I know I shouldn’t avoid doing things, but lately I don’t have the energy to do any religious activity. I avoid praying, reading religious articles or the Bible. If I pray, I start to have doubts “does God exist? Do you truly believe? Aren’t you an atheist?” or some sentences “God isn’t real; You’re a fool for believing; You shouldn’t be praying if you’re thinking this or that.” I miss doing these things, but I’m just afraid to start all the thoughts again. I know I’m hiding.

Hey Gabi , I know exactly what you’re going through . I’ve been there and currently deal with that as well ! That’s the enemy trying to stop you from gaining a relationship with God . It’s also you focusing on those thoughts as well and allowing it to affect you and then the enemy manipulates that ! The truth is God is real and Jesus did die and rose for our sins . The Bible is Gods word . It’s His truth ! He wants you to read it and grow in faith ! Don’t give up

Also realize by avoiding those things you are doing avoidance behaviors. One of my exposures was to read the Bible for 30 minutes. Also, God understands we all have mental struggles right now...One scripture I love 1 John 3:20 regarding whatever our hearts may condemn us in, because God is greater than our hearts and knows all things Our hearts condemn us but God is greater than our hearts, he understands

Thanks for sharing your struggle. Besides, thank you for this encouragement!

I’m here too. I literally do my Bible reading (20 min) (which I avoid bc of intrusive thoughts you mentioned) and ERP back to back. My ERP has been strange but helpful. I’ve been purposefully reading article that scare me like : Why Jesus isn’t the son of God and listening to podcasts of people who have abandoned their faith. And not letting myself contradict them. (Gotta put a time limit it on that too, maybe 5-20 min)