I need help. Struggling so bad with derealization and I believe I have harm OCD. It’s endless torture everyday and now super mundane things I question. I’m questioning everything about myself

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I don’t even know. I just feel like I’m losing my mind. Everyday feels worse. It started with having horrible thought/urges about my cat then it spiraled and became about my mom and my boyfriend. All people that I love so much. I keep questioning myself and what if I’m actually a psycho and I’m gonna do something terrible or what if I like thinking about these things even though I don’t. It’s torture. Now I’m questioning the simplest things. Like music and shows that comfort me I’m like do I even like this? I just can’t stop being in my head. It’s even harder cause I had derealization since august so I’ve been navigating figuring that out and the harm ocd started about a month ago. It just feels hopeless

@morgorreee I've been there. Medication helped me with HOCD and questioning everything, but then a year later, my POCD came back but it's almost gone thanks to GG OCD.

@ViVampire🧛🏻‍♀️ What’s GG ocd?

@ViVampire🧛🏻‍♀️ Is it normal to have questions or feelings wondering if you should just give in or that you’re afraid you like the thoughts? It’s so contradictory cause I’m like obviously I don’t like them they’re causing me so much distress. But I’m scared my brain is just gonna turn against me

@morgorreee A free app. I've learned to embrace the doubt, and not dwell on it. If you want to talk more, I'm on Twitter, Snapchat, MeWe and Wickr Me.

@morgorreee I had the same thing happen to me. You must be so scared, hang in there! Maybe this is just me but they said I was near psychotic and had me stay at a hospital and give me meds. Whatever it is, psychosis or OCD, there is no shame in getting help.

@ViVampire🧛🏻‍♀️ That’s just terrifying to me though. Having the thought that I could go into psychosis?

@morgorreee Psychosis is a mental illness where you lose touch with reality, it is a terrifying feeling, but it shouldn't be shameful. If it is what you are going through, you can get better.