Ughh I hate myself. I had gone so long without checking and just when I go to check I find out he has added 3 new blonde girls. It’s really upset me tbh to the extent I want to finish our 4.5 year relationship with him. I know they are all women he works with but it makes me feel like why is he adding them? Surely he’s interested, some of them are really young too like 7/8 years younger than him. I know he likes blondes. And they have bfs too. But it’s still annoyed me. Why did he have to add them? And why has he not added others? Why is it always blondes? Is it maybe just a coincidence that his place are only hiring blondes? Idk. I just feel completely devastated rn and this is exactly why I feel I need to check because I end up missing things like this 😔 I badly want to avoid him at all costs now. I’m calling him all names under the sun rn in my head and feel sick with the thought of him.

Aw yeah I’ve been there too ❤️

Hey how you doing today ?

@Hope Slightly better, thanks for checking in Hope 🥰 i’m sort of just challenging my thoughts and saying “so what if he cheats?” It’s actually really helping me to realise my entire life doesn’t have to revolve around him. What about you? X

Exactly, it tries to make us take it seriously and make it seem like a threat when it shouldn’t really be. End of the day, worst case scenario will happen and we will cope! We will get through and that’s what matters, we’ve been through all of the hardest shit so far so we can get through anything 🥰. I hope that today you are feeling better

@Redyroo Thanks so much 🙏 I’m having a really hard day wanting to ask him for reassurance about something but I won’t. I agree we will cope no matter the outcome! We are so strong dealing with this every day🥰.

@Hope I’m here whenever you need!

@Redyroo Aw thanks! Same for you too! ❤️

@Redyroo This week has been rough, been obsessing over something I haven’t in awhile, definitely think my period is a major factor rn making my ocd way worse, hopefully it will lift soon, how are you doing ?

@Hope No way! My period started today so thankfully my ocd has calmed down but I’ve noticed beforehand it becomes insane! I get so much more insecure around that time, feel uglier, maybe this is why i’m more afraid of losing him.

@Hope If you take note each month you’ll notice your period plays a major role in your ocd thoughts and compulsions

No I just straight up said to him I need to be alone

@Redyroo Oh ok that’s good

Aw I’m sorry you’re feeling so bad, remember this is our illness and ultimately we can’t be certain about anything in life but have to still take risks and trust ppl

@Hope Right now I have no inclination to trust, I just straight up hate him and want nothing to do with him

@Redyroo Maybe some time will help, that usually helps me sometimes 🙏