Having a really bad panic attack. I feel that this is too real to be hocd. It’s like my mind is almost convincing me that I am gay and that I truly want this. Why does this happen? I have always loved and adored women since a young age? This feels extremely real. My heart is pounding and making me want to vomit. This is horrible.

People who have OCD have hyperactive imaginations that like to flip everything good on its butt. Once you recognize that, you’ll understand why you are having these thoughts.

Thanks so much! It’s so annoying, everytime I see a guy my mind automatically says that I want to get with him, literally any guy. Like wtf! And even if I try to say “yeah that’s a good looking guy, nothing else” it’s not enough in my mind. Idk whats wrong with me.

I feel you. Ive been convinced many many times that im not actually a gay man, but have been straight all along! Ive been convinced im straight like 20 times in the past 9 months. Im working as hard as i can to just move forward and recognize these intrusive thoughts as just part of my anxiety fueled by my ocd. I do still get caught off guard by them sometimes and its gonna happen while you go through this. But remember, its your ocd. You can learn to beat this for sure.

Just an intrusive thought! No need to worry! Accept the thoughts and move on. Do not try to make them go away.

Don’t worry, that’s not how that works. :) say to yourself, “I am having intrusive thoughts about being attracted to men. That is okay. I accept this intrusive thought.”

You know, let me distract you... Today I went to see Dumbo, the movie. And wow, the actress (Eva Green) who played the french woman was really attractive in a lot of scenes. (Collin Farrell without an arm too btw xd) I just thought that, but I get anxious about the consequences and it was really complicated to do ERP at that moment. But I watched because I have fun watching movies and I tried to accept: Okay, Eva Green is beautiful and has a nice body, nothing else. Not about what that means. Not about what that's gonna change in me. It's just a reality that she is. Is just normal that I noticed, even more in my condition. In the end I loved the movie. And now Im at home and it doesn't disturb me at all :) so... thinking about it, thinking about compulsions, thinking about to stop and... this is what HOCD makes you: not enjoy your daily life. Not enjoy special events. Not living the present. You are just thinking and thinking and that's not good for you. Remember that.

Is an intrusive thought. OCD does that. The more it disturbs you, the more is going to stay with you and get stronger over you. You are going to think this for a long time, buuuut if you try that the thought has less meaning to you, you'll feel free again

I know ocd can make normal things seem scary but you need to accept that NOBODY is 100% straight or gay or anything really, it’s all a weird spectrum, the human condition...and overall being gay is a pretty low stakes situation, I used to worry about being gay, but I got a few gay friends, got in touch with my feminine side and it went away I still think “what if I’m gay?” But even if I think I might be gay, I know for sure that I like girls so it’s whatevs

I fear if I do this, I will truly become gay. I’m not a homophobic, it’s just doesn’t seem right to me.

Because to us is never enough, we need an answer to resolve this with logic. But OCD doesn't give you any logic xd so next time: "I think this guy is attractive. Maybe I like guys. Maybe is not true to me, but okay, here you come, here you go. Just a thought, Im stronger than you. Not gonna get anxious about it" and anyway, whatever you think or however you feel. We are with you :)

Why does my mind is pushing so hard that I’m in denial? This so hard. If I was gay I would just accept it but I know I’m not. Though my mind is just saying “you’re in denial and you know it”. I can’t take this anymore.

And what have you tried to not give in to your thoughts and compulsions?