- Username
- milliemoo
- Date posted
- 851d ago
- Sexual Orientation OCD
Yep, kind of like this "aha" moment, lightning bolt to the chest, stomach flip. It feels like something massive has suddenly dawned on you, like you've solved a complex puzzle. It's such an awful feeling because it illicits such a strong anxiety response.
It really does, it’s so hard for it to not feel so incredibly real when this happens
Is it necessary to have anxiety during those? Ive had far too many realisations like that, the first couple ones shocked me, I did have anxiety but nowadays they are so common to me, Id be walking out of my bathroom or driving and id have a set of thoughts and id Realize that im gay, no anxiety either
Hi milliemoo, I’ve had those before, especially during ERP. Sort of like a false memory, tough to distinguish from being real or not. I wonder if it’s like an OCD response to ERP, like a mini-back door spike it gives you in the hopes you might stop doing that ERP and feed it more doubt….or maybe I’m giving the OCD bully too much credit.