I feel nothing throughout him... I think I should just let him go... can someone help me? Now, one thing about me, is that my love language is quality time. Attentions means everything for me. Giving/receiving more attentions = being really intrested/really care about someone. When I love someone, I would like to talk/stay with them all the time! The problem is that from the event written below, I started to feel apathy with him... the only things that keeps hurting me is the idea of left him! I didn't want to answer his messages , they didn't give me nothing anymore. Now didn't want to see him, or even planning a date with him... his face, his hugs, his kisses means nothing anymore to me... after the day written below, he started to try to make things better; but it is like if I can't trust him anymore... I don't even desire to be intimate with him anymore... it is like If it isn't anymore the bf that I met! That's what's happened: I had rocd in past, I even fall in depression because of that. I was always asking if I love him or not, if I love him enough, and viceversa... than I learned how to control my thoughts, and I started to be happy again, again until a week ago. Me and my bf, because of quarantine, have always date alone. A week ago, I asked him if I can join bowling with his friends group. He was happy about it, so I did get there. I always felt so special because of all the attentions he gaves to me. In that friends group there were 2 girls, both with a bf. My bf, get more along with girls than males and I knew that. But when I was at the bowling; he gave to them (the 2 girls) all the attentions! And I'm not talking about just chatting.. he never put down his eyes from them! A lot of Hugging, hand shaking, compliments for their "bowling performance" a lot of advices and posture correction for throwing the ball, he helped them finding and choosing the right ball etc.. all night like that. And that with the other guys sitting down, talking each others. He said that that it's how he treats his females friends. I was there just soo sad, alone, and wanting to die inside, because all the attentions means to me that I'm less important than all his female friends! Sometimes he sitted next to me too, but just for little minutes! At the and of the night I wanted to take a pause from him, but he was with his friends so I decided to wait to tell him... Before the end, he asked me if I wanted to date him the next day... I didn't know what to say! I declined and ask him to call me later... In that call, I was so devastated; and he really think that I'm just too jealous (he never told me this words, but he said that it is his normal behaviour, that it is just the way he treats his female friends, that because he see me often, when he see his friends it's normal to gave them more attentions!"). He also told me that he could fix this, he gaves me some compromises... that gives me a little hope so I didn'tbroke up with him, but I felt like if I wasn't special enymore... I felt so bad that day... and now I can't recover! I try to keep being happy with him; but I can't! Even if the next days he was more present for me; it felt like it was too late... Sorry for the super long message, I don't want to leave him, but I feel like I have no choice... this event destroyed me, and I don't know If I will ever be able to live a life like that!