Hi... alright it's taken me a lot of thought and guts to ask this so I'm just going to say it right away. I'm 17 and I'm struggling with perfectionism ocd and maladaptive daydreaming. Apparently the ocd started when I was about 8 or 9 but I just recently put a name to it and discovered that this is acc what's been going on-a whole lot of things make sense now. The problem is,no one knows. And having been in this community for a while,I know a lot of you understand how hard this is. I don't want my parents to know cause,their part of what caused this in the first place and they'll just think I'm being dramatic. And even if they DID know,we can't afford ERP. I am however trying self care and even though it's really frustrating and slow,I just really want to get better. However,I really think I need to talk to someone. And the person who keeps coming to mind is my boyfriend. He's also 17, but he's just... wonderful. And really mature for his age. He recently came close to dicovering my ocd(he saw this app) but I stopped it. We've been together for a little over a year now and we're really happy. What's stopping me from telling him is,he has his own problems. That and I keep doubting myself about whether this is the right step. Knowing him, he's going to be supportive in the way he can,but I just keep doubting myself and asking"what if".... I know some of you might have been through something similar so pls advise me,am I self sabotaging by telling him or is it a step in the right direction??

Angel2004

153d ago

I understand, I’m also 17 and most people around me don’t understand what I go through, it’s always good to have someone to talk to, you should tell your boyfriend, and maybe sharing with him can help a little.

OCDsucksguys

153d ago

You don’t have to tell him and you aren’t doing anything wrong or “hiding something” from him or anyone else by not telling him—it could be your OCD that is telling you that you are lying or “wrong” for not telling him (of course it could also be unrelated but that isn’t super uncommon with ocd)—You don’t owe anyone anything, but if you want to talk to him about it and you trust him, I think it would be almost like a weight lifted off of you to tell someone. You don’t need to tell anyone anything but if you want to tell your boyfriend and you trust him, I think it could be really great to have someone to talk to about it or even just to tell him so he can better understand you as a person. Im sorry you have to go through this but I know you can and will get through it 💕💕💕

Annie M.

153d ago

Thank you guys so much.... knowing that other people understand how you feel goes a long way🙏🙂