this is so annoying like if i want to like boys (like how i always have) can’t i just let myself say i like boys why does it have to be an issue this is so annoying

OCD aka the doubting disorder will always try to attach to things That matter to you. I admire you for Sharing your experience but blessed try your best to refrain from ruminating or analyzing too much of anything. Practice not analyzing any of those points you mentioned and place your attention on this present moment. Feel your feet on the ground, take a deep breathe, go for a walk, read, go hangout with a close companion, or play a sport. Not avoiding the discomfort, but choosing to do things you want to do and not give any attention to dwelling on that.The most important part being the response prevention. Not easy, but part of the work. When this type of situation occurs and we are in environments in which we are organically exposed to distress, use this as an opportunity to practice doing the work! This allows for two things; showing yourself you can handle and tolerate it, and also letting your body know that although you feel uncomfortable you are willing to keep doing whatever it is you are doing and getting on with your day!