I feel so much guilt. With everything I’m going through, I’ve tried talking to my mom again about it and how I’m feeling and she basically said that I’m a good person who’s done horrible things and it really hurt because I never had bad intentions ever. I feel so much guilt it’s unreal. Of course I care what my mom thinks she’s my mom. But when I told her about what she said, she said it was a miss type and I don’t believe her. I think she was trying to cover it up. She even tried to say I’m putting words in her mouth but it’s a message I was literally reading it. I want to give up I feel like I don’t even deserve to be here or be happy. I just wish I could erase everything. Why was I so stupid back then? 4 or 5 years ago? I hate myself. I know the woman I want to be and become but I’m so held back by things I can’t even control

Ocd has a way of distorting everything. Even things that happened a few hours ago, OCD can distort into something that just isn’t true. I’m sorry you’re struggling right now and I hope it gets better soon.

That’s very true. I’m hoping it’s all just ocd blowing everything out of proportion and it’s not actually so scary as it feels but I’m literally so terrified that my real event was so bad that I can never be forgiven. People have told me to let it go but it’s so hard to

I misinterpret a lot of things my parents say and the negative interpretation always feels more real. But in those moments where OCD leaves the control center of my brain for a lunch break, I can think clearly and realize that they’re trying to communicate something good

That’s true I don’t know if maybe she actually didn’t mean it the way I took it but I wouldn’t put it passed my mom to say something like that. She’s very opinionated

@Just Breathe ❤️ I’ve been where you’re at in my thought process. I truly have