I’m scared you guys. I don’t want this to be a possibility and I almost said that I am but I’m not really prepared for. Can sexual orientation change? I don’t want to switch or add a team! 🥺 I’m scared I don’t want to I know it’s part of life but I don’t wanna fall out of love with my guy. Definitely don’t wanna add girls to the team I felt funny saying that but I really don’t wanna do it. I wake up arguing with myself which is unfortunately normal but what scares me right now is that I was trying to say guy/guys I’m scared I see these phrases right and that’s one of them. I’m trying to feel better saying but I don’t want women/men I don’t I don’t want women. And yet I’m afraid and I feel better I don’t want to be bisexual but if I’m straight why would I feel better saying that one I don’t wanna I’m scared I don’t want women. I’m scared I feel better saying that and I feel worse leaving them out and I don’t understand what that means! I don’t want women I want guys/men And yet I almost started to get anxious in my palm starting to sweat leaving them out I don’t trust anything and I feel confused I don’t want women! I’m scared and I’m scared I’m so tired I said so what I don’t wanna start liking women I don’t like their parts. And yet my throat closes no I’m leaving them out and I’m simply must be I’m tired and I feel like giving up at and can’t stop I don’t wanna lose my feelings for my guy and I don’t wanna have any I don’t like women’s parts I don’t have any for women they’re not simply anything boobs are not lovely. So I don’t understand how come I feel worse excluding them and I’m afraid of how I felt including I don’t want it I don’t want to feel better saying that I’m sorry I can’t breathe. I don’t don’t want women sexually I don’t want women in any kind of way. I don’t want women! Yeah I’m scared I do I choke up when I expose them I don’t want girls I don’t want to feel it better saying it like it doesn’t I don’t know if it feels right but it’s like for some reason I just have this really strong urge to say it and I said it in my head but I don’t want girls if I’m straight why would I say that in my head? I’m fine I am I don’t wanna look at girls differently I don’t want to see them in my head naked and feel different I don’t want to look at them different I don’t want to change. It almost feels wrong to say no I’m scared I am now I’m not resisting for anything I’m scared it almost why would I feel wrong if I’m straight?! And there’s no if I’m not attractive I’m not interested I’m not I can’t breathe I’m so sorry. I’m not and I don’t understand why would I feel better adding I don’t want women

Sexual Orientation OCD

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Date posted: 3y

Im in the same boat except I'm a guy. It's very hard dealing with this every day adds sm stress on top of everything else I have going on. Like my hocd is trying so hard to get me to change when I don't want to I never wanted to my whole life and for the rest of my life I just want women . What sucks even more to top it off for me is that me and my girlfriend had recently broken up because of this . I feel like I'm never gonna get better every day feels like I barely make it

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

I’m sorry you’re struggling. I’m really scared because I just had a thought walking through my apartment. I feel really cold which makes sense because it’s winter although it’s California so our winter is nothing compared to basically everybody else’s but still. I have sweats on I have socks on I have a sweater on you know and I’m still cold. So I thought hey why don’t I take my temperature maybe I’m sick. I’m a dishwasher and no matter how hard you try you always get a little wet when you’re washing the dishes and I was stuck in wet clothes for a long time. I usually do closing shifts 5 PM to 12 AM. And so as I was doing that I meant and going to work anyway feeling really hot and some girl I said that I but I don’t like her like that and I said I am I had a thought of her taking care of me if you know what I mean like I do but I don’t have feelings for girls and I’m scared I’ve struggled with I don’t have feelings for her there’s nothing for me to struggle with I struggle with thoughts if you know what I mean. But I’ve never had a thought like oh would she be concerned I just never cared but a girl wanted to take care of me I don’t want to kiss girls I don’t wanna be intimate I don’t wanna relationship. Do you think that’s OCD? Because it felt weird I don’t want to change it on frightened I am and I don’t want that to be part of life either I don’t want to lose it for guys as a whole like broadly in general and I definitely don’t wanna lose it for my guy personally

21067761081

Date posted: 3y

@Bookworm91 Honestly as much as our mind tries to tell us we are it's just our ocd. We hate these thoughts and don't want them not because we are in denial but because there not true. But it just sucks having to deal with this. Ive seen people recover from this so I know it can happen . We have to stay strong no matter what are mind tells us.

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Date posted: 3y

Deep down we know what is really true and how we feel that's why we hate them our hocd just takes intrusive thoughts and mixes them tg that's why sometimes they may feel real

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