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I struggle with that too! The best advice I've heard is, if you really were this thing, would it be THAT deep down? Anxiety always has this impending doom attached to it. Especially in pocd, when every other intrusive thought or feeling to ruminate on fails to scare you, it'll make sure you think you'll 'find out' one day. It's like a fear mongering conspiracy theorist, shaking their fist at you for not believing in 5G radiation. It's best not to listen to it.