It’s like everyone see’s that I love my partner but me… I cried to my friend bc I was stressed about holding in all my stress. I told her how I am starting to believe I really don’t love my partner anymore. I started crying about it… she said why are you crying if that’s what you believe!? She asked me theses questions like what would happen if you didn’t love him? I answered crying saying I would need to break up with him…. Then what would happen if you broke up? I cried badly saying I wouldn’t be able to be with him anymore…. 😞 She’s like you know people who wants to break up would’ve done it by now and left without a care in the world. The one thing I am worried about it that… I haven’t wanted to have sex with him at all… but there are times where I want to try but I worried about how I am feeling at the moment… 😞 I hate it bc I kept telling myself over and over again that I wasn’t in love with him to get a reaction and now… it’s like I convinced myself I don’t… 😞 But I don’t wanna end my relationship. I feel like I always have to admit that I don’t love him but I am always stuck at this feeling… 😢 he’s the one person I don’t wanna lose bc I care and love him so much. Losing him would hurt me so much.. When I hear people say they are in love.. I constantly feel like I am not… I am so depressed and sad… I am worried about what if I just miss the memories more than I would miss him…. Or miss loving him. It’s just lately it’s non stop.. when I say I love you it feels fake… I don’t want him to be my ex… I know I still love him.. I know deep down he’s my baby.. Why!!… why can’t I see that I still love him when everyone can see it!!! It’s not fair… 😢