Please help me, I’m so overwhelmed.
I’m so scared man, I don’t know if I have OCD but I keep having these irrational fears that small things will change my appearance or stunt my growth as I’m going through puberty. Every time I hear a noise I try to make it myself as I fear it somehow changed my face or my height.
Last week I played a stupid little game with my friends resulting in me falling and getting a concussion. Now I’m so overwhelmed with regret and sadness as I beg and wish to go back and relive that day in order to prevent it. I feel so mad and angry at myself as I knew doing something like this would trigger me and I still did it. I feel so overwhelmed with regret as I feel as if this concussion has significantly altered what height I will be and my facial appearance and also my intelligence. I can’t move on and every time I think back to it I breakdown into tears. I don’t know what to do, I couldn’t enjoy my thanksgiving break with my family and with school starting back up I feel so overwhelmed with regret and I keep thinking about ways I could’ve prevented this from happening and I want to go back so badly. Please help me, I’m so overwhelmed. I keep feeling this concussion changed my facial appearance, altered my height growth, and somehow changed my entire life path somehow. I feel so sad and disconnected right now. (I’m 15), I’m so scared I won’t grow taller and that this injury changed my entire life. Please help me, I’m so scared, I feel like my life has ended.
Now I feel like I failed my parents, I feel so sad as if I’m a failure to them, I try so hard to make them proud but I always fail. I just want them to be happy, and this concussions makes me feel like that will never happen.
I just keep having irrational thoughts and fears that everything I do will stunt my growth, make me uglier, or have me lose intelligence. And this concussion has tenfolded it, please help.