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Take some deep breaths and remind yourself that your Grandma wants you to relax and enjoy life so she wouldn’t feel like she is being stolen from and you are stealing nothing. I am here if you want to talk.
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Thank you 🤍. I’m stuck on the “she wouldn’t feel like she is being stolen from” part. I get the first part that she wants me to relax and enjoy life but after that, I feel lost.
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@apops Im sorry if I didn’t explain it, what I mean to say is that she probably knows that you are a human being that needs to relax and have fun and she probably knows that it is totally unreasonable to ask you to put 100% of your effort into your work at all times. I hope this helps
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@Scared Thank you. One of the specific assignments I’m thinking about is regarding me Not adding photos to a project because that would mean making more citations, which gives me anxiety because of plagarism and fear of stealing. Just a whole other thing. But thank you so much for this
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@apops :) I can totally relate. Just take a break and remind yourself you have a mental illness and just trying to deal with the symptoms and guilt that it causes is enough to allow you to rest.
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Oh I can relate to this. Not the exact situation but similar.
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I can relate to this so much. Even though I'm getting good marks. I feel like I'm never working hard enough or enjoying it enough. I feel like I can't enjoy school.
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I’m sorry. Do you also relate it to stealing or you feel guilty in a different way?
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@apops At the beginning yes. But it's more an obsession of always failing myself. Perfectionism+ not living up to potential.
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I am considering starting grad school in the fall to become a licensed counselor. I want to specialize in OCD and my end goal is to eventually work for NOCD. But my OCD keeps telling me that I'm not smart enough for grad school and "Why would you even consider becoming a counselor when you are so screwed up yourself? I feel so torn. This is something I really want to do, but the fear of failure is paralyzing. I'm so scared its going to keep me from even applying. Even as I type that, my OCD is saying "Go ahead and apply. You will never get accepted anyway"
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I woke up very late today because my son kept me up all night because he is teething so I didn’t fully wake up until 6am. These past months have been crippling because of my ocd, depression and anxiety. So crippling to the point I have been terrified to leave my bed. Because I haven’t been leaving the room often I am starting to come off as lazy to my mother in law and I have been slacking on helping around the house. My mother in law has surgery on Tuesday and needs us to help out more. I got up to do the dishes the other day and had to stop because I was having a flare up and felt like I was going to over heat from anxiety. I laid down and never finished the dishes. Today she came home really mad at my husband and I because we haven’t been helping and the guilt is eating me alive. I want to apologize but I don’t want to bring up how I have been feeling because I don’t want it to come off as an excuse. I don’t want this to lead to a point where I’m suffering because of it and I don’t want it to ruin her perception of me. I just feel awful that I’m letting this take over my life. Moments like this make me feel useless and I lose hope of ever getting better. what if I never get better. She does so much for me and I’m letting her down💔
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I genuinely feel like the worlds most horrible person deeply for my past actions in childhood and general mistakes I’ve made. I feel like I shouldn’t be here or there’s no hope for me despite doing right ( trying to do right ) I’ve wanted to open up to my mom about things from my past but when I was talking to her about a situation that happened just to share, she was like “Thank God you’ve never done anything like that” But really my past mistakes are worst. It’s like I feel like I should disappear. I don’t know how to deal with the guilt and I feel horrible. I’ve made good and bad decisions but despite this being a long time ago ( which doesn’t erase my stupid actions ) I still keep bringing back into the present and I’m filled with guilt I genuinely think it would be better if I wasn’t here. I wake up think about my past things and I’m filled with guilt and shame that maybe I am a bad person and voices don’t stop, they keep telling me a lot of things that I start to believe. It makes me upset that I did something like that in my past and I try to be understanding but I can imagine the reactions of people and being condemned so much. I literally do this to myself every single day and it’s exhausting I don’t know how you guys can treat me with so much compassion and understanding. It really doesn’t feel real or like I deserve it. Like even on nocd, it makes me feel worst because I come across comments that say “as long as it’s not —-“ or something and I compare it to my past and I feel like a horrible unacceptable person.
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cause immense guilt when receiving gifts? Or when someone is nice to you, the guilt just floods every vein of your existence. I feel so awful :( awful about my compulsions, about some of my thoughts, about who OCD has made me. My boyfriend just gifted me something, and I have such a heavy feeling in my chest. Worst part is: when I’m not feeling guilty I’m spiraling over that gift was enough, if it could’ve been “better.” I feel like an idiot. I don’t understand why I’m like this
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