im feeling the same with relationship ocd n idk what to do... i love my girlfriend so much.. but it feels so fuzzy n messy ij my head i cant feel abytg when i think about her anymore .. not anxious not happy
One part of me knows it’s not true but these thoughts feel so real and convincing
This is actually, I think, called a back spike? In which you become sort of “immune” to the thoughts, and so when you have no reaction to them it makes you question yourself. My advice is to just let the thought sit there and try not to pay it any attention. I know it’s hard but you will get through this
it’s called the back door effect or spike and it’s a good thing we want to be numb, i’m totally in the same boat and it’s making me question everythjng but then i start to recognize i’m so much closer to recovery