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- 6y
- Date posted
- 6y
People who have OCD have hyperactive imaginations that like to flip everything good on its butt. Once you recognize that, you’ll understand why you are having these thoughts.
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- 6y
Thanks so much! It’s so annoying, everytime I see a guy my mind automatically says that I want to get with him, literally any guy. Like wtf! And even if I try to say “yeah that’s a good looking guy, nothing else” it’s not enough in my mind. Idk whats wrong with me.
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- 6y
I feel you. Ive been convinced many many times that im not actually a gay man, but have been straight all along! Ive been convinced im straight like 20 times in the past 9 months. Im working as hard as i can to just move forward and recognize these intrusive thoughts as just part of my anxiety fueled by my ocd. I do still get caught off guard by them sometimes and its gonna happen while you go through this. But remember, its your ocd. You can learn to beat this for sure.
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- 6y
Just an intrusive thought! No need to worry! Accept the thoughts and move on. Do not try to make them go away.
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- 6y
Don’t worry, that’s not how that works. :) say to yourself, “I am having intrusive thoughts about being attracted to men. That is okay. I accept this intrusive thought.”
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- 6y
You know, let me distract you... Today I went to see Dumbo, the movie. And wow, the actress (Eva Green) who played the french woman was really attractive in a lot of scenes. (Collin Farrell without an arm too btw xd) I just thought that, but I get anxious about the consequences and it was really complicated to do ERP at that moment. But I watched because I have fun watching movies and I tried to accept: Okay, Eva Green is beautiful and has a nice body, nothing else. Not about what that means. Not about what that's gonna change in me. It's just a reality that she is. Is just normal that I noticed, even more in my condition. In the end I loved the movie. And now Im at home and it doesn't disturb me at all :) so... thinking about it, thinking about compulsions, thinking about to stop and... this is what HOCD makes you: not enjoy your daily life. Not enjoy special events. Not living the present. You are just thinking and thinking and that's not good for you. Remember that.
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- 6y
Is an intrusive thought. OCD does that. The more it disturbs you, the more is going to stay with you and get stronger over you. You are going to think this for a long time, buuuut if you try that the thought has less meaning to you, you'll feel free again
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- 6y
I know ocd can make normal things seem scary but you need to accept that NOBODY is 100% straight or gay or anything really, it’s all a weird spectrum, the human condition...and overall being gay is a pretty low stakes situation, I used to worry about being gay, but I got a few gay friends, got in touch with my feminine side and it went away I still think “what if I’m gay?” But even if I think I might be gay, I know for sure that I like girls so it’s whatevs
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- 6y
I fear if I do this, I will truly become gay. I’m not a homophobic, it’s just doesn’t seem right to me.
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- 6y
Because to us is never enough, we need an answer to resolve this with logic. But OCD doesn't give you any logic xd so next time: "I think this guy is attractive. Maybe I like guys. Maybe is not true to me, but okay, here you come, here you go. Just a thought, Im stronger than you. Not gonna get anxious about it" and anyway, whatever you think or however you feel. We are with you :)
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- 6y
Why does my mind is pushing so hard that I’m in denial? This so hard. If I was gay I would just accept it but I know I’m not. Though my mind is just saying “you’re in denial and you know it”. I can’t take this anymore.
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- 6y
And what have you tried to not give in to your thoughts and compulsions?
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- 20w
I keep having this weird feeling none stop that it’s most likely not HOCD and most my feelings. Like I’ve suffered none stop distress and unwanted thoughts the past few days. But those thoughts after a bit just feel weird not the kind of discomfort but are just their and stale. When I look at a guy I don’t feel anything but my thoughts sometimes compliment his looks or personality which makes me doubt my sexuality. I’ve never felt this weirded out. Because I’ve always been straight and still believe I am but I’ve never even had an emotional connection to someone of the opposite gender in fact. My view of the female body has been ruined with none stop pornography addictions. I don’t believe I’m gay but I feel like it may just be denial instead of HOCD but all my symptoms are literally HOCD. I don’t hate the idea of gay people but I can’t imagine or see my heart going off to like someone of the same sex. I haven’t really had any meaningful real life friends besides online but that also ended a few months ago. My only friend ever online that was my friend for the longest of time was a queer but I never really cared about what he liked. Like yes at some point I did try to challenge him with his own feelings but that didn’t last long I just accepted what he liked and moved on. I’ve never even touched let alone held a long conversation with a female. I’ve always been timid and shy around them but I can just say that towards male as well. The gay feelings feel so real. The thoughts feel a bit natural to me but I don’t want this. But I hate how I can’t just move on and be myself and love women when those thoughts demand attention and an answer. It won’t quit it. If I try to do a compulsion it calms down but it quickly becomes a problem again. I’m lonely I don’t have any friends or past relationships I can even think of helping me with the emotions. I still believe I’m straight and I just can’t see myself with a guy. It just doesn’t feel right for me despite my lack of experiences. I just wanna go back to how I was happy and loving girls and not having to question if it was a real feeling or just my natural timid nature. Everytime I think these distressing thoughts I always just wanna sit down and close my eyes and sleep. Because that’s where I can have peace of self. It sucks but I’m so exhausted of having to deal with emotional distress and I can’t even focus on my job as much. I want to meet new people discover my love for women again but I’m scared in the process I may discover I may be gay. Because deep down I know I wouldn’t ever be happy with myself if my greatest fears where confirmed. My dream of always being a father with a loving women and kids would be torn away by something I never asked for. Yes I’m religious, yes I come from a place that homosexuals are usually seen in a bad light. I just hate feeling this emotion that I may not be what I thought and having my dreams torn apart maybe true. I’ve read MUTIPLE articles about HOCD and seen MUTIPLE videos. I’ve come to the realization that I most likely have it. But it’s still hard when the feelings of maybe being gay maybe true you know? I hope I get better I hope I don’t suffer. I just wanna be happy with myself and loving females and I don’t wanna hate myself for feeling an emotion that never occurred to me more then a few times.
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- 19w
Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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- 16w
I don’t know if it’s SOOCD. I no longer feel anxious in the moment when I think about women, and it’s like my imagination wants me to think about it and get aroused. I don’t want to be gay, but maybe I am after all. In my life I haven’t been so sexually driven before (when I was living with a man, or when being single) but now all I can think about is having sex with a woman. I don’t want to, but somehow my body does and it feels like my mind have changed to accept it to.. feel so sad This all started around 4 weeks ago..
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