I could use some rocd support.

I feel you, and I was searching a way for this answer to not be a reassurance. (Probably it will be anyway). Unless there is some abuse; no one can tell you If it is the right relationship or no. You can't tell it too, because you will only see it in the future! ( I learned this in a lot of time!) Talking from experience, it is possible that rocd took away your real feelings and let you anxious/guilty/apathic. And if that is the case; therapy; erp etc will get things really better (I was depressed at first, now I enjoy my emotions and his company again!!!) Remember also that love is a choice! Not only a feeling! It is okay sometimes don't miss him/ don't feel the sparkle! And you can choose to stay and make things better, even if you are terrified, or anxious, even if your rocd tells you to run!! But is not okay run away because you feel like you have to, even if you don't want !! (I used to think that all the decisions, even in love, should be like if I ask you "do you want a glass of water?" Your answer will be yes or no, without even thinking or feeling bad!!!) My psychologist said that when feeling like this, the best thing to do is don't take decisions! Wait until we get better!