Real event ocd with pocd is hell it really makes me think I’m a monster maybe I even was years ago…. Sucks u can’t talk about it openly

We can only hope we changed i guess and won’t do stuff like that in the future? Idk

@Nonamehelp If you want, read my post from a few hours ago if you can find it. I’m dealing with both pocd and real event and it’s terrifying. You are not alone and I hope we can all feel better soon

@Just Breathe ❤️ I saw it and I think u did nothing wrong it was an impulse did u do it years ago or recently?

@Nonamehelp It was years ago I believe. I had a stupid tickling fetish as a teenager and when I tickled my niece I just kept doing and I know it’s a normal thing and people do it all the time and yeah there’s probably nothing wrong with that but what if I was aroused or I violated her in some way because she kept telling me to stop. I feel so guilty ya know? I just don’t understand why did my life ever come to this. I love my little niece and would NEVER harm her. I don’t think I felt anything maybe my ocd is just trying to convince me I did but it was the fact I had a fetish growing up and I used to do that without any thought about it. It had nothing to do with her at all if I was aroused just by the fetish itself but like I said I don’t think I was I think my ocd is just trying to make me think I was because it was something that I was into at one point. I know it’s a normal thing and everyone does it at one point or another. I don’t know what’s wrong with me anymore. Could be pocd playing against me? Idk

@Nonamehelp I just don’t know what else to do. I feel like I’m going crazy

@Just Breathe ❤️ You’re better you changed u have to let go people are much worse in this world you were a kid yourself please do not listen to that voice in your brain!

@Nonamehelp I wasn’t a kid though I don’t think. Do you think I did anything wrong?

@Just Breathe ❤️ No you didn’t since ure here and talk about It you making an effort to be better but reassurance isn’t good keep saying “I have to live with the uncertainty” “ accept the worst case scenario” and try to let go and say when these thoughts pop “oh my ocd is talking haha” don’t try to argue with your ocd

@Nonamehelp That’s true. I guess it doesn’t matter what anyone tells me it’s always going to be there bothering me unless I accept the uncertainty which is so hard with this theme. I will try my best. Thank you for your help and I hope you feel better too soon!

@Just Breathe ❤️ Same to you keep me updated we can do this! We are not our past

@Nonamehelp Will do!

Especially if you have a past of not feeling guilt about thoughts (even though the reason I didn't feel guilt was bc I figured, hey, you have no desire to act on them).

@ViVampire🧛🏻‍♀️ That happened to me if u can read my other posts today. I had no remorse as a teenager and child and did some stuff which I would never do now, I acted on them without a conscious but now I have a lot and regret it, don’t worry u never did anything DONT make yourself feel bad for nothing that even happened, and thoughts are just thoughts.

@Nonamehelp Thank you so much but I'd like you to show some sources just so I can make sure I'm getting legit information aha. I'm in Australia so I can't talk to the therapists here :(

@ViVampire🧛🏻‍♀️ Oh wdym which sources? Ure saying u want to talk to a therapist?

@Nonamehelp Ideally I'd see a therapist but I'm too scared and there isn't one in Aus anyway, I just want to make sure I have good and correct information :)

@ViVampire🧛🏻‍♀️ I hope u find one I wanna go to one soon too in Germany (: