My partner and I have been kind of exploring the intimate side of us lately and it’s good, we talk about what we like and what we want to try. I feel like I’m finally letting myself be sexual again without going nuts. But what’s scary is that’s there’s things I like that I never really thought of before that I want to try with my boyfriend and I’m worried that with time the more I explore with my boyfriend I’ll realize I want more and that he won’t satisfy me anymore or I’ll realize I was never actually into him but actually into women. I also get scared because I love the fantasies in my head but I pick apart at his appearance when looking at him and it makes me feel guilty. In my fantasies we’re both perfect because I’m not thinking of every little detail, just the general idea of us together but in person I notice and feel like I have to like everything about him from head to toe. I’m just scared… I want to let go and explore with him more but I don’t want to leave him behind