POCD TW: HELP Haven’t been on this app in a bit because I’ve been doing pretty well! But I had a pretty bad day. I work with children. And my ocd has been targeting one child mostly. (I hope it’s ocd) Today, while hanging out with her she was joking around with me and she was trying to steal a baseball bat out of my hand. She put it between her legs. I started to lose grip of it, so I switched my hand to get a better grip and I pulled it and took it from her, and it moved upward and she instantly said “ouch that hurt” and I think I accidentally hit her in an in appropriate area. I feel really bad. And I’m afraid that she’ll tell her parents I did it or something. My OCD is telling me I did it on purpose but I know I didn’t. Ugh. I was doing SO well before this. But it feels like I’ve moved 10 steps back.

Sorry man, I would definitely feel the same in that situation. We are all going to have slip ups in our recovery. Don’t let this get you down. Something I talk out to myself when ocd tells me I behaved wrong in my work environment: “maybe I did do that on purpose. Maybe I didn’t. But I’m choosing to accept the uncertainty and move on, because I know MY values and I’m going to continue to center my life around them” Ocd will do anything to derail your wonderful progress. Keep up the good work!

Sorry that you’re going through an episode like this. I actually haven’t been on here as much because I’ve also been doing better, so see! We can beat this shit! I totally understand a situation like this. I’ve had a lot of incidents working with kids where something like this could happen and I feel like omg I did something, or it was my inner self subconsciously making me do it. I touched a kids hand today and I remember thinking “you’re touching his hand how does this make you feel?” I don’t even think I would have thought anything of it until my OCD acted up! How’re you feeling now?

Hey! Thanks for checking up. I’m okay! Monday came and nothing happened. I still feel bad. But I’m better than I was on Friday. I’ve got to learn that accidents can happen, and when they do, use them as exposure. Thanks for the reply’s everyone.

Woah it does sound like a difficult episode. Keep calm, you'll see you'll get through this, we're here for you.

You’ll get better just know this isn’t going to last

Letsgo are you doing ok? Noticed you haven’t been back on here

Glad you are good! Yes definitely use it as an exposure. You can do this!!! We are in this together.