I took two tiny shots of tequila like probably would equal one to try to just go to sleep and it made me sleepy but then I imagine big round heavy boobs and nothing happened honest like nothing was going on down there nothing was going on up top but I couldn’t stop imagining it and when I imagine dick nothing happened either and I’m just gonna keep focusing on the roundedness and the way the heavy boobs hung I’ve never like them before but why can I stop focusing on the on them even if I took tequila to help me sleep! I’m scared I give up like I must this must be I don’t wanna live that life but I can’t stop thinking about the way big big heavy round boobs hang I’m just gonna do I don’t like the limp ones that sag I don’t like firm ones but why aren’t i responding to dick and now I’m scared I feel faint something like I am I don’t wanna finally respond to big boobs of all things I’m scared I keep thinking this must be my life now but I I said don’t I want dick and I said oh that is enough evidence enough like I don’t I do want dick well I’m scared I said why am I focusing on what I but I don’t want big round heavy boobs nothings going on even with some tequila in my system I can’t get turned on by boobs why am I focusing on them why aren’t I getting hot and bothered over dick I’m scared the fact that I’m focusing on the round heavy boobs means that I am but I’m not buy or gay but why focus on those whenever I had tequila and thought object I would always get really happy and now I can’t focus on it I don’t have scared it’s not some thing of beauty it’s not something I appreciate I don’t like the roundness or nipples I don’t like boobs. And I remembered when I got kind of drunk because it doesn’t take that much I don’t drink that much and looked at and I said it is it’s not OK I got drunk once and looked at shit you know what I mean and nothing happened when I was drunk I’m scared this mess I don’t want happiness I’m scared I’m not fascinated I don’t like the way boob saying why can’t I just go to sleep and not wake up