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It’s so hard. My OCD got so bad after I had my daughter, I couldn’t stop thinking of all the ways I could or might harm her. I couldn’t sleep, I lost my appetite my anxiety spiked so badly. It was unbearable because all I wanted to do was bond with my baby but I couldn’t stop my intrusive thoughts. Honestly the best thing you can do is work with an erp therapist, write scripts, read books about OCD and intrusive thoughts. And be kind to yourself it’s not easy and OCD can feel so isolating. Keep reaching out and staying connected to the community.
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I'm a mom of 2 little ones. They're both toddlers now. I've had ocd since I was about 9 or 10 years old and I'm in my thirties now and have never gotten the proper treatment. A few years ago I went to cognitive behavioral therapy for anxiety and anger issues and it was helpful but I think erp is necessary. My OCD got reeeeally bad postpartum both times. It still is pretty bad and my youngest is a year and a half. I don't talk about it much to ppl cuz they don't get it and i sometimes honestly don't even know how to describe it without sounding crazy so I don't bother. All of my compulsions are pretty much in my head. I analyze and "re-think" thoughts and situations that seemed dangerous or in some way threatening to my kids. It's extremely distressing and exhausting. All I can say is that you're definitely not alone. Be kind to yourself. I would definitely recommend erp. The sooner the better. I guess I should take my own advice..
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Im almost 50 by the grace of GOD and i battled this postpartum depression and harm ocd my daughter is 25 now my middle son 24 and my baby son 15 i still take med genric celexa and anxiety med but i met JESUS accepted Him as LORD and i know he fights this battle i took his word and spoke scripture my favorite GOD has not given me a spirit of fear but power love and a sound mind
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Thank you for sharing. Two of my favorite Bible verses are: "My peace I give to you... Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid!" John 14:27 and also "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans for welfare, and not for evil. To give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
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I'm not a mom but I struggle with Harm OCD. I'm sure being a mom with intrusive thoughts is incredibly difficult. There is space for you here in this community and recover is absolutely possible!
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🙋♀️ mom to two littles.
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Every day my ocd makes sure there’s a new reason for me to stay trapped in my mind rather than being the mom I want to be that my kids need. Instead i’m stuck in my head depressed and pushing them away. The other day I was braiding my daughter’s hair like I always do and her hair is really long so when I get to the end of the braid I can see her butt in my peripheral vision and I looked down and I immediately got upset asking myself why did I look down?(the ocd has made me question everything I do now). I know it’s just because I was at the end of the braid and I just looked because I was already looking in that direction. A normal person wouldn’t even think twice about it. There was no inappropriate reason behind it at all but of course my ocd latched onto the situation and said I looked down because I wanted to look at her butt. I was so upset and said to myself “I don’t understand how the ocd started an intrusive thought because she was wearing baggy pants. I could understand if she had on tight pants and her butt was more noticeable” and the only reason I said that is because usually the only time my ocd starts intrusive thoughts telling me i’m looking at my daughter in a wrong way is when she has on leggings or a crop top or bathing suit ect. Now my ocd twisted what I said to mean that I like looking at her in tight pants. Nooo! That’s not what I meant but now the ocd won’t stop trying to make me believe that. I don’t ever look at my children in any inappropriate way. I hate this. I hate ocd and I can’t live like this anymore.
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Since I developed ocd as postpartum my ocd has mostly always targeted my kids. It started as harm and then switched to pocd. Both are equally very painful. For years I was mostly able to keep my ocd at bay but when it comes back it’s so bad. I have a son and a daughter and my ocd switches back and forth from kid to kid with horrible intrusive thoughts and now even intrusive ocd dreams. With each thought I get past and start to feel relief another one pops right up. The thoughts feel so real and true even though I know it’s just the ocd and not how I think or feel, the ocd always makes me doubt myself and question everything I think or do. I know other moms/dads go through this too. Please anyone who has or is going through this please tell me how you deal with this. 😪
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I’ve been dealing with a really bad flare up the last 2 weeks and i’ve been dealing with ocd on and off for years. I was finally feeling better today, So of course my ocd decided to bring up an old intrusive thought that was really upsetting and now i’m stuck on it again. The reason why I struggle so much to conquer my ocd is because I developed ocd as postpartum so my ocd targets my kids, the ones that mean everything to me. The intrusive thoughts range from mild to really disturbing. While I know deep down the intrusive thoughts aren’t true or me, the ocd makes it feel SO real and true which makes me feel like I HAVE to disprove the thoughts and with confidence but the ocd won’t let me. It also makes me question analyze and judge everything I do. It’s an endless cycle of pain and I just want to be a mom without ocd telling me i’m a horrible person all day every day. 😪
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