Sex… my drive is completely dead… I miss having sex with him.. 😢 like it’s at 0…. I still touch him randomly but when he touches me I feel off… I really don’t want to break up with him… I actually felt happy and relaxed yesterday. I got to cuddle 🥲 now it just seems like I really do wanna break up just bc of how off I feel…

I’m like 90% sure I’m just bi, more romantically inclined to men, mainly my bf who I wanna marry. But now my brain is like “if you lean into liking women or keep circling and circling for answers you’ll lose all attraction to men and your bf. You’re practically already a lesbian” I feel so tense and anxious I will admit I am talking to chat gpt out of desperation I’m scared of losing all attraction to him I don’t wanna be thinking about women. I don’t unless I’m really stressed cuz when I’m stressed my ocd can take advantage of that I can usually ground myself when I’m in the city with him but I’m back home for most of the summer and I can’t be physically close to him which usually reminds me that hey this is real this is what I really want in life. Him But then I panic and question I haven’t been here in a while tbh. I’m worried I don’t feel enough. I don’t like magic Mike all that much, I like softer guys. But now the fact I don’t like/get turned on by random men on tv but do women in lingerie really stresses me out and makes me worry I’m truly a lesbian but I’m not. Once I started getting to know my bf and my ex bf’s I really did truly genuinely like them and wanted to make out and everything. Idk can anyone relate to the not liking big buff men All my brain is repeating rn is “when he dies you’ll be able to date a woman, when you break up you’ll only wanna date women” and it’s stressing me out. It’s making me nauseous. I was doing well for about a couple days after I initially left but being at home has been so incredibly draining This might give you a vision of how stressful home is: I’ve been on nexplanon for 7 months ish? Only had very minimal spotting during a stressful school period. Today: fully bleeding, like a usual period. I haven’t had my period since having it put in. I wanna go back to my bf so badly rn. I’m so worried I’m faking or don’t feel enough. I’m learning what a healthy relationship looks like and I’m terrified I’m gonna up and leave him when we’re older cuz I’ll finally figure out that I’m a lesbian or smthn. Idk. Someone pls just help me out a tad

Lately, I’ve been feeling like something has changed in me — like I have changed, and like my feelings for my boyfriend have faded or shifted. It’s one of the worst sensations I’ve ever felt. I keep thinking things like “I don’t love him like before” or “I’ve changed too much to feel anything now.” Sometimes when he calls me or makes a joke, I get irritated for no reason. I feel like I’m being mean, cold, disconnected — and then guilt crashes down on me. I remember how I used to feel: warm, close, expressive. And now… I just don’t feel the same. That makes me think: “Maybe I’ve fallen out of love.” But I’m also constantly anxious. I overthink every moment. I can’t relax into anything without analyzing if what I feel is “right.” It makes me wonder — maybe I haven’t actually changed. Maybe I’m just overwhelmed and tired from months of these thoughts and fears. I don’t know how to feel right now. I just want to believe that this disconnection isn’t proof that love is gone, but a sign that I’m scared and burnt out.

Ugh...my boyfriend of 2 years just told me that things need to change because neither of us are happy with the way things have been going this is what he said to me "I don’t know just affection I guess. I want to hug and kiss my girlfriend and I want HER to want to hug and kiss me. And yeah sex is awesome. I get it’s not a requirement and it’ll never be for me, I get that’s been a big struggle for you in the past year but like it was a really big part of our relationship starting out and I do feel like it brings us closer personally. But maybe that’s just me. And a compliment or two every now and then would be kinda nice. It’s not that you never do that’s not true at all but I feel like it’s been continually less and less. And I try to at least give you a couple every day. This is by no means a bashing of you Ky I know you’re going through a lot I really do trust me. I’m very proud of the effort you’ve put in. I just want to work on getting back to the point where I get what I give and vice versa that’s all. And remember sometimes you might only be able to give 90 percent and that’s okay, that’s life. There will be times where I can only give 90 too" - I am so scared nobody will ever want me or wanna be in a relationship with me. I am so scared he is breaking up with me