Hello guys, i'm new here! Im in a realatonship right now for a month, and i think i have ROCD. Im really bothered rn, my obsessions came for two weeks ago. I can't stop thinking about; "What if my boyfriend's doesn't love me?" "I will lose him." I have compulsions too. I have to repeat the chats in my head that we took online, and if i find out that something is just "normal", i panic, because im afraid of he lost intrest. Sometimes im panicking because our relationship isn't "perfect" we just get along.(What if i lose him???). Booked a date with my psychiatrist, but she cannot receive me just in january 22rd. I can't deal with obsessions. I'll go on a party to my boyfriend's on friday and im really upset. I want to be OK. I want to chill down. His friends will be there too, and im afraid of that he'll ignore me because of his friends. Idk. Is this a part of ROCD? My compulsions are checking and analysing every message we took. And irl im doing this too. Subconsciously. "He didn't smiled at you, he's just hiding his feelings, he lost interst, he doesn't love you anymore." I need some help... Some understanding ears... Some sedation... And im really thankful, if you read all of these... Have a nice day, and stay strong!;)