Please someone reach out and help me OK this is really bad. I just said something like hot sexy or delicious when women are never any of those things to me before and I kept looking at this woman and I was like no she wasn’t really I like hot sexy delicious guys not girls and girls don’t get like that for me but I don’t like the way I smiled when I suggested otherwise and I have a compulsion to check my bodies responses and I’m scared that when I did there was some amount of discharge. I’m scared I said I must like I don’t like both and I’m scared of the way I smiled saying when women have never been hot sexy or delicious to me I’ve seen rated and X rated shit and I feel strange women are not hot or sexy or delicious to me I’m scared I must be and I don’t wanna embrace that I don’t like the way you’re smiling I don’t like the way I’m focusing on the redness or the sheets or the way boobs stick out has anyone else experienced this? Am I lying to myself is that why making faces like I don’t want I love my guy/Man I’m scared I must and I don’t care if there’s nothing wrong with it I don’t like both sexes I swear! What straight woman says hot sexy or when women are not hot sexy or delicious to me women are never like that so why did that happen and why is there extra activity down there I was looking at the woman’s body and her and her boobs in her stomach I don’t like I said hurt super she’s not sexy I keep saying I can’t breathe you guys please someone help she’s not hot sexy delicious and I’m scared I must be but I’m not in denial and I’m not bisexual

Sexual Orientation OCD

run99

Date posted: 4y

You’re ok. It’s going to be ok. You are allowed to think people are nice looking that’s totally okay

Bookworm91

Date posted: 4y

It doesn’t feel like it. I’m scared and I don’t want it to be OK I keep saying it is I don’t want it to be I don’t want to change

run99

Date posted: 4y

@Bookworm91 I know. I know it’s so intense. I experience it too. You are not alone. Tru and live into your values and ignore the rest. Way easier said than done I know

Bookworm91

Date posted: 4y

@run99 Why does it feel worse to say that I don’t? When it’s true? I keep imagining saying maybe I shouldn’t imagining doing things with them and I don’t want them I’m friend I make faces like my guy parts are but I don’t have guy parts I meant I like guy parts I like guys I don’t want them to be gone but it’s got to be OCD because it can’t be anything else I’m going to try some reading but thank you for talking to me

Bookworm91

Date posted: 4y

I don’t like the way I can’t pretty guys please someone help me I don’t like the way I smile and say hot like but they’re not hot or delicious why would I say that if I’m straight and why would I smile I don’t like looking at women saying that because then those adjectives don’t apply to them When I look at them I don’t feel like that and I said just now don’t like and I called him but they’re not I feel so disgusting like a frog but women are not hotter delicious to me it’s just why would I smile

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