- Username
- PinkLotus
- Date posted
- 851d ago
- Sexual Orientation OCD
Lately I’m just aroused by everything and anything and then false urges and feelings come in and they’re so hard to deal with when I’m trying to be actually aroused by my partner. I just want to help him lately, I just want to show him how much he means to me and how grateful I am for all that he does and that he’s wanted and desired. It feels like I want to watch porn again and I know there’s nothing wrong with that but I’m very proud of the fact that my sole fantasy is my partner and I feel like I’m in denial of that if I watch it and if I find anything arousing it makes it worse. What’s stupid is even just typing arousing makes me think of a hundred different things. I know it’s normal and our body react to anything sexual, but I just want it to be towards my partner. I’m so tired and I miss him so much, I wish he was here again. I wish I was better, I hope one day…