would awesome and a bit more confidential . This was is awesome too because many people are able to see that chat and help give advice as well .
I also feel like talking about it with people helps so much . The devil doesn’t want you to share and confess your sins to God . Don’t live in fear or guilt . Be honest with Him . Be honest with someone that you trust and know . Bring those things to the light . You’ll receive so much freedom !
Yup! He has a stronghold on us when we’re silent. I’ve just started being more open about this theme and talking definitely has helped already.
Have you done erp for this yet?
No it’s okay I understand . I know this is all confidential but I did share it with my wife . She wanted you to know that she advises that you keep confessing and bringing it to the light . I’m 25 and she is 21 . We totally understand . I promise you we do ! And what’s the phobia that your bf has ? Never heard of it
And I haven’t . I was suppose to . Finances got really tight . Just had a baby so I had to take care of that . I’m nervous about it because I deal with blasphemous thoughts and I don’t like to do any exposure in regards to that . Long story and it’s complicated . Just nervous honestly
Oh congrats on your baby!!! You can totally talk about it here if it would help.
Yeah that’s so true . People have said that in spite of what I’m going through that I’m a blessing . Not really sure how ? Inside I feel so terrible , guilty , afraid , confused and doubtful. I do this because I know it’s right by God ! And I’ll be honest . I have that same fear . It’s not maybe as bad , but I’m so fearful of vomiting because I’m scared I’ll choke and die or something. I’m glad you’re belong him . My wife helps me with my issues as well . It’s so relieving to know that there are so many people just like me . This is why I like to make friends . Male or female , I don’t care . I want to make friends and talk about things that matter . I’ve spent so long by myself so I scroll through post trying to help each person that I can ! It’s the very reason why I commented on your post !
Wow . That was well said . That’s exactly correct . What’s your name by the way . I’m Junior . But anyway , it is a great way to grow our faith . With OCD I try to find the answer to everything . Like i literally went through a stage about 2months ago trying to find every answer I had a question for in the Bible . As a grown man , I would literally cry so bad because I felt like I had to have the answer and if I didn’t , I was doubting . I didn’t want God to see me as that . I have to understand that He loves me like this anyway . The more we realize that He loves us just the same , the more grace we will have on ourselves . I’ll love myself a lot more . Im quite sure you and plenty others would too ! That was very encouraging. I needed to hear that . Amen to that lol !!
Of course ! Prayers is our most powerful tool . Also , would you like to talk ? Maybe I can help you
Yes!! Is there like a message feature on here
Im still willing to talk . If you have any other suggestions, then feel free to let me know . I just honestly want to help and also get to know others that are just like me .
Oh yeah that’s smart!! Basically my mind has been telling me that it’s impossible to be a Christian and still sin. I have thoughts like, “I must not really love God if I still sin and I must not really be saved if I want to sin” and that makes me hyper focused on death and eternity and feeling like I won’t be in heaven
I definitely do feel convinced but I avoid prayer often as a compulsion I think. I just think that God is tired of me asking for forgiveness after I keep sinning, which is know is false but my ocd doesn’t care about rationale as you can definitely relate to. Thanks so much for the response it’s helpful to know I’m not going through it alone
That’s a really good tip about where we put our focus, I’ll definitely be trying that
I’m 20 btw!
Okay thats good to know . I am dealing with the same thing . My pastor always tells me to not focus on myself or my issues . Focus on God ! But I know the guilt feeling . It’s like you want to do good but enjoy sinning right ? It’s because we are flesh . We are still young Christians . We are growing and desiring to be more seasoned and fruitful , you know ? It’s like Paul in the Bible . He basically said He does the things that he shouldn’t do , and don’t do the things that he should do . Remember , God convicts and never condemns us . Those thoughts are from the devil . God loves you anyway . We just have to remember that He doesn’t want us to enjoy sin because it destroys us . Am I helping ? I feel like I’m not . I’m sorry
Do you have any female friends that deal with the same thing
I don’t know anyone else with ocd
@Anonymous Well my bf has emetophobia which manifests very similarly go ocd and treatment is the same. So I talk to him a lot
No no you’re helping me so much!! I feel much calmer. You explained it perfectly. Thanks so much for helping me see it clearly. Sorry I couldn’t respond for a little while!
Whenever my ocd gets really bad I like to just scroll on here and try and give people advice too! It makes me feel like my ocd is being used for good, not just making my life hard. I definitely understand the guilt. It can be really tough. But there are so many things in life we can’t have the exact answer to and even if we did our brains would question it. We don’t have to know everything and that’s ok! They key is to be ok with being uncertain. We know God loves us, He knows us better than anyone and he knows our ocd and he still loves us just as we are. Ocd attacks what we care most about so it makes sense for it to attack our faith. This is hard but God knows it and he’s with us. The fear of dying and not ending up with God is terrifying though, but everyone on this planet is in the same boat! We’re still here and we don’t have all the answers and that’s ok :) that’s how God made it. I think having this ocd can be a really good chance to grow our faith
I’m Lauren!! Yup that’s exactly ocd!! So much doubting. It’s interesting that your compulsion was searching the answers in the Bible and mine is just avoiding the Bible entirely because I’m scared I’ll find an answers that confirm my fears
Nice to meet you Lauren ! And yeah I understand . But honestly you should read the Bible . I’d say read it when you’re not feeling so condemned all the time because you won’t receive it with love . I know when you’re enjoying your sin , you don’t want to know that you’re wrong . Am I right ? That’s how I feel . Hopefully this isn’t tmi but I literally wa trying to find a YouTube video hoping that they would say yes to the sin that I struggle with . Im just being honest .
Thank you for your honesty! I just try and justify it by being like well “everyone does this and it’s hard not to.” Which I know is really not ok. Yeah I’m gonna read some of the scarier things in the Bible as erp!
Yeah do you have Youversion . My wife and I could help you and your boyfriend. It’s basically a Bible reading app . It’s like a Facebook for the Bible . It’s pretty cool . Also , I literally was just telling my wife the same thing . When you didn’t respond , my wife and I washed our baby and I shared how we deal with sin and how sometimes confessing it makes me have more of a desire because I justify it because everyone is doing it . But we have to focus on Gods love for us and we will sin less because we have such a great relationship with Him !
That’s so crazy because I literally just said the same exact thing . Wow
Yeah it’s super crazy . We are a young black couple . We just like to make friends and be a blessing . I just like to put that out there because sometimes people are super different and things like that are an issue . We don’t care about gender , size , nor color . We love because God loves .
Hey it was nice talking to you . Just in case you respond late and I don’t reply it’s because I’m going to bed now . I also do apologize, my wife said it wasn’t necessary to mention my race . I just thought it was because of things that I’ve seen and heard . Looking forward to seeing you and your bf on YouVersion . My name on there is Junior Esprit . Have a blessed night ! I’ll be praying for you !
Catholic Christian here 🙋♀️
Does ocd go after your faith too :(
@Anonymous Yup! As far as I can remember. Fortunately, Catholics have compiled resources on OCD/-like issues. Scrupulous Anonymous is a big one, but there's a couple more
OCD tries to attack what matters to you! Try your best to gain awareness of this when you feel triggered via thoughts or emotions, and practice not reacting with compulsions or rituals. This is the foundation of ERP and this is the work. Good luck!
Yeah I’ll definitely keep talking about it! The more I talk about it the less of a grip it has on me so thanks for encouraging me in that way. Emetaphobia is the fear of vomitting, it can be really debilitating but due to my ocd I was able to help him get help and he has an appointment with a psychiatrist Tuesday! It’s funny how our ocd can actually be a blessing sometimes, like you helping me with mine!
That is crazy!!! I do have youversion! That would br awesome
Thank you so much junior!! I’m gonna add you on youversion rn! Thank you for the prayers!
Of course and no problem ! Nice talking to you . I’ll make sure I add you back . If your boyfriend wants to talk as well , he can add me too . It helps a lot to know someone is willing to talk and goes through the same thing . He doesn’t know me , so maybe it’s easier to open up to me since we are strangers . No one is judging one another . Have a blessed Saturday !
@Junior96! I’ll let him know when I get back to school next week!
@Anonymous Okay awesome !
I agree !
Hi Anonymous, glad to see all of the support and good discussion between yourself and Junior96! On this thread. To me that’s exactly what this forum was designed for. Definitely agree about talking to someone being a big help, sometime even just getting an outside perspective on something you are struggling with can make all of the difference. As you stated, OCD likes to attack what you care about most because it knows it will be harder for you to ignore intrusive thoughts or doubts about what you care about most. I also hop on here to either try to provide some advice or different perspective when my OCD is acting up as well as remind myself that I need to keep up with my ERP and good practices. Kind of like a practice what you preach when advising others to not ruminate, live with uncertainty, etc…. That’s a very good point about focusing on God rather than focusing on your intrusive thoughts, as long as you do not let your prayers/confessions become a compulsion themselves. Reading certain parts of the Bible sounds like a good idea for ERP practice for you. As you both acknowledged, uncertainty is a part of life, a part we must live with every day. Our OCD wants to get definitive answers for everything, and not giving it an answer will always spike our anxiety, but it’s what we must do. Stay strong in your faith, as I can tell it gives you both determination of will and clarity in your thoughts, beliefs and actions. OCD will try to attack your faith the most, but you can and will defeat your OCD bully, especially with you all working together like it sounds you will be. Best wishes and take care.
Hey BK , you’re such a helpful and encouraging person . I’d like to get to talk to you .
@Junior96! Thanks for the kind words and likewise for you and your posts. Very good insight and always helpful to those struggling. Always happy to talk.
I got diagnosed with OCD a few months ago after getting plagued with intrusive thoughts last November. It’s been present in my life since I was younger but didn’t become truly debilitating until last November. I’ve been in therapy since May, and I started an SSRI. I’m a Christian, and I’ve struggled a lot with my faith since this started. I’ve had a hard time with ERP because I fear it’s not going to help and actually make things worse. I have also had a lot of emotional turmoil from family trauma and marriage issues. I’ve become so hopeless and numb and desensitized that I don’t know how to continue forward. I don’t feel like I’m able to talk to anyone about it because it’s taboo, so I feel like a fraud and like I don’t deserve to do things I enjoy or hang out with people I love. I do want to get better but I also have a fear that I don’t actually want to. I feel like my whole life is ruined and that I’ll never enjoy living again.
Has OCD ever kicked in whenever you felt God’s presence? I felt like it’s been this way for me many times. I could get peaceful and then thoughts could come into my head and I wouldn’t like it at all. Can OCD do this?
i’m so caught up in figuring out my obsessions because i don’t want them to come true. i have been obsessing over the devil and whether or not he can possess or control me and it won’t go away. i don’t know what to do. i’m so tired all the time and i don’t feel like myself anymore. i can’t keep up with my schoolwork and can barely take care of myself. i’m also in college so it’s hard being on my own.
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