- Username
- letsgo
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Sorry man, I would definitely feel the same in that situation. We are all going to have slip ups in our recovery. Don’t let this get you down. Something I talk out to myself when ocd tells me I behaved wrong in my work environment: “maybe I did do that on purpose. Maybe I didn’t. But I’m choosing to accept the uncertainty and move on, because I know MY values and I’m going to continue to center my life around them” Ocd will do anything to derail your wonderful progress. Keep up the good work!
Sorry that you’re going through an episode like this. I actually haven’t been on here as much because I’ve also been doing better, so see! We can beat this shit! I totally understand a situation like this. I’ve had a lot of incidents working with kids where something like this could happen and I feel like omg I did something, or it was my inner self subconsciously making me do it. I touched a kids hand today and I remember thinking “you’re touching his hand how does this make you feel?” I don’t even think I would have thought anything of it until my OCD acted up! How’re you feeling now?
Hey! Thanks for checking up. I’m okay! Monday came and nothing happened. I still feel bad. But I’m better than I was on Friday. I’ve got to learn that accidents can happen, and when they do, use them as exposure. Thanks for the reply’s everyone.
Woah it does sound like a difficult episode. Keep calm, you'll see you'll get through this, we're here for you.
You’ll get better just know this isn’t going to last
Letsgo are you doing ok? Noticed you haven’t been back on here
Glad you are good! Yes definitely use it as an exposure. You can do this!!! We are in this together.
POCD Trigger: I really hate this disorder and I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. I work at a daycare and I’m constantly bombarded with these thoughts that I have hurt a child or even molested them. It is the worst feeling and part of me knows I’d never do that but my OCD really does take over my life. Today, for instance, I was rocking on of the children and I rocked them for two seconds by accident and it told me I molested them. And when I when to pick them up to put them in the play area my hand accidente touched the front of their leg and it told me again I had hurt them, a similar thing happened with another child today where I was feeding them and I accidentally rocked them and I was now a molester. It really is the hardest disorder to deal with. And I hate how it attacked my occupation, I love working with kids and child psychology and everything, but my ocd is really affecting everything.
Trigger Warning: please help! Had a kind of rough day after about a week of feeling decent. Question: I work in childcare, I have memories from before the ocd got bad of my eyes kind of naturally looking at butts. And sometimes, it would be kids butts. I kind of remember commenting on it in my head saying stuff like “wow that’s big for a child” or stuff related to that, and one time even a child came over to me and told brought me over to the monkey bars and told me that he could see a girls underwear, and I kind of looked before telling him it was rude to say that, it was kind of like my eyes were naturally attracted to it, kind of like a car accident I couldn’t look away. But I never thought of it again until the OCD started. I’ve never in my entire life pleasured myself to the thoughts of children, it’s never even crossed my mind until the OCD started, but I’m kind of convincing myself I am one. Ugh I’m so sick of this.
Ok, so I’m looking into past events…. So, I worked at a preschool and a little boy held onto my leg but I got a bad thought but still let my legs go apart to let him hug my leg. I feel awful cause I was thinking how his hands could’ve possibly hit my upper genital area…. I remember worrying about it back then and I’m still worrying about it to this day. Also, I remember thinking how this little girl may end up hitting my area if I don’t move. I didn’t move and felt awful cause I knew it would happen… it has bothered me ever since! I don’t know if that makes me an awful person. Was I taking away innocence of children by not moving?
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