Can any SO-OCS sufferers help me with the post I made 4-5 mins ago. I really need help

I’m scared there’s no fighting it like seriously but I don’t seriously do I don’t I don’t it’s not that I do I don’t know I don’t like boobs I don’t want to really sick I will keep smiling like I don’t want guys I have boobs I don’t want triangles and I don’t

I can’t stop making a face and I’m scared they’re gone forever and I’m scared I feel like I don’t but I know I do care but I can’t stop making a face like I don’t like pectorals but I don’t enjoy boobs despite everything and I’m scared pectorals won’t come back and I don’t want big ones but I’ve always like the guys chest I’m trying to do I don’t want the big ones I’ve never been particularly thrilled with them but I’m scared guys aren’t I don’t want them to be gone I don’t want pecs to be gone why do I keep making faces