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I don’t think I can do this alone anymore. My Religious OCD is getting worse, and it feels like the most painful and challenging thing I’ve ever had to deal with. I’m 17 years old, and I desperately need help. I feel like I’m losing my mind because I have no one to talk to about this struggle. My family doesn’t even know I have OCD. This subtype of OCD keeps attacking my faith, and it’s making me feel like I’m losing connection with God. I don’t want to give up, but I feel so mentally and emotionally exhausted. My thoughts keep telling me that everything I do is a sin, and I can’t live or act freely like I used to. I’m constantly asking God for forgiveness whenever my OCD convinces me I’ve done something wrong or sinful. I feel like I need to be perfect all the time, like I’m not allowed to make a single mistake in thought or action. But that’s impossible. No one is perfect. And still, my OCD screams at me that the only way to be free is to leave my religion. That thought terrifies me. I hate it. I don’t want to leave my faith or turn my back on God. But it’s gotten so bad that I’ve started questioning things I never wanted to question—like whether God is even real—and that makes me feel even more lost and afraid. I don’t want to believe those thoughts. I love God deeply. I don’t want to lose my faith. But it feels like I’m holding on by a thread. I’m afraid this will push me into depression. I’m scared that my OCD will convince me to let go of the faith that means so much to me. Please, I need help. I need strength. I don’t want Religious OCD to win. Even though it feels like I’m at my breaking point, I still want to fight. Do you have any advice on how to manage Religious OCD? I want to stay strong. I want to hold onto my faith. I just don’t want to feel this way anymore.

I don’t know what’s happening to me. I feel so lost, and earlier I couldn’t stop crying. My heart feels incredibly heavy, and I’m overwhelmed with self-hate. I’ve been struggling badly with Religious OCD, and it’s getting worse. It’s deeply affecting my faith and I’ve started questioning everything about God, and that scares me because I never imagined I’d get to this point. It all started one morning when I woke up and suddenly, it feels like most of the things I used to do were feel sinful because that was my brain keeps on telling me. Since then, I’ve been overanalyzing every thought, feeling, and action—everything feels like a sin. I constantly ask God for forgiveness, even with almost everything that I feel and thought is sinful. Then I started ruminating on my past, especially about times I masturbated, watched porn, felt lustful, or had sexual thoughts, I often do it during ovulation and sometimes when I'm bored. I also tend to daydream, especially before sleeping or when I’m not using my phone, and those fantasies sometimes involve sexual scenarios with someone I like. My Religious OCD is heavily focused on these thoughts. I’m confused because I don’t know if these things are truly sinful. Many people do these things and still have strong religious faith, but when I started searching, most of the answers said they are sins. Sometimes I feel the urge to turn to the Bible to find clarity and answers. That makes me fear that maybe God won’t forgive me especially since I know I might struggle with these things again. I know sexual feelings are part of being human, especially when hormones are involved. Still, my mind keeps telling me how sinful it all is. What scares me the most is that my brain keeps trying to convince me to quit my religion which is Roman Catholic just so I can feel “free” from all the guilt and fear of si. My brain convince me that quitting is the only solution. But I hate that thought. I don’t want to abandoned my religion. Even though it feels like my faith is fading, I still want to believe in God. I can’t imagine life without Him or without religion, it would feel like a part of me is missing. Also, what I saw on tiktok triggers me. There are people abandoning their religion and starts not to believe in God. They started quitting because of their Religious OCD. My OCD keeps on convincing me that I should do it too. My OCD keeps telling me that I'm a hypocrite that I’ll praise God, ask for forgiveness, and will still do those sexual things. And right now, that thought feels so real and hopeless. I’m terrified that I might start believing it, even though I don’t want to. I know that with God, I used to feel free—but now everything feels like a sin, and I live in fear of punishment. I hate this feeling. I feel like God is turning his back already because I feel like giving up already but I still want to believe in Him. My OCD is so loud that it is good at convincing. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I'm going crazy. Please help me. I want to make my faith stronger again and don't question everything about God. I have no one to talk to abou this even in my family because they don't know that I'm suffering with OCD.

Have you ever been through Very bad thoughts about your brain wants to twist anything about good or bad like evil and good which is god and sat*n and panicking because you believe In god but your brain is messing with you have you ever felt like you're afraid you had commit blasmphy in your thoughts It's very bad thoughts like omg where does these toughts come from?? Please tell me your experience One moment I feel okay and I can pray and vent to god and other moment I'm so ashamed of myself for thinking like that Am I alone in this am I crazy?

I’m thinking about doing erp but my ocd is so severe the thought of accepting my fears happening to me makes me sick to my stomach. I also believe in the power of my words and saying I accept this Bad thing will attract it into my life. I’m not sure what I should do🥲

Does anyone feel like god didn't forgive them even after confessing? Doing alot of sins and confessed but still have this fear of thoughts telling you you had so bad Thoughts about him and that you don't deserve to be forgiven? Or it's too late? And anything religious triggers you?

My son has Pure O religious/scrupulosity with GAD and Bipolar. My son was diagnosed with Pure O religious OCD two years ago. He has to complete a task so that God doesn’t send him to hell if he doesn’t do it. These tasks are dangerous like doing multiple back flips on concrete, or jumping off balconies three times, doing MMA slams on his back three times. The thoughts are telling him if he doesn’t do this he will go to hell. Or he is so worried about blaspheming the holy spirt and loose his salvation. He knows this is his OCD. He knows the scripture and that God is one of peace and love. Been there and done that on quoting scripture and reminding him he is saved. I can see the torture he is going through and it is painful to watch. He also needs to be stuck next to me at all times cuz it makes him feel safe. This is impeding on my life as I feel I have a toddler again, he is 24 and a former 4 star football player. He wants this to stop, he is in therapy and working on it. He was free from these thoughts from November 2023 till April 2025. He is dealing with narcissistic trauma with his father and this triggers the OCD. My question is what can I do to support and help him through these episodes and not agitate him and to help him heal?

Last question for the day lol. Does anyone have religious ocd like you think everything is a “sign”?

I am so tired, guilty, and scared of my thoughts. They are very dark and evil, and I can’t stand thinking about them anymore. It’s always the same dark thoughts every day, wishing death and bad things on my loved ones and even other people. I keep thinking about it daily, and it causes me so much stress. I love my family, and I don’t want them to die. I would be willing to sacrifice my life just for them to live. I always tell myself that I should be the one to die first, not my parents, because I’m a horrible person. I don’t know what would happen to me if they were gone. I badly want to stop having these dark and evil thoughts, but I can’t ignore them. Sometimes I try arguing with them, but it’s still hard to stop. How can I stop them? They’re so repetitive, and it feels like I’m going crazy while thinking about them. I feel like God won’t forgive me for having these kinds of thoughts. I can’t forgive myself, and I really hate myself. I hate myself so much because why would I think about such evil things? Why did it have to get to the point where I’m wishing death and horrible things on the people I love? I feel disgusting, and I don’t think I can love myself anymore because of these thoughts. My brain keeps telling me that I like the thoughts, that I really mean them. But what if I really do mean them? What if I actually want it? What if I think these things on purpose? I can’t do this anymore. I just want to die if I have to spend the rest of my life with these dark, evil thoughts especially toward my loved ones. I’m not suicidal, but I think dying is the only way to stop having these thoughts. I can’t look at myself the same way again. I don’t think I deserve anything good in life.

Does anyone ever feel like you know you have OCD, but at the same time you think it might actually be you connecting to a higher consciousness or vibration that is trying to control your decisions so that the outcome does not turn out bad kind of like the butterfly effect. It drives me crazy because I know I’m conscious that it’s OCD but at the same time I overthink and feel like it might be a higher power trying to warn me that I’m not doing something right, like example; if I flip the trash can lid a couple more times it’s going to pervert something bad from happening and that why I’m sensing I’m not doing it right, because if I spent a little more time there and if I would have left earlier the outcome would’ve been different. Or say I just fight through it and choose to ignore it, but then I’ll carry that negativity/worry of not feeling like I did it right and will project it out into existence because the thought won’t leave my head and in a way your seeking it out into existence since you keep thinking about it, kind of like an affirmation?

Yesterday I kept thinking about something sad about God like yk when you feel disappointed in God sometimes :( so I had just gotten a really bad thought of God turning into a demon …. And it felt like like I was thinking it for a sec like intentionally… and I quickly started to panic and feel really bad bc I Love God a lot but I’m afraid I committed the Unforgivable sin aka blasphemy my brain gets to addicted to think about certain things I can’t think about

I started medication and therapy I statted medication approximately two months ago and I m getting worse . I just can t focus on studying I forgot what I did and this didnt happen before my brain didnt stop even in my sleep I just feel exhausted I lost my belief to recover and I dont know what to do I just feel like I shouldnt have statted take medication because It just helo my depression a little but on contrary It makes my anciety much worse and totally I feel much worse I just dont know what to do my life is miserable I feel like no one could help me anymore If you read this could you response me? I just feel like no pne really gets me and my religious ocd hits me very badly

Ukrainians are getting tortured en-masse in Russia… Palestinians are dying every minute… I am far away from their suffering, yet I am crushed psychologically by the scenery. Working as a journalist, I’ve seen the images, videos… What is the point of living in this nightmare world? I see no good in people, all I see are parasites… It is as if someone drained away all my happiness… If there is a God I hope he is ashamed.

I get the constant wave of sadness that ocd has taken my life from me. I can't share my thoughts and they don't feel like mine. I have episodes where I think God must hate me or see some secret sin in me that I don't see, or else I really really am missing when the holy spirit is saying to me. I want to be free so so deeply and have a normal, independent and fruitful life but God is not answering me. Why do I have these thoughts? Are they spiritual or just my mind? If anyone with Religious ocd can help or share how they navigate a true relationship with Christ while having ocd, I would really appreciate it. For context, I've had dozens of people pray over me and I've literally screamed like a child for God to give the answer, I had faith-based ocd even before i understood the gospel or personally knew Jesus. I want to live with eternity in mind and be free from these things so so much. Thank you!

Nearly a week since I stopped in the middle of a compulsion and I still feel stressed and tempted to finish it. My throat, ears, head, chest, legs,arms, my body has been hurting since then. And if I finish it will it stop? But what's stopping me is.. I've been trying to trust God to handle it. Idk what to do rn, Ive been trying to set up a schedule for this week but it ended up not working out so I will try again next week, and School work I'm years behind (I'm in yr 10), I don't rlly have any friends either to help me. But anyways I try not to think about school that much since I have alot more to think about. And I don't even have any talent or anything I want to be I just want to be a good person but I'm horrible I just need to do focus on stuff Like getting closer to God. looking after myself. The OCD thoughts which. I can't do any of these tho because the OCD makes me so stressed I just want to hit the OCD in the face but I can't obviously so I do it to myself, And they make me want to do more to myself but I don't because ✝️ And I don't want to. Anyways I can't even do the basic things to look after yourself, and The OCD thoughts keep saying about death all the time, and illness. I don't like hearing it in my head all the time I can't do anything properly. And Those thoughts are active when I try read the Bible. Even when I used an audio bible. And a app where u read 1 verse at a time it's still hard. But basically what do I do My throat keeps feeling weird like burning without the feeling hot ughhshsheh I don't want to go back into that life when I was 12-13 where I was worrying about my health and checking with doctor all the time

I need help everyone. My thoughts have been getting worse… I haven’t used my ERP because it feels too scary and too real and so I am caught in this spiral of doing compulsions with every other thought that I have. I have thoughts about that bad guy that are so horrible and then I think that the bad guy is talking to me so I do compulsions and desperately want GOD to believe me when I say I don’t mean the thoughts, but then it creates doubt about whether or not I actually do mean the thoughts. And now I am afraid of my own thoughts This makes me want to fix ALL of the thoughts and feelings that I have to prove even more to myself and to GOD that I don’t mean these thoughts. On top of all of this, I am trying to convince myself that it’s OCD and not me at all. Does anyone have this and can anyone help? I am so tired and scared and burnt out…

Was I a bad person before this life and is God punishing me. Sometimes I think I have a reverse punishment. Like God knew I'd be a horrible adult so that's why I was abused as a kid. I wasn't horribly abused but I didn't really realize I was until my psychiatrist told me I was. I hate myself

I am a christian guy who grew up in a christian community and family. For as long as i remember, ive had horrible thoughts about all kinds of things that i dont know where to begin. Due to my extreme thoughts, i feel as if i am unworthy of practicing my religioin, such as praying, reading, meditating, etc. I feel ashamed when i go to church, as if i dont belong there because i feel like i am secretely evil, and that God knows i am evil and i am committing blasphemy by going there, and refusing to "repent", from my thoughts. But then again, my thoughts are just thoughts, sure. So whats the problem? - The problem is that in my faith, i have been taught that we must control our thoughts, so they do not get power over us to make us commit sin. Such as "If you think lustfully about a woman, you have already committed adultery with her in your heart". This verse has killed my self esteem, due to the constant unwanted sexual and disturbing thoughts. It makes me feel like a monster, who secretely just wants to abuse and be horrible to people, even though i know very well i do not want this. Sometimes i think horrible things about the people i love very much, such as my girlfriend. It feels so wrong and evil, even though i know it isnt my true will.

I’ve been worried that I will go to hell and have lost a lot of my interests, personality and even music I like . I don’t know who I am anymore

Today I was trying to figure out something at work, and some people were watching and I was taking longer than expected. I said to myself, “why am I so stupid” and I felt like I was angry and I felt like I was angry at God. I’m worried because I felt like I cursed God in my heart. I’m worried because who am I to be mad at God. I want to have reverence, and I just don’t know what to do. It feels like my heart is hard.

I suffer from religious ocd. My only goal in life is to live in God's will and to serve Him - to live and enjoy His eternal purposes & His presence. Jesus Christ is my life. That is my only desire on this earth, this short trip into eternity, and it's being stripped by ocd thoughts and intrusive thoughts 24-7. I have read many times that ocd can 'feel real', and this is true, our minds lie to us because of fear and anxiety we can't and were never meant to carry. I have begged and tormented myself in every way to find an answer from God. I think His answer may be that this is OCD, but I'm not sure. I started therapy again because I am so exhausted and this had stolen so much of my life in a spiral of negativity, depression, and constant anxiety & intrusive thoughts. I have spent about 2 years trying to figure out if my thoughts are real or not, especially with ocd it can deceive so easily as a spiritual matter when in reality it is just a thought, which is confusing and scary to say the least. Can anyone share their experiences with this sensation? No matter what the theme is... Thank you & Praying for your comfort