any moms on here?? I'm a first time mom and had a baby two months ago. my ocd is back with a vengeance. I'm struggling and just looking for people I can talk to who understand what I'm going through. I don't want to worry anybody so I've been keeping things to myself but it's hard.

Hi everyone, grateful to be here and share. Can any new mamas share how long it took for them to get over their postpartum OCD? I know everyone is different and I’m grateful to be in ERP since August, but having been experiencing heightened OCD since April. My son is a blessing and super easy, but just wondering if any mamas can share their success stories. Thanks!

Okay so im pretty much just putting this out there to see if anyone will comment and help me. This is my first and only baby I will be having. I have pretty severe ocd with multiple themes and have for years it fluctuates from better to worse you know like this disorder usually does but especially with this pregnancy it has been so bad. It got bad in the second trimester and then it got worse in this last trimester. Idk if it’s because I’m just anticipating his arrival so much so my minds just left to wonder and create scenarios regular and intrusive, of what it’ll be like to be a mom and have him here and also to be exposed everyday to a source of anxiety for me. My stress level is so so high almost everything triggers a thought for me everyday and i ruminate on all of them everyday. I try not to but right now it feels impossible eventhough I know it’s ocd. So what I’m asking is any mom, dad, parent whatever on here I need advice on managing this with a new child. He is about to come out and I’m so anxious about how this will affect me I want to be a good mom and of course ocd makes me worry what if I’m just constantly anxious around him and can’t function and don’t want to be around him? What if I hurt him or want to? All the terrible what ifs and worrying that I won’t be able to enjoy being a mom that this shit will take any enjoyable part of the experience away from me and just make me miserable so please anyone who’s been through it before just tell me how you managed or are still managing what you did to prepare/how you cope? Any advice is appreciated. Thank you!

Hi everyone I’m new here. I’ve been to hell and back in the last 5 months with my OCD which has affected me with various themes in various ways for since childhood but I’ve only this year discovered I have OCD. I have been suicidal 3 times and very close to ending it all. I have a question for all the parents out there/mums to be suffering with OCD…… I already have a 9 yr old boy and 8 yr old girl and have just found out I’m pregnant again…… I really want to be happy about it but my OCD is determined to make me terrified of having another baby and I am living in fear and dread of changing nappies etc as I know it will start affecting me with POCD type thoughts. I didn’t have OCD anything like as bad as it has been this year when I had my two eldest so never had any issues when they were babies. But I don’t even know how to feel except I am terrified now and very seriously considering abortion just to not go through what the OCD may do to me mentally! Though it would devastate my partner. I have had minimal therapy so far since August but no ERP therapy, I’ve lost faith in therapists as I’m yet to meet one that actually knows what OCD is like for those of us living with it. Is anyone else currently facing this situation with being pregnant or been through/currently going through it? How are you coping? Please don’t give too many details as I am scared of being triggered