I know I had soocd at first. I was stressing out a lot about it and it made me feel weird and hyper attentive around males (I’m a male). Now, I feel genuinely attracted to them and there’s no anxiety involved, no hint of something off. Well, I do feel mentally exhausted after having those feelings as if my mind was running. Is it still correct to identify this as soocd. I don’t even have the desire anymore to be with women but the few times where I do, I have a profound happiness, like yes, this I what I have been searching for. I can’t tell the difference anymore between intrusive and real thoughts. Oh, and I’ve lost my sense of being a man. It’s like my mind doesn’t want me to. I’m trying to sit with the uncertainty but I feel like it’s not working. I think I have moved on from soocd and I’m finding out what I am.

Sexual Orientation OCD

JoBo

Date posted: 3y

Yeah dude something that literally drains your soul is not genuine attraction. Reaction does not equal attraction. You gotta do what makes you happy. Attraction is a good feeling and resonates with what you want. Sit in the fact that your reactions don’t mean anything instead of trying to sit in them by making them evidence. They can or cannot mean anything.

Anonym0us

Date posted: 3y

You’re right. It’s difficult for sure. It all just feels so real that to ignore it and do what I would ideally desire feels like denial.

Anonym0us

Date posted: 3y

@Anonym0us What I ideally want to do also doesn’t animate me like it once did :(

JoBo

Date posted: 3y

@Anonym0us That’s okay! When you spend a long time obsessing over something you enjoy it’s very easy to not enjoy it anymore. Perhaps take time away from the whole concert itself and focus on starting a new hobby.

Anonym0us

Date posted: 3y

@JoBo Thank you for your advice! I really appreciate it.

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