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Hi there- so 2025 was not fun for me. I spent the entire year feeling like I was fighting for my life everyday. It was one thing after another. I looked back on my photos from 2025 on New Year’s Eve and noticed this was the year I took the least amount of photos and in nearly every photo- I wasn’t genuinely happy. I was unhappy but still functioning from January- September but I felt absolutely tortured by my OCD from October- now. It is getting a little better. I’ve had some good days, whereas October- December was pretty much all bad days. It was so extreme and I was fighting myself so hard that I was unable to eat, I had a constant lump in my throat and when I did try to eat I would just gag so I wouldn’t eat, I lost a lot of weight, I had bad tummy troubles nearly everyday- the crippling anxiety it gave me was beyond anything I’ve ever experienced. I had to quit my job in October because I would have a panic attack whenever I would go to work, I would be dry heaving in the bathroom and have to leave work early or I just wouldn’t be able to go in. I am starting a new job on Monday. I was on the upswing during the holidays and actually starting to eat again and I am now too still which is good. But this week I think the idea of going back to work and starting another big change and transition will trigger it again and I just can’t do that again. This week I’ve felt very low and been crying a lot and in my head about anything and everything on my mind. I just want to get better and to be truly happy, I know not everyday will be sunshine and rainbows but I’d like most of my days to feel neutral and feel content not in constant panic. I am on 3 different anxiety meds which I think has helped some but not entirely. But it feels excessive. I have started therapy on a different app but she isn’t an expert on OCD so I am hoping to find someone on here eventually. Has anyone else gone through such a rough patch with OCD that it has made you physically ill and lasted a ridiculous amount of time? It was hard because I know my values and things that are important to me but my brain attacks those things and I’ve been very distressed, and the fact it has lasted as long as it has made me question- what if it isn’t actually OCD? What if something is wrong? What if people don’t take me seriously and think I’m lying? Etc. I just really want support and want to know I’m not alone and not going crazy and that things will get better. 🫩

is being terrified to eat bc of pain after/the sensation of being full and the compulsion of not eating potentially just somatic ocd? my doctor thought/thinks i have a stomach ulcer and she gave me meds for it? the meds made it hurt worse at first but i started to feel better when the meds were almost gone... and then the meds were gone and it felt normal bad again... i told her and she gave me the meds but for longer this time and i did not take them in full because i couldnt get over the increase of pain it causes in the start. all this to say, my doctor thinks its medical which is fine, it may be, as i do often feel pain after eating, and im not sure how normal that is... however, i think there is an equal part of it that is mental whether that be ocd and/or anorexia... maybe it wouldn't feel so bad to eat if i ate more often but im terrified to because it hurts and i dont want it to, id rather avoid it.

For the past 3 years of my life I’ve been having phases of me obsessing over my breathing. At first I thought I had a lung problem or some type of health issue, I always knew I had OCD but I didn’t know it could spread to my physical body instead of my brain. I would feel short of breath, almost like I can’t get a good amount of air in. I’d constantly think about my breathing night and day all the time. I’ve done every test, I’ve always been told I’m fine which feels worse when you’re drowning. I’d take prednisone and think it was fixing my breathing and it would go away then I’d find something else to obsess over and basically my brain would get tired of my obsession and it would come back to obsessing over my breathing again. I’m starting to realize it’s my OCD. I’m on Medicare and it’s hard to find a therapist who specializes in OCD. Does anyone feel like this? And what can I do to fix it? I want to live again and not just survive. ❤️

Losing more sleep currently. I'm hoping I can still see my therapist today and just tell them all about this. I'm a little sick, and my throat will not stop getting dry. I've tried eating, lots and lots of water, and I've currently been drinking milk. It helped one day but not so much now. I want this to end. I want my life back. I want to be able to sleep again. I want my life back prior to OCD man. I can't deal with this anymore.

After a long time of keeping my life moving on and never processing anything from my childhood/ many other traumatic instances from my life, I decided to start NOCD. I have been out of work due to nearly constant anxiety and panic attacks that have prevented me from working, also because of one of my recent traumas involves my career/ workplaces. I have suffered from agoraphobia for a long time, which got worse in 2020, and then again after I experienced a long time stalking situation, as well as emetephobia which I’ve had for my entire life. I have been on an anxiety medication for years but after starting NOCD, a lot more things have made sense to me and I am realizing my meds have never been treating my OCD, just my anxiety symptoms that were most noticeable to the people around me. After basically screaming for help in front of family, friends, and even coworkers on several occasions, I had once again pushed away more symptoms/ trauma. With that all being said I am having a lot of issues with my wife because of all of this. She tells me often that it isn’t my fault, and yes I believe her, but my guilt consumes me. She has been supporting us and our animals, as well as several medical and financial stresses that are not necessarily CAUSED by me, but I am not able to do anything at the moment because of how hard it is to simply get things done every day. My meds have been making me physically ill pretty much since I started them, and I am not able to just quit taking them due to them having pretty severe withdraw effects, hence why I am becoming physically ill nearly every day. This morning for example, after not being able to sleep all night, I finally drifted off to sleep around 9:30AM. I woke up suddenly at 11:30am, to which I was extremely nauseous, shaky, and dizzy, all even though I had just woken up and was still laying in bed. So ya I am having a rough time, guess I’d just like to vent bc my wife has suggested maybe I try posting on this group so I thought it’d be worth a try.

Hi everyone, I'm new to NOCD, not exactly knowing if I actually have OCD. When I was younger, I had poor dental hygiene from the moment I grew baby teeth up until I was around 18 years old. I was never encouraged to have good hygiene because I wasn't taught the consequences of not doing so. I would skip brushing a lot, never brush in the morning, and never floss. I even had gingivitis for a little bit. My family has Medicaid, and we practically live in the middle of nowhere, so getting proper care/treatment and medical advice is close to impossible. Every time I go to the dentist, I have a different doctor, and I never know if they're going to hurt me or not. Although I'm very ashamed to admit this, I probably have over 20 fillings, but I lost count. Unfortunately, I think I still have more that need to be filled, but I don't even want to know. I have a cleaning and X-ray scheduled in March. I see many teeny tiny black dots. I just recently started to take my oral health seriously after I went to get a filling. I had many fillings as a kid that it felt normal, but this time I felt the sensitivity as the dentist was drilling. I've never had that happen, but for the last two fillings I've had, it did (I'm guessing it's due to the lack of numbing because I've never had that problem before, and this is the only time I've had the same doctor twice). So, now I'm terrified of the dentist, and I grip the chair as hard as I can whenever they work on my teeth. That's when my obsession started. Actually, it started when I got my yearly physical and bloodwork. I was informed that I had borderline high cholesterol as an 18-year-old. Then, I began looking up what would happen if I lived with high cholesterol. Then what causes it, my chances of having heart attacks, etc. I started to Google random symptoms in fear and often looked on Reddit as a form of reassurance. My borderline high cholesterol, combined with my fear of my teeth rotting, has been torture these last few months. I'm scared that my teeth are too damaged that the future of them won't be great. I am terrified that I'm going to need a root canal, crown, or even dentures. With my cholesterol, I'm so scared that I'm going to have a heart attack. I feel like, because I think about it so much, my brain has actually started to create those symptoms. I felt my chest tightening, and I felt pain when I breathed. Every single time without fail, I would look it up online to reassure myself. And, every single time, it's made me feel worse because I'd find some bit of information that tells me "Yes, you're dying," or "Yes, it's too late to save your teeth." I even started to look up to see if my brain can create fake symptoms-- found out that it can be the case. It's not only the anxiety and my thoughts that have been plagued, though. I can feel it affecting my diet. I've lost 10 lbs since my doctor's appt in early September. Every time I want to eat something that has even a tiny sugar content, I believe that if I eat it, it'll only fuel my current cavities and I'll have to get a root canal someday. I often decline a lot of food because I'm scared of its fat content for cholesterol, or sugar content for cholesterol and my teeth. Now, when I wake up, all I can think about is the bacteria that are in my mouth, which are probably fueling my cavities and increasing my risk of losing every single one of my teeth. It sounds exhausting, and that's exactly what it is. I want it to stop. My therapist is currently on holiday, and I haven't seen her since before this obsession got super bad. Not sure what to do. Again, I just want it to stop. I miss my life before I had anxiety, and now possibly OCD. I'm glad I found a safe space for this, and I know I am not alone :) Thank you for reading if you made it this far <3

Hello all, I’m 38 and was just diagnosed with OCD and Body Dysmorphia Disorder. I already knew I had anxiety, depression and PTSD but the OCD surprised me and although I kinda knew I have BDD, officially getting diagnosed has upset me. I’m feeling pretty down about the BDD and OCD, because I’m starting to realize how sever these disorders are and I’m feeling really down today. Any support would be appreciated. I body check and think about my body throughout each day. For OCD, I do a lot of checking, magical thinking, researching and I doubt myself so much. I didn’t see any support groups for BDD and OCD but if anyone knows of any books or other resources, I’d love any recommendations.

I always recommend seeking professional help because it’s safer and way more effective to do it with a professional since they know EXACTLY what to do. But if you can’t see a professional right now and you have no idea when you’ll be able to seek help from an OCD therapist due to money or where you live, here’s an extensive list of tools and resources to help you get better and/or stay recovered. -Look into OCD and Anxiety’s YouTube channel, aka Nathan Peterson! He also has an online OCD course you can do for a fee, -Download either the Calm app or Insight Timer app for guided meditations, -Read ALL the books by Lee Baer and Martin Seif on OCD and anxiety, -Look into Therapy in a Nutshell’s YouTube channel, -Start doing yoga! Because exercise is good for you. I suggest the YouTube channel Yoga with Adriene, -Start watching Thich Nhat Hanh’s guided meditations and talks on mindfulness. Also, buy his books on meditation and mindfulness, -Look into OCD International’s website if you’re international (or is the US but having issues finding help outside of NOCD) for help, -If you struggle with trauma/PTSD, I highly suggest Tim Fletcher on YouTube, -If you are looking for inpatient treatment for extreme OCD, look up Rogers Behavioral center’s website. You can even reach out to them for help, -What is OCD? Explained by Nathan Peterson: https://youtu.be/eeTFME9mOMc?feature=shared -What’s Pure O OCD? https://www.verywellmind.com/pure-o-primarily-obsessional-ocd-4159144 -Stopping Rumination’s Tough! Video by Nathan Peterson: https://youtu.be/CkcspsmLh9k?feature=shared -What is an OCD backdoor spike? https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/info/ocd-stats-and-science/backdoor-spikes-how-to-deal-with-sudden-ocd-episodes -5 Things To Do Other Than Compulsions: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/five-things-to-do-instead-of-compulsions -How To Stop Rumination Video: https://youtu.be/CkcspsmLh9k?feature=shared -Confessing compulsion vs. healthy sharing: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/ocd-compulsive-confession-vs-healthy-sharing -Somatic OCD & How To Treat It? https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-is-somatic-ocd -Intrusive Thoughts: Images, Sensations, and Stories by Dr. Martin Seif: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/living-with-a-sticky-mind/202305/unwanted-intrusive-thoughts-images-sensations-and-stories -Therapy in a Nutshell’s Playlist on Panic Attacks: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLiUrrIiqidTWhubkHEJcr6iTLVRxXZmPE&feature=shared -ERP scripting: https://www.shalanicely.com/aha-moments/erp-scripting-for-ocd/ -What is Rumination? https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/the-rumination-trap -Forgiveness for Past Mistakes Video: https://youtu.be/2Lq1Su3mEHw?feature=shared -The Hidden Power of Swearing at Your OCD: https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/beyond-the-doubt/201711/the-hidden-power-of-swearing-at-your-ocd -Taking The Power Away From OCD: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/taking-the-power-away-from-intrusive-thoughts -Worry Script: https://www.anxietycanada.com/sites/default/files/WorryScript.pdf -What is ERP therapy: https://iocdf.org/about-ocd/ocd-treatment/erp/ -What’s An OCD Trigger? https://psychcentral.com/ocd/what-is-an-ocd-trigger -Differences Between OCD & GAD: https://ocdla.com/ocd-vs-gad-7071 -The Psychology of Seeking Reassurance: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/reassurance-seeking-ocd-anxiety-how-to-stop-cycle -Grounding Techniques: https://www.therapistaid.com/worksheets/grounding-techniques -OCD vs. Phobia Differences: https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/info/related-symptoms-conditions/ocd-vs-phobia-how-to-tell-the-difference -ERP Techniques for Reassurance video: https://youtu.be/D1O3RGnLjRM?feature=shared

Schizophrenia OCD. Has anyone ever had this fear, if so can you tell me how bad it got for you? I’ve been doing better these last few weeks. I stoped googling symptoms, stop my mental compulsions, how ever my mind is so worked up, i notice every little sound around me, i stopped checking to make sure what i hear is real (which is extremely hard and peaks my anxiety) also started obsessing over my eyes and what i see, noticing every little moment rather is leaves falling, lights flashing, eye floaters, EVERYTHING! Shit is so difficult at times but I keep pushing! I just want to know if anyone can relate to this.

This is my first time ever making a post or even talking about this in general, but I just want to vent i guess. For years ive been dealing with gerd/acid reflux, it has me constantly burping all day everyday and causes severe stomach pain at some points when it comes to my meal timings. Recently though, it’s like I can feel its effects more intensely. It’s been causing pressure in my chest, a racing heart, and other odd sensations within my body that Ive never had or noticed before. Earlier this year I literally had to call paramedics after a gerd flare up caused some weird pain in my chest. Of course my habit of searching up every little symptom ended up sending me into one of the most intense panic attacks I’ve ever had :( I genuinely thought I was having a heart attack and I made the call. Even after getting the all clear, my brain wouldn’t stop spiraling and I had my father contact many of his cardiologist friends and even got a second ekg because I was convinced something was wrong with my heart. There is nothing wrong with it, it’s just gerd! And nowadays, even though I KNOW that the odd sensations and feelings of discomfort that I feel are very likely caused by gerd, I can’t help but feel like something else and more serious is going on, and I enter this rabbit hole of looking up new conditions and diseases that I manage to convince myself that I have that I most definitely do not have. I zero in on normal bodily functions like breathing, heartbeat, the sensation of swallowing, etc and the more I focus on them the weirder it feels so I start to panic and am forced to do breathing exercises to calm myself down quite often. It has been so stressful to my mental health this past semester and the anxiety messes with my sleep! At times I find myself unable to sleep due to my body jolting awake as I fall asleep and feeling a sudden rush of adrenaline. Of course I searched this up too (I’ve really been trying to stop searching up symptoms, but I can’t help it sometimes) and found that my nervous system being stimulated due to my anxiety contributes to these jolts! So im essentially stuck in this loop of feeling slightly unwell, getting anxious about it, trying to figure out what’s wrong which then makes me more anxious, and then ruining my sleep which results in me feeling even more unwell. I’m so tired of this, I just want to be calm and worry free :( I will note that I have been seeing doctors and am working towards seeing a proper gastroenterologist! I just wanted to let out my frustrations about how I currently feel and see if maybe someone is going through something similar. Now im just rambling at this point but I also got all 4 of my wisdom teeth out last week. If you’ve ever had a tooth extracted, chances are you know about the risk of dry socket. This week has been so bad with me being paranoid about getting it, even while I’m already past the risk window! I keep checking my extraction sites and every little spike of pain causes me to worry. I’ve limited my diet to liquids and mush, and as a foodie it’s been so difficult to deal with. Im so hungry all the time now and I just can’t wait to be fully healed

Hi everyone! I’m new to NOCD and OCD as a whole. I started therapy with NOCD this week. As of 3 weeks ago, I learned that most of what I’ve been struggling with the last year (possibly longer to a lesser degree) has been OCD. I have a question about how you all experience OCD and if there can even be varying experiences. Since February, I’ve been experiencing what I’ve called “episodes.” (I learned recently that OCD actually has another term for it, called flare-ups.) Basically, I’ve been having these episodes of intense physical sensations, extreme looping thoughts, and just feeling/thinking things that I normally do not. My episodes have been based on one or more themes (sensorimotor, health/mental health, harm, to name a few.) They’ve been so severe that I can’t work when I’m in them. They’ve lasted from a week to about a month or two. My last one was 3 weeks ago and that’s what made me join NOCD. Since learning that what I’ve been experiencing is OCD, I actually have felt a lot of relief just knowing there’s a name for it. I haven’t had an episode since learning about it. I know it’s still only been 3 weeks since my last one, but feeling this type of relief has me a bit leery. Maybe I am not that educated in it yet, but is it normal for OCD to come and go or is it something you experience 24/7? What do you work on with your therapists when you’re not actively in an episode?

my ocd keeps convincing me that i have bpdr instead of it just being me going through normal human motions and experiences or traits of autisum to where it genuinely feels like i am confused on my identity or my core self even though i don’t think i ever have been in life but i just feel like it all of a sudden with my ocd latching onto these different bpdr symptoms and associating them with things like my habits in being super hyperaware of my body and different sensations and this weird dissociating thing i do with my eyes where i view myself in thrid person to and feel like i can see myself being a certain way or putting on a new “personality" or persona in different sitiations or with the relationships in my life and feel like i can do it even when just by myself where i’ve just been getting more confused and scared as the days have gone by but im always myself in said scenarios

We know OCD GETS WEIRD! Be okay with people noticing you looking at them because of what’s going on in your head. Or a sensation in your body which you believe doesn’t belong. View them all the same; it’s a symptom! Don’t prove it wrong by reminding yourself in your head. Tell it it’s wrong by going on about your day day by day as if nothing is happening.. ☮️❤️

Hey so I don’t actually have ocd but I’m trying to understand my girlfriend better to be there for her in actual helpful ways, and I think she might have ocd and talking with her she thinks she might to. She is a huge perfectionist and definitely a germaphobe, as well as some sensory issues. She also has some things that seem like compulsions, she’ll feel like she needs to squeeze her fingers and hands, sometimes picking at them even if there’s not like dry skin or anything to pick at, and sometimes she’ll even feel like she needs to like rub them across something spiky or just a very specific surface but its not always the same. She also feels the need to have her whole body squeezed when she’s really stressed, almost like she wishes she was in a hydrolic press, so really really tight hugs or things like that help but I think that might just be a different thing and not ocd. She also has a weird feeling that makes her not want to kiss(as well as intimacy) and she struggles explaining what it is like. She really didnt want to kiss me for a while but she thought that it was just because of past experiences that were bad but then we finally kissed and she said she felt almost panic but different. I really care about her but this block making it so she cant kiss has recently made some bumps in our relationship. I would like to kiss her but I would rather have her happy so it’s fine, but I know that it affects her not knowing what is wrong and its made some doubts in the relationship. We’ve been able to talk it out and Im being really patient with her, but I want to fully understand her so that I can actually help her Does this sound like ocd? And what can I do to help?

This is so humilating and vulnerable but I will sometimes see a photo of a women and get aroused it goes to my bean lmao. When I’m with my boyfriend I feel more of a heartbeat where he enters and a strong desire like I need it. Are they both true? It bothers me I feel like I’m so weird. I hate it I can accept me being attracted to women but I don’t desire to do anything with them. I feel I fucked up my brain receptors bc I used to watch 🌽 and it started at the age of 8 and barely ended at the age of 18💔💔 I was confused I didn’t know I wish I never touched it. I feel idk what true arousal feels like. The thing that confuses me is the feeling I get when I see women is the same feeling when I have a dream. I don’t like it. With my boyfriend it’s a need a desire. With women I feel grossed out that I even feel like that. Idk why it’s like this I feel that watching from such a young age really messed me up and I focus so much on feeling arousal w my bf i feel I don’t let myself actually get to there. When I’m in the act it feels good and I enjoy it a lot . I just hate that this happens to me I want to be normal I want to get turned on by just kissing him but I can’t I. Only get rly aroused when we are doing something we shouldn’t be like doing stuff in public. I fear I feel this way abt women bc ik it’s wrong and I feel that way about a lot of things like a lot I don’t like it. I can get turned on by making my sims woohoo but I can’t when my bf kisses my thighs im so sad I want to normal I fucked myself up so bad. Does anyone else relate? This is so embarrassing omg I js need to know if anyone is similar bc this is my main trigger my main issue and it tortures me. Ik im not romantically attracted to women but the sexual part rly bothers me I SONT WANT THAT😭💔💔 pls don’t tell me im gay I’ll cry. Also can focusing on arousal be a part of somatic ocd? I’m wondering bc ik it focuses on what the body feels. Idk I just need to know what’s wrong w me seriously

Im 37 and recently divorced. The relationship was abusive and Ive been diagnosed PTSD. I have 3 kids that rely amd depend on me. I work full time. Ive experienced a ton of change and stress in a very short amount of time. I get obsessed about "a new life or career path" and it last all of 2 weeks. Then ill get another "bright idea", all of which I rarely follow through. My last one was going the military reserves for the benefits. I didnt enlist, but I was coming close. Now I know thats not the best idea. Joining is honorable but I shouldn't with my mental illness. Tried 15 years ago and got sent home on an unclassified discharge due to medical reasons. Anyways, Ive been picking. So bad that it's bloody scabs. Im trying to quit. I know its gross. My brain sees it as a reward system and a de-stressor. I need therapy but I lost insurance after the divorce. What can I do? How can I get better?

I recently found out that I have OCD and it was honestly an enormous relief. I spent nearly ten years having been diagnosed with generalized anxiety and depression, receiving incorrect treatments and trying to apply coping mechanisms that were actually making things worse for me. You may think that this would make me angry to think I could have been on the path to recovery sooner and wasn’t, but I’m honestly just thankful to finally know. When I read NOCD’s list of subtypes, my jaw was on the FLOOR because it felt like half of the article was written about me. The only time in the last decade I felt I found something effective was an audiobook I found on my own about intrusive thoughts which used a technique very similar to ERP. Go figure. Anyway, I had a couple of questions that may be cathartic or help others be reflective. First, who else was misdiagnosed? How long? What was your treatment experience like and what was your reaction when you learned the truth? Share as much or as little as would be helpful to you. Second, were there ancient signs you suddenly started remembering that now make way more sense? For me, it was sensorimotor and existential OCD. In high school, I had an extended phase where I couldn’t stop paying attention to how much I blinked and also had a phase where I could not stop questioning reality and your classic existential questions. I also had a period in college when my eye floaters drove me absolutely nuts every day. Anyway, hope you’ve come across this feeling well and I’d be happy to hear from you.

I’ve had OCD since childhood, and it’s shifted through a lot of different themes over the years. My earliest signs were contamination fears, fear of choking, appearance fears, and a general sense that something “bad” would happen if I didn’t do certain things the right way. Over time it evolved into health OCD, especially around skin, medications, and fears of weight gain or that something will harm me or make my symptoms worse. One of my biggest struggles is needing actions to feel “right.” If I click a button wrong, move the wrong way, or something doesn’t register properly, I feel a rush of anxiety and have to redo it over and over until it feels correct. Phones, apps, even games become stressful because one tiny “off” sensation can trigger a whole loop. I repeat words, song lyrics, little phrases, or facial movements until they feel right too, especially while showering, brushing my hair, doing makeup, or winding down at night. Before bed I have to repeat certain thoughts or phrases or I feel too anxious to lie down. I also over-focus on breathing, sweating, and small bodily sensations when I’m trying to do something, which makes the task feel harder. Socially, I freeze up because I feel like everything I say has to be perfectly phrased. I rehearse sentences in my head before speaking, which makes conversations feel exhausting. Sensory overwhelm is a huge part of my OCD. Sudden sounds, textures, or physical sensations instantly throw me off, make me tense up, or make me feel like whatever I was doing is “ruined.” Stepping on small objects, touching my hair wrong, or trying to get ready can push me into irritability or compulsions. When the sensory overload and OCD hit at the same time, it becomes almost impossible to do basic tasks like getting ready, focusing, or even moving around without feeling “wrong.” Stress, overstimulation, and OCD compulsions sometimes build up to emotional overload. I’ve had episodes where the “wrongness” sensation pushes me into panic, intense irritation, or crying spells — especially if I bump into something, step on something, or get interrupted during a compulsive moment. I’ve been working on it and these episodes are less frequent, but they still happen. I also deal with obsessive fears about contamination of food or products, and paranoia-like doubts that people might be upset with me or that something bad will happen if I don’t say or do certain things “right.” This leads to reassurance-seeking and compulsive apologizing. Right now, for example, I’m anxious because I keep slightly dropping my phone or holding it “wrong,” and it makes me feel like I have to redo things or avoid using it altogether. Overall, my OCD affects daily functioning — routines, focus, hygiene, eating, social interactions, and anything that requires fine motor movements or sensory tolerance. It’s exhausting, but I’m trying to get a clearer picture of it and connect with others who relate. (I might be autistic as well :))

So idk if it’s normal somedays im feeling the holiday spirit and some days i don’t I’ll keep it short and simple. I’ve been doing very well and i have my days where im worried about my low bp. Plus im taking bp meds apparently to calm the palpitations. So it’s probably the main reason why i feel it down but i feel discouraged that the bp is not getting better. That’s why i cant break the cycle of not checking sometimes case i want to make sure its not too low. Sometimes I just dont care and dont check at all and just have those days of laying in my bed. I think we all have those days. But I see progress i see healing i see life coming back to me. Ever since I was diagnosed with OCD it’s hard for me to somewhat get into the holiday spirit but I want to feel that feeling again so I’m looking forward to healing and seeing the positive side of me again 💜

I've been googling a lot lately, and realize I might have OCD. I've never been diagnosed with it, but I really think I have it. I was informed from here, that picking my skin can be a form of OCD. I often pick my lips, my fingers, my acne, and my scabs whenever I'm anxious or nervous. I know it's a mental problem, but it's getting to a point that I just can't take it anymore. I'm even picking at my scalp now, and always get nasty sores on it. My fingers and lips I still pick. But it isn't as bad as picking my acne, and scalp now. Does any one have any advice on what I can do to prevent it, or stop all together? It's so annoying at times. Medication doesn't work, and I can't afford to see a therapist right now. Thank you in advance.