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I feel for you! I get this.....you are just going along minding your own business and stress or something causes your brain to come up with something out of the blue! I had that a couple of years ago.....I had recently moved, lost my Mum and gone through a divorce. Then when I was settled I got a thought out of the blue....what if this had happened years ago.....it took me a long time to get over that thought but now 2 years on I have itnin a different form......My current obsession is worrying what people thought of my intrusuve thought I had 2 years ago! And THAT had never occured to me until they fell out with me over Covid! It is a very cruel disorder
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Yess exactly it’s so cruel i keep thinking i hurt someone but I don’t understand how it would just pop up
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@t03 It is the nature of the cruel disorder. I always have thoughts that what if I touched someone inappropriately...then the thoughts escalate and get bigger and I get more entrenched then come to the conclusion that I am such a horrible person. My obsession is about telling some old people my jntrusive thought I had about their grandaughter when i shared a bed with her whilst I was on holiday. She was like a daughter to me but this thought came out of nowhere! I was so worried in case in my sleep I had put my leg on her and then what if my front bit touched her! It is quite funny writing it down and they even said to me ar the time that they worried like that when they looked after a friends little girl...they understood about my disorder and read up about it and even called me saying they never realised how much I had been suffering....I was so grateful for them for reading up about it as no one had ever done that BUT now they have fallen out with me over Covid I have this obsession that their help and support at the time wasnt genuine! I have had all sorts of thoughts and think they think I am an awful person but it is just so irrational.....they were the only people at the time to come round all the time and get me out of the house. I know i need to let this go and move on but OCD will find a way in no matter what. I am doing erp but it is so hard when you actually believe the thoughts! I had NEVER ever thought this about them until Covid!
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@lou47 Literally same the “memory” that im thinking of could’ve happened in 2017 or 2018 but it just seems really weird that i know in my heart that I didn’t do it but i only started thinking about it once covid came around i think it’s because i had much more time to be lost in my thoughts.
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@t03 Oh my goodness......this Covid has affected soooooo many people in more ways than ever could be imagined. I am very open about my intrusive thoughts and this one some people have laughed which actually helps me! Its not that you know you havent done anything wrong......that is completely true....it is the fact that your brain cant seem to believe you! Your subconcious is the equivalent to an eight year old and just seems these false emotions as 'proof' but we know deep down that these are thoughts and nothing else... Our brain makes us think they are real when in actual fact we would NEVER EVER do what the thoughts try and convince us of. I think it all bores down to the core thought that we think we are 'bad'. We cant see them as just thoughts.....we see them as real until we can prove they arent. If covid hadnt happened there is no way I would have had this obsession. I was getting so sick and tired of these old people forever talking about Covid and nothing else it got in my nerves. I am on my own yet they made me feel like a leper....then i asked them why they werent bothering with me so much and they said it was because of my views on covid I had put on fb. They said some pretty horrible things to me about it and said that people were calling them to say have you seen what i had put on fb now about it?!!!! I honestly didnt put a lot about it on fb but i was entitled to my opinions. I think the covid has sent them round the bend and they dont speak to me anymore but did say about other people falling out because of covid and actually wishing they got it and died.. Charming! I think the lady has dementia as she isnt with it anymore so that probably had a lot to do with it. Covid has really really sent peoples mental health spiralling. I hope you are ok. I am always here to chat. We have to try and laugh at this ocd as it is so irrational x
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@lou47 Ohhh my goodness yes covid has been too much on my mental illness aswell. Im trying my hardest to laugh it off but i jjst end up crying instead 😭. I think my problem is that i spend all day asking myself “did it really happen?” 24/7.
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@t03 I completely get that.......it is the uncertainty of it all. Today i thought that in the future if i got another obsession what would i think of this one?! All off my other obsessions were so debilitating at the time and i felt exactly the same as i do now.....so basically i am realising it is an illness and that is all.
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- 24w
I have false memory real event ocd, I’ve been married 13 years and I used to constantly bring up past mistakes from when we were dating and it RUINED our marriage, but I got medication and therapy and things got better untill a few weeks ago where everything crumbled. I have a memory that is 13 years ago of me being intimate with my husband (than boyfriend) while being intimate I have a memory of sending a text to a male who obviously liked me but I didi not while my husband was under the covers . And I keep thinking over and over how disgusting and inappropriate it was to do that especially doing it in the middle of being intimate 😞. I have confessed this to my husband last year and he didint believe me saying it’s probably a made up memory and would are not a slut and wouldn’t do that. Now i have guilt all over again for weeks and it’s taking such a toll on me it’s all I think about and try to remember every detail I’ve thought about it so much I don’t even know if it’s 100 percent true. But I can vividly see it when I close my eyes. How do I get over this guilt without confessing? Confessing would absolutely destroy my husband.
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- 19w
Same theme of harming my family member in a similar way the details what I said and what was shown to them and the environment around me but that’s all I can get it’s hard to focus on the environment only what I said and what I did. This memory keeps coming up and leaving its instant. They seem to be ok the one in question I also don’t have a timeline if I harmed them no timeline like I did it this time or I don’t remember. I don’t rmemenr actually ever doing this. I felt like a creep because this woman days ago made me feel like one I internalized that and now my mind has been picking up thoughts or “memories” of harming my family member but I can’t ever rmemenr doing anything like that plus the dream or “memory” when I had it was in another state years ago but it only came up now.
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- 19w
I have had the same false memory/instrusive image of me doing something horrible to someone when I was 12 and they were younger. It is a memory based on a real event. I truly don’t know if it’s real or not but obviously, the more I think about it the more I think it’s true. This has led my mind to become slightly paranoid. I worry that if this horrible image in my head is true then one day the person I might have hurt will come and k*ll me. I’m really scared I feel like I won’t feel better as long as this “memory” is in my head. Does anyone have advice?
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