** TW ** Guys I’m reaching out for help. Has Anyone experience this I work closing shifts. And for the past three or four days I’ve been taking Flexeril to help me sleep which is a muscle relaxer that sometimes can cause abnormal thinking and dreaming like on its own let alone with OCD‘s help. But I didn’t take a muscle relaxer last night. Last night I took a full dose of Tylenol p.m. And I fell asleep around 1:30 AM maybe? And my sleep was fine I had no dreams but I woke up Max 10 minutes ago probably less to use the restroom and I’m scared because I imagined for whatever reason I really jerky guy and a girl and I was panicking because like I had to tell him myself to chant that I don’t wanna kiss the girl but for whatever reason I was comparing that person to the jerky guy but I don’t even know who he is by the way. This isn’t really a dream this was like right before I fully woke up by opening my eyes. And I said in my own voice so to speak if you know what I mean that I would but I don’t want to kiss the girl and now my heart is pounding in my palms are sweating. I’d rather kiss of horrible mean guy than a nice girl I don’t want girls. No matter how nice or supposedly good looking I don’t like thinking good looking because I don’t see them like that. And now I can’t stop thinking when I don’t want the way a woman’s anatomy looks in any state I don’t like the way they hang and I want guys and pectorals to come back

@Bookworm91 Sorry if that doesn’t make sense I’m having a really bad morning

I can’t stop thinking can’t help it like I don’t like it I never have and I’m scared I keep thinking I should embrace it like I do I don’t like boobs I like guys and I can’t stop thinking about pointy boobs and how they stick out when I don’t like it I want pectorals to come back I want pectorals I don’t want boobs I want those to go away I don’t want boobs I want pectorals. No and I’m now I’m scared that it feels wrong to say I can’t help don’t like it I know I don’t without if you’re wrong I know I don’t like it I can’t help but not I said not like you but I mean literally not like it I don’t I can’t breathe I can’t help not liking it I don’t know I don’t want to look at myself

@Bookworm91 I can’t I keep saying I can’t help not liking it and I feel weird my palms start to sweat and I feel slightly weird in there and I can’t stop thinking how boobs stick out and I’m scared I keep saying cannot not and I’m scared I am I’m not over guys I hope my lack of reaction is because of the Flexeril I take in the Tylenol p.m. because they both kind of make one either really moody or not moody like at all like no moods but I’m scared something strange happened down there and I can’t tell I’m pretty sure I’m just imagining it but still I can’t help I can’t stop thinking of boobs naked I’m scared to do I don’t love the points of the nipples I don’t like the rounded sides I don’t like boobs I want petrol I don’t want boobs I want to try to come back I’m scared I don’t like boobs and profile I don’t like them at all