I know I had soocd at first. I was stressing out a lot about it and it made me feel weird and hyper attentive around males (I’m a male). Now, I feel genuinely attracted to them and there’s no anxiety involved, no hint of something off. Well, I do feel mentally exhausted after having those feelings as if my mind was running. Is it still correct to identify this as soocd. I don’t even have the desire anymore to be with women but the few times where I do, I have a profound happiness, like yes, this I what I have been searching for. I can’t tell the difference anymore between intrusive and real thoughts. Oh, and I’ve lost my sense of being a man. It’s like my mind doesn’t want me to. I’m trying to sit with the uncertainty but I feel like it’s not working. I think I have moved on from soocd and I’m finding out what I am.

I don’t know if it’s SOOCD. I no longer feel anxious in the moment when I think about women, and it’s like my imagination wants me to think about it and get aroused. I don’t want to be gay, but maybe I am after all. In my life I haven’t been so sexually driven before (when I was living with a man, or when being single) but now all I can think about is having sex with a woman. I don’t want to, but somehow my body does and it feels like my mind have changed to accept it to.. feel so sad This all started around 4 weeks ago..

Feeling hopeful. Pasta days I’ve felt pretty much myself. My attraction to the opposite gender has come back in stages. False attraction to same gender is there but not as near strong as before. It’s like my brain knows it’s OCD. I have been through hell in the past months, really really severe SOOCD. But I see the that this does not define who I am and my values! Keep strong and fight on.

Hi everyone I'm 18 and recently discovered i have soocd. I remember having random thoughts about men and it would make me feel uncomfortable and have bad panic attacks. Sometimes I would have to leave class bc these thoughts was messing with my head. And sometimes I would avoid men bc of this. I remember having a sex dream about one of my guy classmate and when ever I seen him I would have hatred for him. These thoughts keep on repeating over and over in my head to the point where I don't reaction to it. I don't if I'm slowly realizing im actually into men, but I still have this weird gut feeling in my stomach when I think about it. I really don't wanna lose my identity as lesbian.