lou47
- Date posted
- 3y
jacivyjacivy
- Date posted
- 3y
This sounds like OCD is working really hard to stay present in your brain. This tells me that you are working so hard with your recovery and doing your ERP sometimes OCD likes to dig it’s claws in when you’re really in the depths of recovery. I had these EXACT kind of thoughts to when I was really deep in recovery. Just try to be really gracious and gentle with yourself right now, try to see the humor and the absurdity of this disorder that tricks us into believe these thoughts, they are just thoughts after all, nothing more !
lou47lou47
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you so very much. This has been my obsession for about 3 months because some 'friends'fell out with me because of covid and straight away the ocd said it was because of that! I even thought weeks before that i couldnt get ocd again as it had nothing to grab onto. Hmmmm it is doing its best and doing quite well atm... I NEVER thought like this about these people and I had told them my ocd thoughts 2 years ago but now they have fallen out with me my mind wont stop and sometimes I feel I have to go over every conversation to make sure they knew it was my OCD flaring up..... they even read up about it so were trying to help as much as they could but still the OCD wont drop it!! I so appreciate your help. I am having therapy from NOCD and I am determined to get better. It is so nice to be able to talk to an advocate. I was supposed to get peer support but havent been given it. Thanks again x
Lms526Lms526
- Date posted
- 3y
OCD really is a jerk. It causes you to always assume the worst and make a mountain out of a molehill. I have obsessed about the dumbest things Someone's tone of voice, the look on their face, if they cancel plans, or if they don't return a call or message. I will automatically think they hate me and no longer want to be my friend. But 99.9% of the time, the reason has NOTHING to do with me. Maybe they are busy, maybe they forgot to reply, maybe they weren't feeling well. If it DOES have something to do with me, I know why and can apologize and talk it out.
lou47lou47
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you. Yes it makes you obsess over anything doesnt it? Before I had this episode and hadnt fallen out with these people but they werent bothering with me as much, I knew how much they had helped me and if it even entered my head about my OCD I would just say....oh well, they have read up about it and their daughter in law is a nurse and knows about OCD and I would or could never worry! I found it impossible to obsess about it as there was nothing to obsess about! But when I confronted them about not bothering with me and the man was quite horrible about me and covid, obviously the OCD saw an opportunity and grabbed it. There is absolutely no evidence whatsoever but yet the OCD just gets to me and finds a way in. I hate it so much. I am still doing the erp but it is taking longer for the anxiety to go down. I do notice that when I am not so fixated on getting better and just getnon with things then it is easier foe the anxiety to go down and then I get sudden moments of clarity and realise how daft this all is but that feeling doesnt last for long! I am getting so fed up with this obsession now xx
jacivyjacivy
- Date posted
- 3y
Yes this sounds like CLASSIC OCD. Scanning , looking for false memories, checking, reassurance ! Of course it’s so hard but try to just give yourself space and time for healing and no it’s takes hard work to re program your brain!
lou47lou47
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you SO VERY MUCH. I will not be as hard on myself from now on. This episode will go soon enough as long as I keep doing what I am doing with the erp. Thank you once again. Xx
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