I was watching a movie and when a gay couple appeared, the thoughts came back. I also had a groinal. I tried to think that it was okay and that I shouldn’t worry about that. However, I felt down there the doubt: “what if I want to be with a woman? What if this response is actually yours and you’re just lying to yourself? What if you were always interested in other women and never saw it? What if…..” I just hate this. I’m so tired. I can’t feel the attraction that I used to feel by men, I keep think about women and their bodies. I rethink every single thing. If I see a beautiful woman the thoughts appear, if I see ANY homossexual related thing they also appear. I just want to be myself again.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Day513

Date posted: 4y

Yes I feel the same way. I get triggered by the same thing

gabi

Date posted: 4y

I hope you’re fine. Do you have any advice? 😞

Day513

Date posted: 4y

@gabi Try to say to yourself “stop trying to figure it out” we have to stop the never ending cycle

linds💕

Date posted: 4y

I understand too, my triggers are the same as well. I’ve learned to tell yourself “maybe,maybe not. It’s not my job to figure it out right now. Right now, I am going to *whatever you’re doing*” it has helped me.

gabi

Date posted: 4y

Thanks for this advice. I’m gonna try it! 😊

WhyMe?

Date posted: 4y

Those “what if” questions are a compulsions. Knowing that, try to limit or better, avoid answering or engaging with them.

gabi

Date posted: 4y

I’m trying to remember this. Thanks for your comment ☺️

WhyMe?

Date posted: 4y

@gabi It’ll take practice but the more you do them, the easier it gets 🙂 remember, asking too much questions, over analyzing or checking are all compulsions. Doing those compulsions will only make you feel worse. Handle those uncertainties without compulsing, it’ll show your brain that you’re able to handle those uncertainties.

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