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It’s so hard. My OCD got so bad after I had my daughter, I couldn’t stop thinking of all the ways I could or might harm her. I couldn’t sleep, I lost my appetite my anxiety spiked so badly. It was unbearable because all I wanted to do was bond with my baby but I couldn’t stop my intrusive thoughts. Honestly the best thing you can do is work with an erp therapist, write scripts, read books about OCD and intrusive thoughts. And be kind to yourself it’s not easy and OCD can feel so isolating. Keep reaching out and staying connected to the community.
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I'm a mom of 2 little ones. They're both toddlers now. I've had ocd since I was about 9 or 10 years old and I'm in my thirties now and have never gotten the proper treatment. A few years ago I went to cognitive behavioral therapy for anxiety and anger issues and it was helpful but I think erp is necessary. My OCD got reeeeally bad postpartum both times. It still is pretty bad and my youngest is a year and a half. I don't talk about it much to ppl cuz they don't get it and i sometimes honestly don't even know how to describe it without sounding crazy so I don't bother. All of my compulsions are pretty much in my head. I analyze and "re-think" thoughts and situations that seemed dangerous or in some way threatening to my kids. It's extremely distressing and exhausting. All I can say is that you're definitely not alone. Be kind to yourself. I would definitely recommend erp. The sooner the better. I guess I should take my own advice..
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Im almost 50 by the grace of GOD and i battled this postpartum depression and harm ocd my daughter is 25 now my middle son 24 and my baby son 15 i still take med genric celexa and anxiety med but i met JESUS accepted Him as LORD and i know he fights this battle i took his word and spoke scripture my favorite GOD has not given me a spirit of fear but power love and a sound mind
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Thank you for sharing. Two of my favorite Bible verses are: "My peace I give to you... Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid!" John 14:27 and also "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans for welfare, and not for evil. To give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
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I'm not a mom but I struggle with Harm OCD. I'm sure being a mom with intrusive thoughts is incredibly difficult. There is space for you here in this community and recover is absolutely possible!
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🙋♀️ mom to two littles.
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Hey friends. I hope you all are doing good today. Just struggling mentally myself. Feel like a terrible mother, but I want another baby. My OCD has gotten better despite the terrible episode I had that I seem to not get over. I hope someone comments that could just give me some support with POCD
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Please if someone can reply! I really just need someone to talk to. I don’t even know how to control my OCD. It honestly feels like it’s controlling me. Everyday my mind focuses on every bodily sensation I have and it’s like a broken record player, I have horrible health anxiety and my OCD just makes it worst just thinking about it everyday. It feels like everyone who I explain it to looks at me like I’m stupid/crazy. I use to be much more tame with my OCD, I use to eat things without worry, now I can’t even touch things I use to eat without worrying that I’ll get an allergic reaction (despite eating them BEFORE,,,but my mind tells me otherwise) and omg worrying about heart attacks, pulmonary issues..and I couldn’t even enjoy my own child’s birth because my mind was on high alert thinking I would hemorrhage any second or develop pre-E (complications of postpartum) I was miserable for the first couple of months of my baby’s life and I didn’t know what to do. And now, I’m pregnant with my second (4wks) and all the OCD thoughts and anxiety is coming back at me and I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. And even if I considered taking a pill, I’d worry about being allergic to it and refusing to take it. I ruin everything for everyone. I remember I ate out one night and I started to think “you’re gonna pass out! You’re gonna pass out! (Without ever passing out before) and I had to leave! I feel like I ruin the mood for everyone when I don’t even try to, and I hate it.
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Hi everyone, this is giving me so much anxiety even saying this out loud because my OcD is telling me that somehow someone will know who I am on here and report me this goes with what I’m about to say about my irrational stuff. Since my baby was born I’ve had a lot of majorrr anxiety about him getting sick. From there my postpartum ocd spiked. I had this irrational fear someone would falsely report me as a bad mom and I’d get my baby taken from me. I’ve NEVER had anyone tell me I’m a bad mom, as a matter of fact, almost every day I get praised for how good of a mom I am. My child is so loved and taken care of. So why did I have that fear? it CONSUMED ME. Obsessively cleaning my house in case a social worker came. Stopped posting myself having occasional girls nights out for dinner because I thought one of my followers would think I’m a bad mom for getting a break. Not being able to talk about ANYTHING or send pictures of my baby to family and friends to update them since we live out of state because somehow I thought I would say something wrong or do something that would make someone think I’m a bad mom. I was convinced my baby was gonna be taken for zero reason. I still sometimes catch myself over analyzing myself and what I say because I don’t want to say the wrong thing and someone think I’m not a fit mom. I would even replay every scenario I remember and then second guess myself if that really happened or if I said something or not and freak out and spiral from there. with driving, if I go over a speed bump I have to double check it wasn’t magically a person. Then I panic even though I know for a fact it was a speed bump. I hate living like this. I feel crazy. I don’t open up because I feel like I’m the only person in the world. The one time I opened up about driving it was used against me. I feel like I’m drowning and I’m failing as a mom. I don’t even open up to a therapist about my irrational fear about baby being taken bc I don’t want them to think I’m a bad mom. It just doesn’t stop.
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