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- 3y
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- 3y
Hi, I understand your doubt... Are you facing this issue with a specialist ?
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- 3y
No I donāt have the resources to find one and its honestly exhausting rn my hocd is a little less than my health ocd but its still present like o heard a radio ad today where this girl was talking about being demi sexual and my friend also said that she is one in the most natural way possible and i felt like i related to her and felt I wasnāt alone and why would i feel that if i am not that like I donāt understand the point of these thoughts when they have no meaning according to ocd but if they do feel so real why do i feel okay with them and like natural with them because if i am getting these thoughts they would mean something right.. and like when people on here tell me i am straight i laugh and donāt believe it but why wouldnāt i like idk what to do amd what to feel why donāt i feel completely straight and i feel that does mean something and i am just trying to deny it
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- 3y
@Brave through Hi I understand what you mean...if you read the post in this app, many people is describing the same cycle of thoughts. That might make you aware how ocd works and how it's tricks are. Secondly, look at the video on YouTube by Nathan peterson about hocd. That should help you a bit. What you need now, is to start a process of recovery and you cannot do it alone. You need a cognitive behavioural therapist that understand your inner fears and schedule a plan to overcome them. Remember your fears are something different from your sexual orientation. Now you're victim of your fears, so let's solve these first. Then when you'll feel fine, you can explore you're sexual identity if you still require. Anyway, find the money to get to a therapist. That's the only way For your initial steps you need a help of someone then you'll maybe able to walk alone Oki š?
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- 3y
@AndreaRolle I understand what youāre saying but just you saying that i can explore later makes me feel weird about it like why canāt i accept or what is this and if i am supposed to know later and change later why not know now like i am finding this very difficult there are times ik that these thoughts are irrational but those are few in comparison to the ones that feel real and normal and then this and rn I canāt seem to get help cause there arenāt any good therapists around me idk what to do??
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- 3y
@Brave through Hi, yeah I knew it was teiggering. It triggers me a log as well! š I answer to that, may be, may be not, and I do something else to do without giving importance to the problem. The point here is not to ruminate š We need to differenciate our ocd from our sexual orientation. These are two completely different things. Give your brain a break, do something different, do sport or engage with friends. About a therapist, you can do very well online too! Use this app for example Or look online ocd treatment Just keep moving otherwise you drawn
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- 3y
@AndreaRolle Do i even believe it ocd anymore do i want to get better what if i come out of it accepting what i feared what then?!? And like with these two years of facing this am i at a point where i have gotten used to it and when i shouldnāt if i am okay with the idea if being in ocd instead of getting help and being anxious and living with that uncertainty that means there could be some truth to my denial otherwise i should be going to therapy rn what do i do?!? Like do i even want to be with guys and do i even feel attracted to them anymore if i do why would i not be okay with someone flirting or question it or fear it? I am sorry for ranting
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- 3y
@AndreaRolle And also thankful nothing makes me feel better but just know that i am not alone is enough :)
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- 20w
First off - Iām sorry, I post here a lot. My thoughts are going to be scattered because I have the adhd/ocd/executive dysfunction wombo combo. Im so embarrassed I am THIS neurodivergent. I swear my brain couldnāt pick one struggle and settle with it. Iām not making these diagnoses quirky personality traits by any means, in fact, in this post im venting about how exhausting and embarassed I am living with a brain like this on the daily. I need to hear someoneās advice please. I love hearing everyoneās advice on posts because itās so useful, and brings me back down to reality. Everyone on here gives advice so tastefully in a way where it doesnāt feed into the self reassurance compulsion, but itās also been thorough and constructive enough where itās reminded me to ground myself in a healthy way. I love seeing others helping others, it soothes me. This community has been so kind, and Iām so happy I found it. I wish I could ask more, but I have so many questions I think itād drive everyone here crazy lol. I am doing erp therapy now, and itās been teaching me so many amazing techniques. Iāve been making progress. However, I sometimes have my moments of vunerablity. Iāve been experiencing this especially now more than ever because I am going through a breakup. He did it through text after nearly 9 months together. Iād do anything for him and love him through anything, and he broke my heart when I least expected it. Iād make his bed for him multiple times, but I havenāt done that for myself in years. Iād sit with him for hours to watch and do anything he likes, but heād never do the same and Iād never do the same for me. Iām also at fault because I was too scared to speak up so I let a lot of disrespect slide. Why did my ocd do that? Why does ocd make me people please even when I donāt want to? Why does OCD make me care so much about things that will never effect me (like wanting validation from a random person on the street and hoping theyāll think Iām pretty enough to look at), but then when it comes to my future or positive wellbeing (like focusing on college/doing well in classes/personal hygiene/health), forces me to not care/neglect myself and those needs? I donāt understand it. Ocd makes me think everythingās a setup or a trap. I can never believe that I am fine right where I want to be. Why am I so hard on myself? Why do I even think this much? I care and feel so deeply but it becomes unhealthy so fast because ocd makes me fixate and I stay there for a while. For some reason I let this breakup define my self worth. I let it topple into the ocd fear that I will never make it in life - that I wonāt be successful, Iāll never get the career I want, the love I want, or the life I want. My OCDās version of ālogicā isnāt even logical. Yes, I understand how the breakup means feelings of low self worth which will then topple into feeling bad about other things. But why has my brain been wired to think this way? Why does it seem so easy for everyone else to function normally with life but not me? Honestly this is the first time in my life where Iām dedicated to focusing on myself and learning more about myself instead of others in my life and itās a very odd and bizarre feeling. Iām excited of course, but Iām also scared. My ocd makes me ruminate like āwhat if I will never make the most of this life Iāve been givenā, āwhat if I truly have no worth and the most I will ever be in other peopleās lives is a background characterā, āwhy do I care if Iām a background character or not? I should feel guilty and ignorant for assuming everyone will automatically like meā, āare people lying to me when they call me pretty, smart or kind?ā, āI need to look and sound perfect in both pictures, videos and in real life. I will never be satisfied for accepting who I am nowā, and a bunch of other annoying questions. But sometimes itās like I just canāt take the reality for what it is but at the same time, but I also acknowledge that I know this is ocd talking. This is so, so difficult. Do I make any sense with what Iām saying? Can anyone help?
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- 19w
when iām not thinking about a compulsion so i do things āregularlyā does that mean itās not OCD? iām just confused is it all in my head? am i just faking it in my head all this time? sorry for posting so much my mind likes to go spiral lol
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- 15w
iām trying to not let the thoughts bother me but itās just so stressful. even me typing that feels like iām lying when i know iām not. iām scared because even my therapist tells me that itās just ocd, but in the back of my mind i slightly donāt believe her, and its making me scared that i AM like those people and im gonna act on something. sometimes in social moments i get a quick thought of me being an outcast because im like those people who are sick in the head and act on that stuff, and it just makes me feel like i truly am gonna eventually act on something. another thing that bothered me is earlier my mom yelled at me for not doing school work (it was well deserved im really slacking on it) and i had like no reaction to her screaming. it had me thinking what if i have no empathy etc etc, and what if i get mad that she yelled at me and i do something involving those thoughts. how do i TRULY know itās ocd? like i try to remind myself and be like ādude, your therapist said itās ocd, she isnāt wrongā but the back of my mind is like āshe is wrong, itās not ocd and she just happened to misdiagnose you. you are gonna act on those thoughts and itās your fateā. please someone respond if you read all of this, im really struggling
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