I know I had soocd at first. I was stressing out a lot about it and it made me feel weird and hyper attentive around males (I’m a male). Now, I feel genuinely attracted to them and there’s no anxiety involved, no hint of something off. Well, I do feel mentally exhausted after having those feelings as if my mind was running. Is it still correct to identify this as soocd. I don’t even have the desire anymore to be with women but the few times where I do, I have a profound happiness, like yes, this I what I have been searching for. I can’t tell the difference anymore between intrusive and real thoughts. Oh, and I’ve lost my sense of being a man. It’s like my mind doesn’t want me to. I’m trying to sit with the uncertainty but I feel like it’s not working. I think I have moved on from soocd and I’m finding out what I am.

I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.

How can you tell if it’s SOOCD, being in denial or sexual orientation fluid change? I really really hope it’s just SOOCD but I suffer so much from the loss of attraction to opposite gender and severe‘false’ attraction to same gender. It makes me feel sick and want to cry every time I have false attractions. I find it so difficult I feel my entire life has flipped and been destroyed.

I really dont know if it is ocd anymore I dont want certain sexual things with my bf anymore that i used to like When i envision it with a girl it is so easy to envision and it feels like i want that , that will give me the satisfaction This feeling is making me really question if i am still into men , desire men sexually Is this still ocd , i really dont know anymore , as it is a feeling it is too real