i cant stop lookin up am i bi videos and i am so stressed that i feel sick. i feel like what if i have been my whole life and just didnt realize. it all feels too real that i think it probably is.

That's reassuring though, no good 😄 I know its for a good reason, but it's not helping in the long run. This is a game people, and we need to know the rules of it. One of the rules is to not reassure, since its just postponing the issue. On the contrary, embrace uncertainty and accept you may be bisexual...or maybe not. At the beginning it's hard to accept that, but after a while your brain will stop ruminating on this because you have accepted / solved the dilemma . Do erp with a therapist, plan your step wisely and work on how you respond to triggers. Pay attention on what you say to your brain when you're triggered. Always accept uncertainty. That's the only way out A