Bookworm91
- Date posted
- 3y
run99run99
- Date posted
- 3y
Hey, you have posted 30 times in the past two days. I know it’s hard but you are seeking reassurance and we aren’t supposed to give that to you. I’m not saying never post, but I think it’s time to turn to coping mechanisms that can actually make your condition better. Do you have any hobbies you like to do? Is there anyway i can help that isn’t reassurance? You saying you want men is a compulsion
Bookworm91Bookworm91
- Date posted
- 3y
I’m going to try deleting my app and not coming back for a while simply to come back the urge to talk about it But I don’t like that I make faces as though I don’t when I do like boys and I keep smiling saying and I don’t like boobs and I said much but they’re not better than boys I like boys not boobs I don’t like them and I don’t like the way I’m smiling and I miss pectorals and I make face is like I don’t like them and I don’t like this and I don’t know I don’t mean to bug people
run99run99
- Date posted
- 3y
@Bookworm91 I don’t mean you’re bugging me!!! I just mean for your own sake. I was worried you your perceive it that way but I promise that it’s not a burden or a bother
Bookworm91Bookworm91
- Date posted
- 3y
@run99 Thank you. I’m kind of crying in my car because I had some upsetting personal news like unrelated to the OCD and then i said like calmly in a total statement like manner I don’t know why I act like I’m not bisexual when I’m not and I’ve never had a thought like that before it like said in such a way like like a statement and I’m being choked and I can’t breathe. I can’t get out of my car I’m in front of the supermarket I can’t get out of my car I’ve never been bisexual before I never truly thought I was and I don’t like the fact that I put it in such a bold statement don’t know why I act like I’m not and now I can’t say when I’m not like it’s a lie when I’m not bisexual I don’t understand what’s happening I feel like I’m crumbling away and breaking down and I don’t wanna be here anymore. Why did I say that I don’t know why I act like when I’m not acting I’m not an act I’m not an act I’m not bisexual why did I say that like it’s a statement I’m really not bisexual and it’s not an act and I can’t stop thinking I don’t like boobs but at the same time I keep acting like like I keep obsessing about how they stick out and acting like I do when I don’t wanna do what babies do I said I don’t I would rather do that with guys and their various about their parts and I know I’m acting like those are but they’re not gross and I don’t understand I’m scared I said maybe not meant to be I’ve always meant to be straight I’m not bisexual at all so why did I say that like it’s a statement don’t know why I act like I’m not I’m not bisexual I said I’m not acting bisexual I’m not acting I’m not bisexual that’s what I’m not acting about and now I’m scared that’s a lie I’m not bisexual
reaper101reaper101
- Date posted
- 3y
Have you read the book, getting over intrusive thoughts by sally winston ?
reaper101reaper101
- Date posted
- 3y
It's super hard to get these thoughts out I know that for sure, going through the same thing...but we'll get through this !!
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- 16w
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- Date posted
- 13w
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