no because my so-ocd really makes me wonder if i'm not just a closeted homophobic. Like why am I so scared of being gay? Like I consider myself open and accepting to everything, but why does the idea of not being straight freaks me out. I'm really wondering if I might not just be repressing my true feelings because I'm "secretly" homophobic. But at the same time I'm not gay or homophobic? so confusing and annoying