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Me, me, me! Yep, this was really hard for me for a while. The thing that worked for me (and all OCD in general) is to NOT engage with the thoughts. I would ruminate all day and find myself constantly trying to problem solve to figure out if I was a psychopath. I would get occasional moments of "Okay, I think I proved to myself I'm not a psychopath" only for the doubts to come rushing back in along with NEW doubts as well. The thing that truly helped was staying true to my values. Write them out and do what you can to stay in line with them. Trying to problem solve and "figure it out" will only make things worse.
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Hi Elephrank! I’ve been struggling with ruminating and sometimes it feels impossible to stop. When I acknowledge that I’m having ruminating thoughts, I try to distract myself but sometimes it’s hard to distract myself from it. Ruminating is exhausting. Do you have some other tips to deal with it? Thanks!
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@Kati3 Hi Kati3! So, first I have a question. How are you distracting yourself? I’ve found distracting to be compulsive behavior for me. Doing something to actively try to take your mind off of your obsessions while you’re anxious can become a compulsion. So, be careful! I ruminate way too much and so my therapist taught me to write down uncertainty statements when I’m obsessing. Stuff like, “I may or may not be a psychopath which would mean I have no empathy and hurt people I love.” Also, script writing helps but for me it can be really scary in the moment. If you have an OCD therapist, I’d recommend asking them before taking my advice. Exposures work differently for everyone!
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@Elephrank I try distracting myself by doing activities that I used to find relaxing like reading, going for walks, or watching my favorite shows. I have not tried writing the response messages down. I have only been repeating them mentally. I think I will try that! I will check in with my therapist though. I just wanted to see what worked for others when it comes to rumination!
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@Kati3 Yeah! Write them down and see if that helps. I have mine on sticky notes that I keep at my desk, but luckily I work from home most days haha 😂 also, setting alarms on my phone with uncertainty statements has helped too! They say things like “I may or may not stab someone.” They used to make me anxious when they’d go off. But, now they’ve lost a lot of affect on me 😊 I’ll see them and just giggle most of the time.
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@Elephrank I’m glad it works for you! This will be very helpful😁
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i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help
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I am so scared that my *undiagnosed* OCD is going to make me harm someone close to me in my family. I’m afraid of knives, I’m afraid of things that COULD be a weapon like pens, forks or anything like that. My sister is my BFF and my thoughts have latched onto her. I’m so afraid!! I don’t know how to make them stop. How do I stop and will it eventually subside? How do I work on compulsions? I’m on Zoloft 50mg as well for 3.5 weeks and a lot of my other worries have subsided except this one. I feel like a crazy person :( Also does this sound like OCD?
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I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
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